This is my second blog.

My first blog chronicled my experiences over three years caring for my dad as he lived through and finally died from Alzheimer's. That is the book that is for sale.

This second blog kind of chronicles of life, what it is like to start your life over in your late 50's. After caretaking, you are damaged, file bankruptcy, and the world doesn't care what you did. After 8 months of unemployment, you wake each day knowing the world doesn't want you. Finally you do find a job, 5 weeks before homelessness, but doing what you did 30 years ago and getting paid what you did 30 years ago. So this is starting over.

The object of life is not to be on the side of the majority, but to escape finding oneself in the ranks of the insane.

Friday, June 23, 2017


It's funny as you approach 60 (six months if you want to send a card.....or present...... or cash) how you start looking at the world, the changes, the improvements, how things are worse, what is coming in the future and you think to yourself....


Here, let me repeat myself, only louder.....


Not even sure where to start with this.  How about cars, trucks, trains, planes and automobiles with no human at the controls.  We just seem to be flowing over some waterfall towards this future and nobody seems to think twice.

Artificial intelligence, well that I am beginning to understand now, because our society is being overrun with illiterate mind numbed people who look to their phones, tablets, computers and TV to do all their thinking for them anymore.  Without saying much, I'm doing a different job right now, same company, reviewing feedback for software and I look thru hundreds, I mean hundreds of feedback forms before I run into one that is intelligently written; proper English and rational thought in describing what happened.  Hundreds, the rest have to be deciphered from stupid into an actual logical classification of an issue.

Jeepers, I wrote better than most of those things in Kindergarten - okay, 2nd grade at least.

But what bugs me is all the warnings we've seen over the years from sci-fi  and other sources of the dangers, the inevitable conclusion, and as a people we just blissfully rush towards it.

How many people put directions in a map program and just turn turn turn.  You have to get from A to B and just pop the two addresses in and the system will route you. All wifi accessible to someone who will turn you right onto some dead end street where they can rob you.  Or a government of the future that decides you are no longer valuable and drive you into a body of water.

We give up control on a plane, but we trust the pilot and let's face it, for the most part the number of times a pilot drives a plane nose first into something gives you odds of winning 4 straight lotteries and then getting hit by lightning as you walk into the lotto building.

Look at Dr. Who, tens of millions of people on both sides of the pond watch Dr. Who.  What have the shows warned you about?  How about putting some device in your car that provides driving instructions and then drives some woman into the river and then one day all the cars start releasing gas to kill everyone?  Or sticking two wireless things in your ear and getting information streamed to your brain?  Or a news/entertainment system that basically feeds you what 'they' want you to know, think, and do.

When archeologists and anthropologists study the end of America hundreds of years from now, they will determine that one of the first places things got out of hand is when corporations that do business with the government bought the new services and made sure no story that might embarrass certain administrations to make sure their billions and billions dollars contracts with the federal government keeps those stock prices up.  Look at Amazon, owners of the washington post, and their cloud servers have a 600,000,000 contract with the CIA to house information.

Now think about that for just a second, throw yourself back 30, 40 or 50 years, can you imagine the CIA storing data with the owners of the Washington Post?  Why would the CIA risk their secrets on the headlines?  Cause they know it won't happen.

We are rushing forward to a society, if we don't blow it all up first, where robots will drive everything that moves, robots will do your job, robots will write blogs and books, robots will write the new, clean the homes.  Who's gonna find a job?  How will humans pay for rent, homes, clothes,  or food if 90% of the population are replaced by robots?

And why when AI programmers and developers talk about all the jobs they are going to eliminate with AI robotics, why are AI programmers and developers never one of those jobs?

Are we better off today than we were in the past?  I use to think yes, but now I'm starting to think no, we are not.  Yes, it's cool having an internet, cool steaming shows, downloading music, reading books.  Yes, it's cool shopping and click click click and two days later it's at your door rather than going to a mall.  You remember malls, where people had jobs?

Soon a drone is going to dump that package of new underwear, coffee maker, and shirts at your door. I'm actually missing the whole mall experience.  I know I miss going to the books store and spending two hours browsing, the smell of the books.

A world of 90% of the population living like the lower 30% live now, while 10% of the population basks in all the glory.

We had a middle class, that is either in the process of dying or drowning trying to stay afloat.  Thirty years ago the middle class was booming.  Today, you have to earn over 70k to have the buying power someone earning 30k had in the 1980's.  You making 70K, I'm not.  But I made 30 and more in the 1980's.

So I've reached that day, that day where you realize it was better in the old days.

Old days, good times I remember
Fun days filled with simple pleasures
Drive-in movies, comic books and blue jeans
Howdy doody, baseball cards and birthdays
Take me back to a world gone away
Memories seem like yesterday

Oh, old days, good times I remember
Gold days, days I'll always treasure
Funny faces full of love and laughter
Funny places, summer nights and streetcars
Take me back to a world gone away
Boyhood memories seem like yesterday

(Old days)
In my mind and in my heart to stay
(Old days)
Darkened dreams of good times gone away

(Old days)
Days of love and feeling fancy free
(Old days)
Days of magic still so close to me