This is my second blog.

My first blog chronicled my experiences over three years caring for my dad as he lived through and finally died from Alzheimer's. That is the book that is for sale.

This second blog kind of chronicles of life, what it is like to start your life over in your late 50's. After caretaking, you are damaged, file bankruptcy, and the world doesn't care what you did. After 8 months of unemployment, you wake each day knowing the world doesn't want you. Finally you do find a job, 5 weeks before homelessness, but doing what you did 30 years ago and getting paid what you did 30 years ago. So this is starting over.

The object of life is not to be on the side of the majority, but to escape finding oneself in the ranks of the insane.

Friday, June 23, 2017


It's funny as you approach 60 (six months if you want to send a card.....or present...... or cash) how you start looking at the world, the changes, the improvements, how things are worse, what is coming in the future and you think to yourself....


Here, let me repeat myself, only louder.....


Not even sure where to start with this.  How about cars, trucks, trains, planes and automobiles with no human at the controls.  We just seem to be flowing over some waterfall towards this future and nobody seems to think twice.

Artificial intelligence, well that I am beginning to understand now, because our society is being overrun with illiterate mind numbed people who look to their phones, tablets, computers and TV to do all their thinking for them anymore.  Without saying much, I'm doing a different job right now, same company, reviewing feedback for software and I look thru hundreds, I mean hundreds of feedback forms before I run into one that is intelligently written; proper English and rational thought in describing what happened.  Hundreds, the rest have to be deciphered from stupid into an actual logical classification of an issue.

Jeepers, I wrote better than most of those things in Kindergarten - okay, 2nd grade at least.

But what bugs me is all the warnings we've seen over the years from sci-fi  and other sources of the dangers, the inevitable conclusion, and as a people we just blissfully rush towards it.

How many people put directions in a map program and just turn turn turn.  You have to get from A to B and just pop the two addresses in and the system will route you. All wifi accessible to someone who will turn you right onto some dead end street where they can rob you.  Or a government of the future that decides you are no longer valuable and drive you into a body of water.

We give up control on a plane, but we trust the pilot and let's face it, for the most part the number of times a pilot drives a plane nose first into something gives you odds of winning 4 straight lotteries and then getting hit by lightning as you walk into the lotto building.

Look at Dr. Who, tens of millions of people on both sides of the pond watch Dr. Who.  What have the shows warned you about?  How about putting some device in your car that provides driving instructions and then drives some woman into the river and then one day all the cars start releasing gas to kill everyone?  Or sticking two wireless things in your ear and getting information streamed to your brain?  Or a news/entertainment system that basically feeds you what 'they' want you to know, think, and do.

When archeologists and anthropologists study the end of America hundreds of years from now, they will determine that one of the first places things got out of hand is when corporations that do business with the government bought the new services and made sure no story that might embarrass certain administrations to make sure their billions and billions dollars contracts with the federal government keeps those stock prices up.  Look at Amazon, owners of the washington post, and their cloud servers have a 600,000,000 contract with the CIA to house information.

Now think about that for just a second, throw yourself back 30, 40 or 50 years, can you imagine the CIA storing data with the owners of the Washington Post?  Why would the CIA risk their secrets on the headlines?  Cause they know it won't happen.

We are rushing forward to a society, if we don't blow it all up first, where robots will drive everything that moves, robots will do your job, robots will write blogs and books, robots will write the new, clean the homes.  Who's gonna find a job?  How will humans pay for rent, homes, clothes,  or food if 90% of the population are replaced by robots?

And why when AI programmers and developers talk about all the jobs they are going to eliminate with AI robotics, why are AI programmers and developers never one of those jobs?

Are we better off today than we were in the past?  I use to think yes, but now I'm starting to think no, we are not.  Yes, it's cool having an internet, cool steaming shows, downloading music, reading books.  Yes, it's cool shopping and click click click and two days later it's at your door rather than going to a mall.  You remember malls, where people had jobs?

Soon a drone is going to dump that package of new underwear, coffee maker, and shirts at your door. I'm actually missing the whole mall experience.  I know I miss going to the books store and spending two hours browsing, the smell of the books.

A world of 90% of the population living like the lower 30% live now, while 10% of the population basks in all the glory.

We had a middle class, that is either in the process of dying or drowning trying to stay afloat.  Thirty years ago the middle class was booming.  Today, you have to earn over 70k to have the buying power someone earning 30k had in the 1980's.  You making 70K, I'm not.  But I made 30 and more in the 1980's.

So I've reached that day, that day where you realize it was better in the old days.

Old days, good times I remember
Fun days filled with simple pleasures
Drive-in movies, comic books and blue jeans
Howdy doody, baseball cards and birthdays
Take me back to a world gone away
Memories seem like yesterday

Oh, old days, good times I remember
Gold days, days I'll always treasure
Funny faces full of love and laughter
Funny places, summer nights and streetcars
Take me back to a world gone away
Boyhood memories seem like yesterday

(Old days)
In my mind and in my heart to stay
(Old days)
Darkened dreams of good times gone away

(Old days)
Days of love and feeling fancy free
(Old days)
Days of magic still so close to me


So, according to the latest news, a US Navy ship gets broadsided in the middle of the night by some container ship.  The container ship, it turns out, was on autopilot and the US Navy ship's radar did not pick up what the container ship apparently did; a it suddenly made hard right and went on that new route for about 3 minutes, then turn hard left and got back on course.

Now why would a ship on autopilot, suddenly make a hard turn to go straight at another ship and for some reason not appear on the radar of a ship with the top of the line radar?

I smell a hack, a test run.

Imagine one day if large ships on autopilot all diverted their courses and aimed at military, cruise, oil tankers, hey you name it, you can cause all sorts of hell.

Imagine just a little more that Russia or China can hack Navy radars and hide something as large as a container ship.

Saturday, June 3, 2017


That title is one of my favorite book titles, unfortunately, the book is about some football player that had it all and lost it cause of his behavior around some underage girls.

But that title came to mind reading about the poor poor plight of Kathy Griffen.  Such a sad story.

Okay, not really.

So the woman who is a famous comedian because she swears  and makes obscene hand signs on TV and hits all the politically correct positions dead center and now her career is over because she had a picture taken holding up a blood soaked replica of the president's head.

And the backlash was immediate, she panics, apologizes, and then hires some attorney who brings her out for a press conference and now claims she is being bullied for her free expression and artistic integrity.

That has to be the sorriest excuse since the Melendez brothers expected mercy at their sentencing for killing their parents because they were now orphans.

There are liberal positions or people I like and sometimes agree with.  I absolutely loved Les Leopold's book Raging Inequality, for example.  While typing this, I'm listening to REM.  But I am sorry, liberalism today is the antithesis of logical thinking.

Climate change - liberal thinkers actually believe we can change the long term weather patterns of the planet but we can't control our borders.  Liberals look at the world and the violence in the inner cities of hopeless generations of blacks in our inner cities with crappy school systems run by liberals for 50 years, joblessness in inner cities almost exclusively run by democratic party mayors, watch moslems throw gays off rooftops, behead people who disagree with them, crash planes into buildings, blow themselves up in concerts killing teenagers, kill their daughters in ritual killings, roving rape gangs of moslems looking for white chicks and liberals will tell the biggest problem is  white christian conservatives; they are the real problem.

The classical liberal is a thing of the past, now we only have stupid thinking people with no training in logic or critical thinking who suffer no cognitive dissonance with opposing views in their brains because while on the surface they appear opposite, in truth they are at their foundation the same - wrong and stupid.

So Trump walked away from the Paris accord.  Good.  If that and appointing several conservatives to the Supreme Court are all he accomplishes in his term(s) he will be a success in my book.  But if you read anything on our walking away from Paris, you would think Trump came out for poisoning air and water and ending humanity.

Walking away from Paris does not prevent companies from pursuing solar power or wind power, it just makes sure we don't live in a country with rolling brown outs and black outs.  It means coal plants and coal mines will be operating, it means plants won't close and have to go overseas because the EPA decides that an extra 1 part per billion of some gas is not worth 2500 jobs.  And next time you see them forcing car companies to do something to add 5k to the price of a car to reduce emissions by 10%, you need to understand that today's cars already have reduced emissions by over 98% from a 1960s car and that 10% reduction is really a 10% of  that remaining 2% or .002 reduction for another 5k from your pocket.

Excuse me, what is that noise, oh just a private airplane owned by DeCrapio or the bozo at Telsa flying overhead to a private dinner party across the planet to rally similar believers that the combustible engine is evil, sorry, where was I.......

The next time some Prius or Volt owner turns their nose up at your car and what you do to the environment ask them if they ever looked up all the rare metals that are in their car, where they come from and if they are proud of all the african slave labor that it took to get those metals so they could drive a Prius.  I would love to get a bumper sticker for my old Volvo that says this car is build from materials that involved no slave labor unlike a Prius or Volt.

The new motto for the democratic party should be "Do what we say not what we do".

Here is what is known about the whole climate change movement.  It use to be called global warming.  But after several cases where it was found those people pushing the global warming agenda were manipulating the data, cheating, and that there has actually been something of a cooling for the last 15 years, they changed from global warming to climate change - kind of like taking a long straddle in the options market, you bet and win if the number moves in either direction.  So now they claim their is climate change and anyone who disagrees with the rest of the program is a denier.

One class in logic and a 3rd grader could destroy that argument.

Of course there is climate change, 500 years ago we were in a little ice age.  2000 years ago the average temps were about 10 degrees warmer than they are now.  Greenland.... use to be green with grasses and trees - they have even found evidence in the Antartica that show at one time in past it had grasses and trees.

The framing of the debate by the logicless left is you either believe their definition of climate change and causes for climate change or you are an idiot, a denier, a moron or a white christian conservative.

Well, I believe in climate change.  I believe that over time due to the amount of energy (read heat) produced by the sun, the amount of heat produced in our molten core, will effect temperatures on earth.  And there is not a damn thing we can do about either of those, unless you are a liberal who thinks not driving SUV's will cool the planet regardless of solar activity.

I wonder, if all this is the fault of the white conservative christian driving pickup trucks and SUV's, does a gay black man driving a pickup truck also pollute?  What if the gay black man is an actor driving to his private plane to fly to Paris to denounce Trump, does it cause pollution?

What I have not seen answered is exactly how the logicless left intend to charge all those electric self driving cars in a world run on solar power and wind power - do you know if I waved a magic wand and changed every car in america to an electric car like the volt that the entire country would suffer a black out when everyone plugged in the car to charge because WE DON'T NOW PRODUCE ENOUGH ELECTRICITY TO CHARGE THEM ALL.

Well, the logicless left think, we could put solar panels and a windmill on the top of every car to charge it has it drives!  Heck, why not just put sails on the roof of the cars?  Or enslave all the white conservative christians to attach them to harnesses and have them pull the cars and trucks everywhere oh wait, probably shouldn't have suggested that, Waters or Pelosi see that they will think what a great idea.

THIS JUST IN:  Giant comet is headed to earth and due to impact in 2021, democrats immediately call for a new bill to allow men who dress like women to use women's restrooms.

I want the sun to shine on me
I want the truth to set me free
I wish the followers would lead
with a voice so strong it could knock me to my knees

Hold on world 'cause you don't know what's coming
Hold on world 'cause I'm not jumping off
Hold onto this boy a little longer
Take another trip around the sun

If I jumped into the ocean to believe
If I climbed a mountain would I have to reach?
Do I even dare to speak?--to dream?--believe?
Give me a voice so strong
I can question what I have seen

Hold on world 'cause you don't know what's coming
Hold on world 'cause I'm not jumping off
Hold onto this boy a little longer
Take another trip around the sun