This is my second blog.

My first blog chronicled my experiences over three years caring for my dad as he lived through and finally died from Alzheimer's. That is the book that is for sale.

This second blog kind of chronicles of life, what it is like to start your life over in your late 50's. After caretaking, you are damaged, file bankruptcy, and the world doesn't care what you did. After 8 months of unemployment, you wake each day knowing the world doesn't want you. Finally you do find a job, 5 weeks before homelessness, but doing what you did 30 years ago and getting paid what you did 30 years ago. So this is starting over.

The object of life is not to be on the side of the majority, but to escape finding oneself in the ranks of the insane.

Saturday, July 15, 2017


I just started reading again the book Bury My Heart at Wounded Knee.  I read the book back in high school, maybe it was college, no, pretty sure high school - wasn't assigned in a class, just wanted to read it.  Later I compared it to Grendel, the story of Ivanhoe and the last dragon, told from the dragons perspective and BMHWK is the story of this country, from the people who lived here first and their perspective.

And as I began the book, the thought occurred to me, we are headed back to Wounded Knee.  Once upon a time, this land was populated by natives we call Indians.  Indians, all because Columbus got lost and thought he'd landed in India.

But the Indians lived across this great land of North America.  Now, they were not the nut and berry eating squirrel petting  peaceful people that Hollywood likes to portray them as now.  They were brutal and savage, just like the people who landed on their shores.

This story of white men coming and taking over a land isn't just an American story.  It's the worlds story.  The French, the Spanish, the English, the Scandinavians, the Dutch, the Italians, the Greek; all spread out across this planet and if there were people living there already, well, just say hello and move them back out of the way or bury them where they stand.  We, the whites, didn't want all the land, just the land next to ours.

And spread we did, and the poor natives of those lands were slaughtered in our path, not that different Indian tribes didn't slaughter each other, then banded together to fight the white flight.

And they lost.  White men rounded up the native Indians, killed the bravest or those who were planning to buck the system and threw the rest on worthless (farming worthless) land and said good luck.  And after 150ish years, most Indian tribes are still poor places to find yourself living, well, unless they built a casino and have been taking all your money while you've been getting drunk and laughing at the tables.  Kind of a clever way to get back by those Injuns, have a famous singer, millions of white americans will drive to the casino, get drunk and become gambling addicts.  But that is what is not leading our fates to Wounded Knee.

What dawned on me, is where ever Sitting Bull is sitting now, he must be smiling at what is happening.

The Eastern theory of Karma, as we misappropriate it today, what goes around comes around, and what we did is about to happen to us.

Look at Europe and those countries I mentioned earlier, all are being overrun by middle eastern immigrants, brought in on an 'open heart' and the Trojan Horse is opening over there.  A horde of population that has no intention of acclimating to their new country, but determined to make the new home country acclimate to them and their culture.

So now in Sweden their famous summer concert is going women only, seems the last 3 or 4 years all those wonderful mid eastern men have been viewing that concert as some sort of smorgasbord of meat for sex and rapes and sexual assaults of swedish women.  One thing that always bothered me though, besides the fact these guys are raping the women, is where are the swedish men at those concerts protecting those swedish women?  I guess the smorgasbord doesn't have swedish meatballs.

But we are going to see one of two things in our lifetimes; either a very nasty war in Europe to drive the middle easterners back to their homelands or you are going to see Europe become Moslem nations with burkas for all women.

I wonder if they will have to put a marble burka on those marble statues of Margarett Thatcher.

In America, we are not experiencing the same level but it's probably coming, though Trump might put a slow down on that; but we also have waves of people from South America, Central America and Mexico coming into this country because their countries have, for the most part, become cesspools.

Wait a second, while on the subject of Britain, the USA, and let's add Russia in there, apparently those who don't like Trump, calling them Russianers since they remind me of birthers, are upset because they claim reps took materials from a representative from a foreign government to try to use to influence the elections and that should mean Trump should be impeached or his sons brought up on charges of treason.

Now watch this:

Using that same 'logic', then shouldn't all the dems have to resign and all the reporters have to quit and all be brought up on charges of treason for taking a falsified report from a British government representative concerning Trumps supposed behavior in Russia on a business trip and the hookers?  I mean, that came from a 'former' MI5 or MI6 guy - thus the representative of a foreign government, it was used to try to influence the election, so ergo, we can try any and all news station reporters, writers, editors, producers, and talking heads involved with publicizing that report with treason.

Okay, sorry for that tangent, back to the story.

White America is disappearing.  Now, stay with me, I'm not turning into some sort of white racist supremacist or something.  God won't care how much melanin you had in your skin - and if God don't care no reason for me to worry about it either.  That being said, the country, by 2040, will see white people the minority and I don't think that is going to go over all that well with a lot of folks.

If history shows the world one thing, it shows us that when a repressed people gain control, they will almost always be more repressive than the people they replaced. That should make for interesting times.

Cheer up, if you want to see the future, just look at Mexico, Venezuela, El Salvador, Libya, Pakistan, and Somalia today and when that is what America will look like in the future.

And Sitting Bull is finding the whole thing just a little ironic.

They took the whole Cherokee nation
Put us on this reservation
Took away our ways of life
The tomahawk and the bow and knife
Took away our native tongue
And taught their English to our young
And all the beads we made by hand
Are nowadays made in Japan

Cherokee people
Cherokee tribe
So proud to live
So proud to die