This is my second blog.

My first blog chronicled my experiences over three years caring for my dad as he lived through and finally died from Alzheimer's. That is the book that is for sale.

This second blog kind of chronicles of life, what it is like to start your life over in your late 50's. After caretaking, you are damaged, file bankruptcy, and the world doesn't care what you did. After 8 months of unemployment, you wake each day knowing the world doesn't want you. Finally you do find a job, 5 weeks before homelessness, but doing what you did 30 years ago and getting paid what you did 30 years ago. So this is starting over.

The object of life is not to be on the side of the majority, but to escape finding oneself in the ranks of the insane.

Saturday, March 25, 2017


Dear Mr. President,

Whew, that was close.  You almost got labeled replacing a swamp gas foul smelling stinking health care plan with a swamp gas pretty smelling health care plan.  Kind of like putting lipstick on a pig?  Now that you mention it.

Can't help wondering about something though.  Paul Ryan is not your friend, you know it.  The guy bad mouthed you all during the primaries, said he couldn't support you, finally after you got the nomination said okay, then when that tape came out dropped you like a rock.  But when you got elected and members of congress were looking at dumping the gym sock, you didn't push that, and he became speaker and now you've hung a dead albatross around his neck and in the next couple of weeks if he is forced to step down from Speaker, I gotta say, that was one seriously cool job of paying the score.

But let's talk about health care Mr. President.  So RyanCare dies, and the middle class is going to need to keep paying premiums 3 to 4 times higher than we did before ObamaCare.

Now here is the thing.  There are certain inevitable things in life; death, governments taxing working people till just before the point where they show up at the presidents residence with torches and pitchforks.  Well, there is another one.

National Health Care.  Anyone that studies the cause/effects and flow of life knows that by 2030, maybe 2035, America will have NHC.

And let's face facts.  The republicans cannot possibly create a NHC system.  No way, no how.  Republicans are cursed thru all history of shooting themselves in the foot, time and time again.  And they will never come to agree on NHC.  Democrats, the adorable little lemmings, well they all fall right in line when a democrat is in the WH and they will gladly design a NHC system.  But face facts, democrats would take two years to plan a softball game.  There would have to be environmental impact studies, then members of the party would point out it won't be fair to have some athletic white guy only having to run 90 feet to a base when an out of shape woman has to run the same distances and by the time of the game each player will have a different distance to run between bases based on sex, race, income, sexual preferences, etc.

Just look at the two major bills signed when Obama had a democratic congress:  ObamaCare and the Dodd Frank Bill, two bills that nobody could read before voting and nobody today has finished reading either since.

Now this is why we elected you Mr. President.

We elected a businessman to do things right.  So that is what you need to come up with, a National Health Care Plan, Medicare cradle to grave, and pay for it with a 1 or 2 cent sales tax.

Now everyone who buys anything will pay for NHC.  People who work, people who don't work.   Everyone  will pay into the system.  And those who make more money will contribute more because they will spend more.

Now, people will still need to buy medicare supplement insurance, but that will be prices nice because those who have trouble getting insurance with pre existing conditions will have all the basics covered by the NHC system, the sample size of people buying will drive the prices down and you can get rid of the medicare tax on payrolls, businesses will love you because one of the biggest disadvantages we have globally is everyone else has NHC and we have our businesses putting all those company paid premiums into the cost of goods sold - that will go away which should drive down prices since that Ford car won't have health insurance premiums tacked onto the price of the car, the dealers won't have to tack it on, etc etc etc.

This is why we elected you.  To be different, to think different, to be bold.

Plan it right, like a business, put in poke yoke traps to prevent congress from raising the taxes from 1 cent to 5 cents to get their hands on cash - you know like can't raise the tax more than 1/2 a cent and cannot raise the tax more than once every 5 years and cannot raise it more than twice in 20 years, etc.

This is why we elected you, not that embarrassing politician thing we saw this week, unless that was you being clever to get rid of Paul Ryan or something.

And you can sell this to the America public.  Point out how medicare will cover every citizen from birth to death, yes you should by supplement insurance, prescription drug prices will come down to levels similar to Canada, businesses will boom because they will be freed of the burden of paying for employee health care, nobody can bitch about a 1 cent sales tax to pay for health care - well, they will but will look like the idiots they are and anytime you can let idiots behave like idiots it is a win win for everyone.

This is why we elected you.  Be bold, think different, be different.

Speaking of which, all these pension funds going broke is an albatross just waiting to die and bury this country.  Problem is, almost all pension funds are based on the assumption that they can get a 7% return.  Trouble is, the last time bonds paid 7% Bush Senior was president.  Since Clinton, presidents have worked hard to force interest rates down to 1% to make payments on the trillions in debt less.  And because of that, pension funds are going broke.  So unless you want this volcano to blow during your presidency, or leave it for the next president, why don't you do something about it.  Not hard, just allow public and private pensions to invest at least 50% into mutual funds.

Imagine what pension funds would look like if they'd been investing in Fidelity Funds, American Funds, Franklin Funds etc the last 30 years.  None would be broke and pensioners would be very happy.

This is why we elected you.  To be bold, think different, be different.

And while I am at it, one more thing.  The tax code.  KISS it Mr. President.  Keep it Simple, stupid.  You don't need multiple percentages.  Pick something between 10% and 18%.  No deductions, none at all.  No interest on home loans, no charitable, no kids, nada nothing.

Just make the standard deduction 40k for single and 60k for married.  If you are single and make 60k, you pay, say 15% on 20k or 3k.  Less than you do now.  Make 100k and married, you pay 15% on 40k.  Less than you do now.  Of course, the more you make the more you pay and that is not how it works now.  I paid a higher % on my taxes last year than you did, Pelosi did, Obama did, Buffett did, etc.  Because that % you decide on will also be the tax on dividends, capital gains and net income for corporations.

And everyone can understand it.  It's simple to do and the lobbyists will hate you for it but the people will love you for it.

This is why we elected you.  To be bold, think different, be different.

Gaily bedight, 
   A gallant knight, 
In sunshine and in shadow,   
   Had journeyed long,   
   Singing a song, 
In search of Eldorado. 

   But he grew old— 
   This knight so bold—   
And o’er his heart a shadow—   
   Fell as he found 
   No spot of ground 
That looked like Eldorado. 

   And, as his strength   
   Failed him at length, 
He met a pilgrim shadow—   
   ‘Shadow,’ said he,   
   ‘Where can it be— 
This land of Eldorado?’ 

   ‘Over the Mountains 
   Of the Moon, 
Down the Valley of the Shadow,   
   Ride, boldly ride,’ 
   The shade replied,— 
‘If you seek for Eldorado!’ 

Monday, March 6, 2017


I find myself adrift.

No motivation, no ambition.

I don't have a TV, but don't kid yourself, the computer is on and old shows, DVD's, and in any given month I might be subscribed to Netflix or Amazon Prime.

Wasting time, wasting life.  Don't go to church anymore, not many churches today are where I am at theologically.  I've discovered in my studies, the questioning of Paul's Epistles belonging in the Bible has been raging since Day 1.  Early church fathers totally rejected Paul, not until Constatine did Paul become important, so important most all churches today are Paulinian not Jesus focused.  Kierkegaard rejected Paul, thus his statement "I am not a Christian" came from his rejection of Paul's words over the OT and Jesus' words.  Tolstoy rejected Paul, even Bonhoeffer rejected Paul, thus his book The Cost of Discipleship where he trashes the 'cheap grace' of Paul's epistles.

Well I do have this dream of riding my bike across America in 2020 to take my mom's ashes home.  I got the bike now, only need to get myself in shape  to make the trip, physically and financially.  Right now those are far off.

Do I have goals?  Well, and there is don't be fired.  I find myself figuring out if I can put another % in company stock or 401k, yes, started a 401k, and then multiplying it out till I'm 70 and thinking well, as long as the market triples over the next 11 years, I continue to get about 4% a year increases, I can work with same company for another 10 years, the company continues to grow, the US economy recovers and grows,  I will have enough to retire.  There are a whole lot of 'if's' in that plan I have absolutely no control over.

What kind of idiocy am I thinking?  Like XXX is going to let me continue what I'm doing for another 10 years, like AI won't be replacing this position by the time I'm 65 and like they don't have some sort of way to rid people at 65.  Do you know how many things can go wrong in 10 years to prevent that plan from working?

I'm trying to live simply, drive a 99 volvo still and hopefully will for a few more years.  Trying to put 12% in stock and 401k now, trying to eliminate things so I can increase that number.  Get a raise, increase the % and never actually get any of the raise.

And I think this is a plan?  If one thing life has taught me, plans, never work.

See, the problem is, as we move forward in time, the BB and Gun X'ers are going to need to work past 65 in a society that will push them out at 65, in a society that will be replacing 50% of all jobs with robots within 20 years.

Smart people in government and business would be thinking about this, not whether someone had lunch with a Russian in 2016.  But then smart people don't go to DC, little people who dream of power and sell their soul to the devil go to DC, so can't expect much hope, only chains, from them.

What I need, is to relax and enjoy the drifting.  And just accept the fact of life that no matter what I do, it won't matter in the end.

I said land-ho, will I be sailing forever
Oh-oh I gotta find some shelter from the cold
Land-ho, will I be searching forever
Oh-oh I gotta find an anchor for my soul

Well you may think I'm a fool, and think I'm running away
But I've had enough of the city lights, oh I've got no reason to stay

I said land-ho, will I be sailing forever
Oh-oh I need some wind to help me to my goal
Land-ho, will I be searching forever
Oh-oh, I gotta find an anchor for my soul

When you're alone there's not a sail in sight
Oh it's cold and dark and there's no one there to see you through the night
There once was a lady made me feel alright
But she couldn't stay so one lonely day, she just sailed away
And took away my life

Maybe I'll always be sad, and maybe there'll always be strife
Drifting alone with a saddened tone, afloat on the ocean of life


I know, I know, it's been over a month, my imaginary readers.

Writing is kind of like working out.  Back in college, the gyms I belonged to were setup like this:  T-TH-Sat were men workout days and MWF were women workout days.  I never missed a workout - yes, I could ONLY go TTHSat and I worked TTHSat evenings as a bartender, but the thing was, I knew if I blew off Tuesday, it would be Thursday before I could workout again, which would mean I'd go 5 days between workouts.

Now gyms are open 24 hours a day 7 days a week and I noticed when gym hours expanded over the years my ability to blow off a workout increased.

Writing a blog now is kind of like that, there is so much to write about, by the time my 'blog' has started to form in my head, new news hits the waves and I never write the mental blog I completed and start making up a new blog.

I sit in utter amazement at what is happening in the news.  You KNOW this is not going to end well.

To the snowflakes or spoiled millennials or brainwashed little brats, whatever they are called, you need to understand a basic fact of life:

What you are thinking about the current president is not very much different than millions of people thought over the last 8 years of Obama.  Yep, very little difference.  Except those to thought that way about Obama and wondered how we would survive hunkered down and waited it out and the opportunity to elect someone who would overturn Obama - which is why Trump is in office today.

Cheer up, you got the media on all those DC bureaucrats on your side.

See, when we thought it strange that Obama locked up all his records including high school, college, graduate, and law school records we thought that strange, some of us remember a young black guy on Chicago Tonite (7pm on PBS Channel 11 in Chicago) always introduced as 'born in Kenya" and his PR firm said he was born in Kenya and wondered if he could run for president, we were called birthers and nuts.

Now you demand Trump reveal his tax returns and even have a NY reporter posting his contact info asking IRS agents to forward him those tax records - breaking the law in so many ways, and that is okay.

Snowflakes, you sound like the birthers.

But hats off to the people who showed up at the Trump rally in Austin recently.  When speakers were rudely interrupted but about 2 dozen anti Trump protesters, the Trump attendees walked over and basically kicked their asses around for a few minutes, teaching snowflakes for the first time that exercising your freedom of speech can have consequences.  For the past 8 years, if people spoke out against Obama, we were called racists, bigots, homophobes, and whatever other adjectives were available in the dems little red book called "shouting adjectives to avoid actual debate".

The dems in DC were going bonkers that anyone associated with Trump might of had a conversation with anyone in Russia, read “Notes from the Underground” by Dostoyevsky, or ate black fish eggs sometime in the last 100 years and claiming we should impeach until pictures show up of all those same dems eating, drinking, and laughing it up with all those now evil Russian leaders.

And this weekend Trump goes nuts in Twitter (would someone please break his cell phone now) about his home being bugged and Obama saying wasn't him, he never did anything like that while Jim Rosen and Sheryl Atkinson choke on their morning coffee and muffin reading Obama saying he never orders wiretaps on anyone.

Think about this for a second, a former prez with quite the little record of wiretaps on American citizens while he is in office and a president who discovers wiretaps in his home - golly, anyone checking out Pence's home, and ask yourself why would Trump announce this in the way he did and not wonder what is up with that?

There is a little game going on.  Obama is suppose to be living now with Valarie Jarrett in DC, where is Michelle in all this?  I mean how many marriages do you know where the husband can announce, "hey baby, I think it would be great if another woman moved in with us, you don't mind do you?".  So they are reported to be running the get rid of Trump, as opposed to most presidents who go quietly away and don't screw with the new president, and now Trump has thrown down a gauntlet that can only lead to a Congressional investigation into Obama.  Hmmmm.

So many data points its impossible to create a readable diorama.

And, oh this is choice, on March 15th, the federal government will reach it's limit of 20 trillion debt.  So Trump and reps either have to pass a new law increasing debt, which of course after 20 trillion votes to raise the debt limit to 20 trillion by dems, they will vote not to raise the debt and then blame republicans for out of control spending.  Or Trump can say, nope buck stops here, enough is enough and we will immediately start cutting federal spending and have rolling layoffs of the massive bureaucracy and now the snowflakes will be joined by all the federal employees protesting Trump, along with the Federal Reserve who's job it is to put the US into total unrecoverable bankruptcy.

Snowflakes, ask yourself one simple question, why, in 2008, did Obama refer to Bush increasing the debt from 5 trillion to 10 trillion as being treasonous, (despite the fact that in four years in Senate Obama voted yes to every spending bill and spending increase): and yet has president Obama increased the debt from 10 to 20 trillion in 8 years - why does the media give him a pass for overspending and doubling the debt all the other presidents created in US History?

This is what I am talking about you are brainwashed, programmed, and you don't even care.

Would it be tacky to start a pool on what season/year the powers that be take out Trump?

Because that is where this is headed.  The tie breaker will be correctly picking the correct patsy.  Whom will the elites want to setup as the assassins of Trump?  Will it be a Russian?  Syrian?  Chinese?  Bad bets would be snowflakes, illegal alien mexicans.  Because the purpose of the elimination of Trump will be a war; Trump being elected ruined the plans for a war with Russia.

I wonder how all the snowflakes who will celebrate the assassination of our US president will feel the next morning when they get their draft notices to report to the army for the war with Russia?

I hear her voice in the morning hour as she calls me
The radio reminds me of my home far away
Driving down the road I get a feeling
That I should have been home yesterday, yesterday

Country Roads, take me home
To the place I belong,
West Virginia,
Mountain Mamma, take me home
Country roads