This is my second blog.

My first blog chronicled my experiences over three years caring for my dad as he lived through and finally died from Alzheimer's. That is the book that is for sale.

This second blog kind of chronicles of life, what it is like to start your life over in your late 50's. After caretaking, you are damaged, file bankruptcy, and the world doesn't care what you did. After 8 months of unemployment, you wake each day knowing the world doesn't want you. Finally you do find a job, 5 weeks before homelessness, but doing what you did 30 years ago and getting paid what you did 30 years ago. So this is starting over.

The object of life is not to be on the side of the majority, but to escape finding oneself in the ranks of the insane.

Saturday, October 29, 2016


One of my guilty pleasures is listening to Sara McLachlan, and something about a sunny fall afternoon, leaves are falling, and listening to Afterglow Live.

Listen as the wind blows
from across the great divide,
Voices trapped in yearning,
memories trapped in time,
The night is my companion
and solitude my guide,
Would I spend forever here
and not be satisfied?

And I would be the one
to hold you down,
kiss you so hard,
I'll take your breath away
and after I'd wipe away the tears,
Just close your eyes dear

How can a world that produces life and talent like that produce an election like this?  And yes, I know Possession is not on the Afterglow Live album, work with me here, okay?

Can this get any funnier?  I mean this week Michael Moore came out and said something that nailed it, and I'm thinking how crazy is this when Michael Moore makes sense?

Moore began by saying he knew a lot of people in Michigan who were going to vote for Trump who “were not racists or rednecks” but were sick of their jobs being offshored to places like Mexico.
Trump’s promise to slap a 35% tariff on Ford cars made in Mexico and sent back to America was “music to the ears of people in Michigan and Ohio and Pennsylvania and Wisconsin,” added Moore.

“Whether Trump means it or not is kind of irrelevant because he’s saying the things to people who are hurting and it’s why every beaten down, worthless, forgotten working stiff who used to be part of what was called the middle class loves Trump,” said Moore, arguing that Trump was the “human molotov cocktail that they’ve been waiting for – the human hand grenade that they can legally throw into the system that stole their lives from them.”

According to Moore, these disenfranchised Americans have lost everything they have but still enjoy the great equalizer – the right to vote – and they will utilize it by putting “a big f**king X in the box by the name of the man who has threatened to upend and overturn the very system that has ruined their lives – Donald J. Trump.”

The film maker noted that “the elites who ruined their lives hate Trump, corporate America hates Trump, Wall Street hates Trump, the career politicians hate Trump, the media hates Trump.”
Asserting that his voters will “get to blow up the whole God damn system,” Moore concluded by saying, “Trump’s election is going to be the biggest f**k you recorded in human history, and it will feel good.”  (copied from the infowar.com website because I'm the only person left on the internet who actually sources)

I mean does that drive the nail home with a single blow of the hammer or what?

Through this world I've stumbled
so many times betrayed,
Trying to find an honest word,
to find the truth enslaved,
Oh you speak to me in riddles
and you speak to me in rhyme
My body aches to breathe your breath,
you words keep me alive,

And I would be the one
to hold you down,
kiss you so hard,
I'll take your breath away
and after I'd wipe away the tears,
Just close your eyes dear

And now we find out that Anthony Weiner and his now ex wife Huma were not only the strangest most bizarre couple in history of coupledom, but apparently great librarians of porn and classified information from the federal government.  Huma apparently did what most of us have done and emailed home stuff to work on that night, except most of us are not emailing highly classified information to a computer shared by a spouse who likes to flirt and who knows what with 15 year old girls over the internet.

I'm sorry, maybe I'm out of touch, but what the hell is this society's fascination with sending naked pictures of yourself - somehow we all woke in a world where everyone thinks they are hot and I'm sorry, we are not.  Maybe 1 out of 100 are hot and I'd bet I wouldn't even find pictures of, oh crap, my total lack of knowledge of who is famous in Hollywood is shining thru, I can't think of anyone.  The point is, Weiner, you ain't hot, neither is your ex wife.  WOULD EVERYONE STOP SENDING CREEPY NAKED PICTURE OF THEMSELVES, PLEASE?

However, by hot I mean attractive naked, right now the two of you are burning hot.  Would not be surprised to see a news story soon of a murder suicidy thing involving the two of you where Vince Foster leaves a business card, if you get my drift.

Can you imagine the wrath of Hillary on whom she blames for losing this election?

you live in a church
where you sleep with voodoo dolls
and you won't give up the search
for the ghosts in the halls
you wear sandals in the snow
and a smile that won't wash away
can you look out the window
without your shadow getting in the way

I almost rented All The Presidents Men this weekend, but decided it would be too sad to watch.  What a shame what happened to the media in this country, what once could bring a president down or disqualify a person to be president and now, with Hillary, it's obvious nothing as long as you can pay off the right people, have blackmail evidence against others, and a yapping puppy dog media willing to go along for a tickle behind the ears occasionally.

I think all democrats should write in the name of Gary Hart for president as an apology.

It's becoming blatantly obvious to me that neither Hillary or Trump, will fulfill the 4 years in office.  Hillary is guaranteed to be indicted and impeached for crimes and Trump will fall to some patsy shooter organized by our shadow government, guaranteeing Pence or Kaine will fall in line with the globalist agenda.

Forget the new furniture, time to add 6 months of emergency food, buy some silver coins, and another 250 rounds of ammo, and get ready to batten down the hatches, we are in for some evil times coming our way folks.

Not even Sara can get me out of this funk.

Into this night I wander,
it's morning that I dread,
Another day of knowing of
the path I fear to tread,
Oh into the sea of waking dreams
I follow without pride,
Nothing stands between us here
and I won't be denied

And I would be the one
to hold you down,
kiss you so hard,
I'll take your breath away
and after I'd wipe away the tears,
Just close your eyes dear