A MIND FOREVER VOYAGING THROUGH STRANGE SEAS OF THOUGHT, ALONE


This is my second blog.

My first blog chronicled my experiences over three years caring for my dad as he lived through and finally died from Alzheimer's. That is the book that is for sale.

This second blog kind of chronicles of life, what it is like to start your life over in your late 50's. After caretaking, you are damaged, file bankruptcy, and the world doesn't care what you did. After 8 months of unemployment, you wake each day knowing the world doesn't want you. Finally you do find a job, 5 weeks before homelessness, but doing what you did 30 years ago and getting paid what you did 30 years ago. So this is starting over.



The object of life is not to be on the side of the majority, but to escape finding oneself in the ranks of the insane.

Saturday, September 24, 2016

CAN WE JUST SAY NO? I WANT THE CHAOS!

There is something coming down the path, something barreling towards us, and I don't remember anywhere people saying this is what we want.

Self driving cars.

Hey, I get a handicapped blind paraplegic or elderly person thinking this is a good thing.  But for the rest of us, this really what you want?

Apparently, we won't have a choice, as soon as it gets mass produced, roads will be dedicated to self driving vehicles only, insurance on cars you drive yourself will skyrocket, probably to cover all the accidents self driving cars have, and eventually, we will all give over our lives to the same people that bring us the blue screen of death, wipe out our music libraries with an update, and the great Goog in the net who collects every keystroke you make on your keyboard.

And a host of hackers who will take control of your car and smash it into the nearest inanimate object Her' Hacker desires.  Or governments desire.

Why are we just going along with this?  Why are people not saying NO.

Well, okay, most people are oblivious to what is going on in the world and until it makes them unemployed they keep their heads in their shell watching college football....

Have you seen the predictions?  By early 2020's, Uber Taxis buses trains ferries etc etc etc will all be automated and driven by machines, all programmed by some 30 year old pencil neck living on mountain dew and playing video games when taking a break from coding your cars.

But, they cry, think how much safer the roads will be!  No drunk drivers, no sleepy drivers, no bad drivers, distracted drivers, think how safer that would be - and that is always the argument made - "imagine" and then the Utopia: how can you be against that?

I will tell you why.  Because when I go out to get in my car, I don't want it telling me where I can go, if I can go or not.  And that is the logical next step in our Utopia.  Hackers will not be the only one controlling your car, so will police, local governments, state governments, and federal governments will have the ability to control where you go, when you can go; probably will pick up other passengers along the way without your consent too.

I'll bet you can't control the radio/TV/Internet in the vehicles either, just sit back and watch what we tell you to watch as we drive you to where we want you to go, when we want you to get there.

And people are just going along with this?  It's always the same, "Imagine for a moment, a Utopia..." and when ever people buy into a Utopia, they by in to slavery, to controlled beings, lives, thoughts.

As always there will be voices screaming against this change, henceforth known as 'nuts' who will stand in the way of progress, stand in the way of a better civilization.

Consider me one of those voices.  Cars mean freedom.  The ability to move from place to place on your own, in your own time, to leave behind the past and go to the future, whatever it may hold.  To take the road less travelled.

And what happens when the computer controlled car kills a kid, a bike rider, whom to you hold responsible?  The programmer, the vehicle?

One article I was reading was discussing the automated car not understanding the nuances of driving, like two vehicles pull up to a stop sign at same time and a driver waves for the other car to go, which made me think how much fun it would be to have four automated cars all pull up to a stop sign and exactly the same moment, each recognizing no one got there first, each thinking the car on the right has the right of way and none will move, thus eventually shutting down the entire traffic system across the country.

People really need to stop, just stop, and think about what is happening in our society these days; not the news stories of riots which is just fodder to keep us distracted, I'm talking about the automation that is soon to eliminate the cooks, waiters, bartenders, retail sales, drivers, etc.  The H-1B workers replacing the college educated accountants, programmers etc, the illegal aliens replacing the laborers, stop and ask yourself, is all this just random chaotic accidents or part of a plan and where does that leave you?  Tens of millions of people with no jobs no income, no homes, all getting into government controlled vehicles to be taken, where?

Well, it will leave you where ever they want you to be, if you can only move around in an automated vehicle programmed by the same people.

We continually sell our freedom of choice for some greater imagined Utopia and eventually we will no longer have any choices in the dark side of Utopia.

Sorry to disturb you, now back to your local college football game.....


Nobody gonna take my car
I'm gonna race it to the ground
Nobody gonna beat my car
It's gonna break the speed of sound

Ooh it's a killing machine
It's got everything
Like a driving power big fat tyres
And everything

I love it and I need it, I bleed it
Yeah, it's a wild hurricane
Alright, hold tight
I'm a highway star

Nobody gonna take my girl
I'm gonna keep her to the end
Nobody gonna have my girl
She stays close on every bend

Ooh she's a killing machine
She got everything
Like a moving mouth body control
And everything

I love her, I need her, I seed her
Yeah, she turns me on
Alright, hold on tight
I'm a highway star

Nobody gonna take my head
I got speed inside my brain
Nobody gonna steal my head
Now that I'm on the road again

Ooh I'm in Heaven again
I got everything
Like a moving ground, an open road
And everything

I love it and I need it, I seed it
Eight cylinders all mine
Alright, hold on tight
I'm a highway star

Deep Purple

Thursday, September 22, 2016

TRUTH BE TOLD: BLACK LIVES DON'T MATTER

If time is suppose to be a constant, why does a week off seem to fly by at 5x the speed of a week of work?

Let's face it, black lives don't matter, but then neither do white lives, hispanic lives, asian lives etc etc etc.  I know in campaign seasons, politicians like to act like you and your race are the most important thing in the world, but then after the election they ignore everyone until they need money for reelection.

Remember 8 years ago when The Man from Kenya was elected president - hey, not a birther, just going off of all his appearances and PR stuff in the 90's and early 2000's when HE said he was born in Kenya - but blacks thought they finally had equality and how's that worked out for black america?

Well, you might have gotten a free phone to call someone who cares.  But, nobody does.

Bill Clinton recently came up with a really great idea to resurrect Detroit from the slum that it is; his idea was to bring in 10,000 Syrian refugees, give them free homes and jobs that paid to rebuild the homes.  Funny, 8 years as president, he never came up with a job plan like that for blacks.

Nor did Obama.  In fact, just about anyway you measure things, black america is seriously worse off today than they were 8 years ago, well unless you live in Charlotte and managed to grab yourself a new TV, iPhone, microwave, Jordan Airs and whatever else you could carry out of the local stores that were vandalized while protesting the unfair shooting of an armed black man by a black cop because whites are racists.

And that wonderful video of the white guy being dragged, beaten and stripped naked has made gun sales around the country skyrocket this weekend.  Nice job living up to the stereotype you so argue is unfair.

I hope the white guy that was dragged, beaten, stomped and stripped was a racist sob before that happened because if he survives, he will be from now on.

Saw a graph today, sorry, didn't save it, was a bar chart of whites killing blacks, blacks killing whites, whites killing whites, blacks killing blacks, cops shooting whites and cops shooting blacks and guess which of those was the smallest barely readable bar on the chart.......  I'll give you another minute.....that's right, cops shooting blacks.

Let's give the millionaire football players a moment to get off their knee, there we go.

But back to the larger philosophical point of all this; black lives, white lives etc don't really matter.  Let's face it, most of us are little blips in history and will quickly be forgotten the moment we join the majority of humanity in death.  At best we are just part of a continuing series of cause and effects and maybe touched a life here or there but most of us will matter no more than Fred Clausic who died in 1854.

Don't know Fred, me either, made it up, but there might have been a Fred then.

It's like when I was going thru these picture books after my dad died, these old black books with black and white pictures of men and women and I was related to them, no idea who they were, and realized this is the last thing left of them on the planet, these pictures, and I'm tossing them into the garbage and that last thread of having lived on this earth was about to be snipped once and for all.  Took me nearly 4 hours to look thru two books, staring at the photos, wonder who they were, what they did, what they dreamed, how did they live?  And then into the dumpster and it still haunts me to this day.

And so it goes with all of us, we dreamed as youths of being great and being famous and 99.9999% of us never will be, never were meant to be, and are just filler in between historic events.

We just go thru the motions, go thru the days, hoping we don't get sick, don't lose a job, the car starts, the kids are okay, no war breaks out, and we avoid the black riots.

But those hopes are getting harder and harder.  I use to use the simile of we are all in this massive game of musical chairs and we cling to our seats as long as we can and when the music starts we see not one chair disappear about thousands and then the music stops and i've come to the conclusion it doesn't really matter anymore whether you know this is happening or go thru life with this illusion it will never happen to you; it's color blind, sex blind, race blind - we don't matter, no one cares, no one listens, and there is little we can do.

Black Lives Matter is funded by Soros, some blacks are getting seriously wealthy from that, but most are not going to see a dime.  Illegals are being rushed thru naturalization so they can vote for Hillary this fall.  Soros if funding an overseas drive to get 8 million americans living abroad to vote democratic - let's face it, there will be 8 million ballots coming over whether an actual US citizen fills it out is another story, while soldiers ballots will be delayed, dumped and rejected.

It's not that black lives don't matter, it's we don't matter anymore.  Rod Serling, your table is ready.


I found this photograph
Stashed between the old joist walls
In a place where time is lost
Lost behind, where all things fall

Broken books and calendars
Letters script in careful hand
Music too, a standard tune by
Some forgotten big brass band

From the threshold what's to see
Of our brave new century?
The television's just a dream
Radio, silver screen
Big smile for the camera

How did she know?
The moment could be lost forever
Forever more



REM

Wednesday, September 21, 2016

BLAME GAMES

First, I know, it's been ages since I've posted but here is the problem.

Back in 2012, when I was neck deep in caring for my dad, I posted a ton of blogs on the 3,524 republican debates, the debates between Obama and Romney, and this time around I just didn't feel like adding to the overflow of blogs posting political commentary on a daily basis.

Let's face it, what else is there to talk about?

I'm doing okay, not great, keeping head above water though the 99 Volvo is sucking my bank account dry but not much I can do about it unless I just junk the car and bike everywhere, which may sound like a good idea to some but let me tell you biking or walking 2 miles to a grocery store in a foot of snow and zero degrees is not, nor ever will be, fun.  And I've had enough character building, thank you very much.  But I am two to three years away from being able to afford a new used car.  Which of course, will probably start sucking me dry too.

I wonder if it's just smarter to buy some car for 1000 and run it till it dies, then get another one and just keep doing that over and over.

Work is fine, always feel like there is an axe over my head but I suspect everyone over 50 feels that way these days.

I did want to link to you two articles from Briebart, which I hardly ever read but after reading these two might change my mind about that:

http://www.breitbart.com/2016-presidential-race/2016/09/18/mcdonalds-hires-foreign-h-1bs-fires-70-american-accounting-staff/

and

and I can't find the other one dammit!

But the article is about one of my pet peeves I've written about before, that damn H-1B and h-2B that specifically states that companies cannot use the thing to replace american workers and company after company are doing just that and our justice department under Obama doesn't do squat about it.

Hillary, well, she wants to double the number of foreign workers under the program.  Trump, wants to end it and prosecute companies that are firing Americans.  Gee, guess who I'm voting for.

I don't know who will write the history of this country, but some of the stuff going on is downright treasonous.  Millions of illegals being brought in for physical blue collar jobs, hundreds of thousands under the H-1B to replace college educated white collar Americans.

Got to make a man wonder exactly what are they expecting to do with 100,000,000 baby boomers and Gen X'ers in the middle class when all the jobs are going to foreigners - is there a plan?  Here is a bet, whatever that plan is, we aren't going to like it.

Anyone else thinking Hillary is more and more becoming like Gollum from Lord of the Rings?
The evil is just eating at her and destroying her from within.  Oh well.

Still waiting to see which of the two end up dead before the election - if Trump wins I hope he goes into hiding and takes the oath inside the Oval Office - hey, call me paranoid but they shot Kennedy, they shot Reagan and the shadow government is going to shoot Trump too.

And probably blame the Russians, which seems to be the new mantra of the elite.  Where did that start?

One day, Trump announces he wants watchers at all the poling places to make sure things are on the up and up, when the president is asked about this, he laughs and says what election fraud, there is no election fraud, (19.000 votes for Obama, zero for anyone else in the Philly area, yeah nothing to see there), and that elections are a state by state thing and the federal government doesn't control them.    But then, like two weeks later, suddenly Washington is all abuzz and Obama is announcing that Homeland Security is going to oversee the elections because the Russians are going to steal the election from Hillary.

Huh?

So I feel better now, the same agency that just admitted they screwed up and nearly 1,000 middle eastern immigrants that were suppose to be deported due to their terrorists ties were in fact granted citizenship and will be voting this November instead of returning to their tents and caves in the deserts.

Yea, feel a lot better about it.

One thing, if I still have any readers left, don't use computer voting, demand a paper ballot.  How I wish everyone voting this November would demand an old fashion ballot and reject the computer voting.


By the way, new browser out, Vivaldi, and it's by the people who originally founded Opera and recently left.  Worth downloading and definitely what should be used instead of Chrome.

Oh, Oh baby don't you know I'm human
Have thoughts like any other one
Sometimes I find myself long regretting
Some foolish thing some little simple thing I've done
But I'm just a soul whose intentions are good
Oh Lord, please don't let me be misunderstood