This is my second blog.

My first blog chronicled my experiences over three years caring for my dad as he lived through and finally died from Alzheimer's. That is the book that is for sale.

This second blog kind of chronicles of life, what it is like to start your life over in your late 50's. After caretaking, you are damaged, file bankruptcy, and the world doesn't care what you did. After 8 months of unemployment, you wake each day knowing the world doesn't want you. Finally you do find a job, 5 weeks before homelessness, but doing what you did 30 years ago and getting paid what you did 30 years ago. So this is starting over.

The object of life is not to be on the side of the majority, but to escape finding oneself in the ranks of the insane.

Friday, July 8, 2016


When all is said and done, some of us while having no sympathy for the shooters in Dallas, wonder about the police sending in a robot with a bomb to just kill the guy.  Judge Roy Bean must be grinning in his grave.

Well, I'm sure glad I didn't jump to conclusions after reading where some black guy said he wants to kill whites especially cops who are white because I might have jumped to the conclusion this guy was some serious racist nut or something.

But after watching clips of our president, potential second coming of Clinton, and others, I've come to realize that this shooter was not a racist, I am a racist and it's all my fault because I'm a white guy.

And the really sad thing, there are tens of millions of people in this country who actually bought this line of bullshit and think it is true.

How about this perspective, most of these black lives matter people are serious dupes and the radical ones are the ColoredCluxClan.  They are financed by people like George Soros, a man who started life turning in Jews to the Nazi's and later learned how to make billions screwing with the economies and currencies of countries so that millions and millions of everyday people would lose jobs, homes, and lives so Soros could pocket the profits.

And now Soros and his buddies are sewing loads of cash to to reap a race war in this country.

Do you really want to know at who's feet the fault the plight of black america rests at?  Black people.  Not whitey.

Whitey don't care.  Whitey reveres the great black athletes, authors and actors.  Whitey works side by side with blacks in many fields today and doesn't think twice about the skin color issues.  Whitey, well, the stupid ones, voted twice a black president.

Whitey doesn't care about skin color.  Intelligence, yes, skin color no.

Well, except liberals, they love keeping the black man down.  White liberals don't think blacks are smart enough to pass thru school.  White liberals use money from people like Soros to fund Planned Parenthood programs to abort millions of black babies - oh go look up who started planned eugenics hood, who they supported (Hitler) etc.

Johnson did the big civil rights thing that forced millions of blacks into subsidized towers of terror and and gave them enough money to eat junk food, booze and drugs and as long as nobody strayed to far from the towers of terror, cops stayed away.  Oh, yea, and this was brilliant, pay the women to have kids but only if they don't have a husband.  So millions and millions of black boys and girls grew up with no dads. Then liberals redesigned the education system and assured generation after generation of kids would just pass thru school not being able to spell, read, add, or think.  The liberals built prisons to house the black youth that looked at the horizon so today nearly 50% of black men do time.

And Clinton signed NAFTA and CAFTA so that millions of good paying factory jobs that many a black men worked and raised families on in the 30's 40's 50's 60's and 70's were shipped overseas.  And since they couldn't ship away those jobs fast enough, those same liberals that blacks have been voting for the past several decades started allowing millions and millions of mexicans and other immigrants into this country to take the jobs at the lower end of things.  No more cab driving, cooks, landscaping, construction, or factories.

And black america just kept voting for these leaders who promised them election after election more free this and more free that and now look where you are at.

Unemployment in this country is over 40%, but if black, it's over 60%.  Blacks have hissy fits if a cop shoots a black man but don't say squat about last weekend in Chicago 60 people were shot, almost all blacks and shot by blacks.  One black gets killed by a cop and it's a march and riot.  Hundreds of blacks shot by hundreds of blacks and that's just life.

Here is a promise.  Vote for Hillary black america.  She will say all the right things, promise you the sun and the moon, the jessie's and al's will tell you to vote for them,  and in 4 years you will still be where you are at today, unless you've been shot by another black man or put in prison.  But your life will not be better.

Just stop blaming me for your own apathy, your own stupidity, your own choices and stop being patsies for Soros, Clinton and the others that don't give a crap about you.  They just want your vote.  Then if the cops kill you great, they can use that for more votes.

Devolving backwards with glorious abandon
Delirium  In a gilded cage
Aching like an open wound
In consecrated disillusion
Man crawls back into the slime
Like carrion upon carcasses of slaughtered beasts
Successors  scraping at your gates
Spine broken underfoot in rotten evolution
Drowning in eternities of neglect
Constant and eternal
As it carved into the flesh of earth
Under the sovereign-doctrines
The inner iron-discipline

The slaves shall serve
Chaos reign supreme
The slaves shall serve
In corrupt insanity
The slaves shall serve
Alone in decrepitude
The slaves shall serve
In reverse spirituality
The slaves shall serve
Chaos reign supreme
The slaves shall serve
In corrupt insanity
The slaves shall serve
Alone in decrepitude
The slaves shall serve
In reverse spirituality

In piles of bone building towers to the sky
Kneeling  In dying contemplation
Spitting the futile prayers
Towering to be closest to the gods
In spineless submission
Swarming under isoclinic cromlechs of death
Culling  mormillion opiate-masses
Resting on the laurels of mass graves
Climbing gold mountains, in disposable waves