This is my second blog.

My first blog chronicled my experiences over three years caring for my dad as he lived through and finally died from Alzheimer's. That is the book that is for sale.

This second blog kind of chronicles of life, what it is like to start your life over in your late 50's. After caretaking, you are damaged, file bankruptcy, and the world doesn't care what you did. After 8 months of unemployment, you wake each day knowing the world doesn't want you. Finally you do find a job, 5 weeks before homelessness, but doing what you did 30 years ago and getting paid what you did 30 years ago. So this is starting over.

The object of life is not to be on the side of the majority, but to escape finding oneself in the ranks of the insane.

Sunday, April 30, 2017


So, have had a few semi interesting experiences of late I thought I would share.

This WHOLE blog will be about a grocery store chain where I buy FOOD at least once a week, I don't do all my shopping there because, well, it's pretty expensive, but what I really like is their healthy prepared FOOD.

When ever I was there, I use to buy a sandwich from the sandwich grill.  They had this really good Horsetooth Sandwich, which is really just a reuben with a clever name for 8.99.

So on the 21st I went there to buy some things and picked up from the prepared section some lasagna, deviled eggs, couple of cucumbers, bread, and a package of smoked salmon.  Oh, and from their new sandwich menu with I didn't realize until I'd gotten the sandwich, all those 7.99 and 8.99 sandwiches were now 11.99 and 12.99.  New menu, four bucks more for the WHOLE sandwich.

So, sandwich for lunch, 1/2 the lasagna for dinner, on Saturday ate a cream cheese with salmon and cucumber sandwich.  Felt great, no issues.

Saturday night, I used the deviled eggs, with a slice of cucumber and a piece of salmon, around 8pm

At midnight I was on the toilet, by 6am, the WHOLE digestive system had expelled all the FOOD I'd ever eaten, but no, that didn't stop my need to be in the can.  Because then came the blood and bloody powder for another 12 hours.

Yes, I looked for something to take, the Imodium AD had an expiration date of 2013.

By noon Sunday, I'd downloaded a living will and filled it out.

Late Sunday I finally felt confident to run to Kroger and get some Imodium.  Sunday I hate yogurt,  but not much else.  Monday I thought about eggs and almost puked just thinking of eggs.

So I wrote a WHOLE email to the grocery store chain and warned them to pull the deviled eggs and I got this wonderful nice reply that basically said no one else has complained, food poisoning can take 72 hours to hit, it wasn't their food, they take food prep very seriously.  And I'm thinking, you know lady, I didn't get a lawyer, didn't ask for a refund, didn't ask for money and you send that type o letter?

But I went back to the store today because one, I like their can sugar store pop, it's got natural cane sugar and no caffeine, I could drink it 365 days a year!  And they have really great thin crispy chocolate chip cookies, and I bought a prepared meal of chicken with pasta.

So after emptying the groceries grab the container of chick/pasta and pull a plate out of the dishwasher, still hot cause ran when I was shopping, and dumped the pasta on my plate and walked into the living room and sat down, stirred it up and saw this:

Yes, dumping the meal on my plate disturbed the living room of the beetle or roach or whatever it was that was in my FOOD.

So, threw all the FOOD into the garbage, the WHOLE thing.  Then tossed something else because at this point there is no way I am going to eat any of the prepared foods from this store again.  Which means I might just run in there once a week for a pack of cookies and 12 cans of real sugar cola.

Now I wonder what the hell is my my cola or those cookies.

I think I will write back that nice person who basically told me to screw off, wasn't their fault I got sick as I ever was and show her the picture of the obviously very health WHOLE beetle living in their seriously safely prepared pasta salad.  That is 10 bucks sitting in my garbage can right now.

Really pissin' me off, no wonder the chain's stock is tanking, hmm, what is that number for the Colorado Board of Health?

Saturday, April 8, 2017


There were a lot of reasons people voted for you, President Trump.

I can't think of anyone who voted for you because they wanted you to launch missiles into Syria.  Nobody Mr. President, those people who want a war in Syria all voted for Hillary.

That is what we expected Hillary to do.

That is what the neocons wanted to do.

That is not what we elected you to do.

It's difficult to judge a president, especially a new president with a new health care plan that will bring down premiums - oh wait, we don't have that plan - or a new tax plan that takes the tax burden off the middle class - oh wait, we don't  have that plan either - or a new president that was going to get along with Russia and not try to start a war with them - oh wait, never mind.

Just did my taxes, and hey, I got to admit, using Turbo Tax now online is really easy, as long as you don't mind handing out all your info over the net.  They pulled my w2 from employer, they pulled my account info from broker, I didn't have to type in a number or dig thru forms or anything and was done in an hour.

Of course, that cost me 120 plus what I owe in fed and state so now I am not sure I will have food to eat for a few days in my future, so I can't claim the whole process was painless.

But bombing Syria, really?  We could of done that with Hillary and not had to deal with all the snowflakes or cupcakes or whatever they are called having hissy fits.

Here is what else it did.  It wrecked any plans you might have had to go after North Korea.  You could have put a plan together with Japan, South Korea, Britain and Australia; asked China to join the coalition, and then hit NK and put their government into the ground, kill the nuke programs, wipe out the military, and freed the people of NK for 70 years of oppression and looked like a BFH.  And a message would go out to the rest of the world, hey, this is not some let's invade Granada or lets shoot some missiles and call it a day kind of wussie hide behind the desk warrior.  You would of sent a message that you are willing to take on what nobody else would, get it done, and that would have made the rest of the world fall quickly in line.

Now, if you do that, you are just going to look like a hungry power crazed war monger.  Who the hell are you listening to that talked you into this stupid thing?  I'd bet the farm, they didn't vote for you.

You need to grab Paul and Mitch by their little thingies and explain that if you don't get your tax plan thru and passed by June 1st, they will need to step down and we will get someone in their jobs who can.  And they need to repeal ObamaCare by Dec. 31, 2017 - by which time a new plan is going to be designed and approved by both sides of the Congress and it's not going to be anything like that fiasco RyanCare would have been.

You were not elected to wave your you know what around and just bomb another country like Syria that is no threat to anyone other than those living in Syria.  You were not elected to send arms to ISIS in Syria and then wage a war against ISIS elsewhere - that is Hillary thinking.

You were elected to fix this economy, fix the infrastructure, clean out the swamp in DC, get rid of waste in government, fix the immigration system, fix the tax system, fix the health care system.  Isn't that keeping you busy enough Mr. President?  That is a big load.  Taking a day off to bomb Syria and piss off the Russians - find a new hobby.

Like I said, I don't know who talked you into this, but fire their ass immediately and focus focus focus on the economy, illegal immigration, taxes, healthcare and infrastructure.  Jobs jobs jobs - oh, I know there was a great report but that report is calculated the same way and is as full of crap as it was coming out under Obama.

Be different, be bold, do what you were elected to do and quit listening to the neocons or you will be a one term president.

However, in fairness, like what you seem to be doing about the H1B1 program, thank you.

Round, like a circle in a spiral
Like a wheel within a wheel.
Never ending or beginning,
On an ever spinning wheel
Like a snowball down a mountain
Or a carnaval balloon
Like a carousell that's turning
Running rings around the moon

Like a clock whose hands are sweeping
Past the minutes on it's face
And the world is like an apple
Whirling silently in space
Like the circles that you find
In the windmills of your mind