This is my second blog.

My first blog chronicled my experiences over three years caring for my dad as he lived through and finally died from Alzheimer's. That is the book that is for sale.

This second blog kind of chronicles of life, what it is like to start your life over in your late 50's. After caretaking, you are damaged, file bankruptcy, and the world doesn't care what you did. After 8 months of unemployment, you wake each day knowing the world doesn't want you. Finally you do find a job, 5 weeks before homelessness, but doing what you did 30 years ago and getting paid what you did 30 years ago. So this is starting over.

The object of life is not to be on the side of the majority, but to escape finding oneself in the ranks of the insane.

Saturday, July 30, 2016


I forget where I first heard this, but when people were talking about the person who killed more people in the 20th century and names like Stalin, Lenin etc were being tossed about someone suggested Rachel Carlson, author of Silent Spring.  The book that led to the banning of DDT.  Seems DDT caused condor and eagle eggs to have thin shells.

Looking back now some 40 years, there are countries where malaria killed hundreds of thousands of people every year, DDT was introduced and the cases dropped to less than 100 each year, then DDT was removed and it climbed back up to hundreds of thousands, see Sri Lanka for example.

Now some third world said "condors, we don't care about no stinkin' condors" and have kept using DDT and insect born deaths are fairly rare.

Over the past 30 years, we've seen Lyme Disease and West Nile infect this country.  We now have bed bug problems many places that never was an issue until we opened the door for anyone who could reach our border to come on in with no delousing or health checks.

And now we got this new Z thing carried by mosquitos and they are finding it in mosquitos and people in Florida with the rest of the southeast and southwest soon to follow.

It's not too bad if you are not elderly, a child, or going to have kids.  The kids if a parent has it tend to have heads several sizes larger than normal - which will probably lead to a jump in abortions.

Did some research today on DDT and you know, it was actually hard to find articles that were not in the vein of "no real evidence it causes any problems to people" in spite of the baby boom generation being doused in the fog of DDT machines in the 1950's and 1960's.

Even such publications as the NY Times had articles saying DDT is not the health threat it was made out to be and should be considered.

Of course the fruit and berries publications still rant and rage about it's dangers to bird eggs but while I like birds and eagles and all that, maybe they could have a couple of bad years of eggs so humanity could be saved?  Ya think?

Although this is obviously not (and was never intended to be) a comprehensive report, based on toxicology and carcinogen data from multiple sources, it is safe to say that DDT’s reputation as a deadly poison is not based on real evidence. In fact, it’s the opposite.
The chemical is no more acutely toxic than drugs that we ingest every day. People who were fed a capsule containing a significant dose of the chemical for one-and-a-half years suffered no ill effects, and evidence for DDT causing cancer is so weak as to be in the realm of chance; scientifically nonexistent. It is, in fact, a rather ordinary chemical with a very bad reputation.

In one of the more famous moments in scientific risk, there is the story of the scientist at a press conference who actually ate DDT right in front of everyone and 40 years later still told the story, no cancer no nothing.

And while our EPA would scream bloody murder, as the article points out our same EPA worked with the WHO to provide and instruction people in OTHER COUNTRIES how to safely use DDT spraying in the home.

So, there is the solution to the problem of many diseases affecting millions of Americans and future Americans and carpetbagging Obamaians, a way to stop west nile, lyme, Z and other things and we will never do it.

Hope the condor's are happy.  I wonder if they ever sit perched on some cliff and think how many humans died so they could live.

I was told a million times
Of all the troubles in my way
Might he grow a little wiser
Little better ev'ry day
But if I crossed a million rivers
And I rode a million miles
Then I'd still be where I started
Bread and butter for a smile
Well I sold a million mirrors
In a shop in Alley Way
But I never saw my face
In any window any day
Now they say your folks are telling you
Be a super star
But I tell you just be satisfied
To stay right where you are
Keep yourself alive keep yourself alive
It'll take you all your time and money
To keep you satisfied



There are a lot of changes in the body as a man gets older, I understand my reflexes are not as quick as they were, whereas once I had to eat 5000 calories to gain 1 pound now I only need to look at cupcakes at the bakery to put on a pound.

But there is one change I am confused about, where the hell did my ass go?

Pants that use to fit just fine now there is no ass mass to stop them from sliding down and I keep wondering, when the heck did that happen?

I'm cool with knowing that while hair no longer seems to grow on the top of my head, it flourishes in my ears, nose and on my back.  I'm cool with that.  I understand now that when I walk into a room and smile at a young lady she rolls her eyes and turns away, heck, old enough to be her father and I'm okay with that.

I just wonder where my ass went.

Now when people talk bout miracles in the Bible they like to talk about the talking ass in the OT, but to me that was never all that much of a miracle.  After all, the democratic convention was last week and I saw dozens and dozens of talking asses all week long.

Still not sure about Trump, was all ready to say I'm in but this thought keeps bugging me. If he tries to do half of what he's promised, now that would be a miracle, they are going to assassinate him.  Why he picked Pence, someone the powers that be would like is beyond me, should of picked someone like Carson, Cain, Coulter, Pat Buchanan or something.

But I keep thinking a vote for Trump is to be alerted one day that they are interrupting this broadcast for a special news bulletin and Trump will join JFK, MLK, and RFK in the line of men who tried to buck the systems and were killed for it.

And don't forget Reagan being shot 3 months into his first term by the nephew of George HW Bush's business partner and who's brother had dinner with Neil Bush two days before the assassination.

Saturday, July 23, 2016


Well, do you really think if Trump gets elected and actually tries to do the things he promised, that he's not going to go the way of JFK and nearly Reagan?

Frankly, picking an establishment lackey like Pence was really dumb, it's like inviting the bullet.

Based on speeches, he should have chosen Laura Ingraham for VP.

But there is a lawsuit about Trump and having raped a 15 year old that was part of the Epstein plane rides and island.  I'm not saying it's lying, but let me ask you this.  Some woman waits 20 years till Trump is running for prez and now comes out with the story?  Why?

I smell a rat.  A rat named Clinton.

See, Bill Clinton is good buddies with Epstein.  They have documented over two dozen times Bill took trips on the Lolita Express, about a dozen times to the private island.  This Epstein multi million dollar pervert has been running this underage stews and hostess thing for 30 years with some seriously famous and powerful men enjoying sex with 16 year old girls - most likely because when they were 16 no girl would give them the time of day.

So here is the thing.  If you were a teen girl who got brought into this, most likely against her will, and then was paid off to go away and shut up, and not one has come forward about Clinton which is a guaranteed book deal, movie etc.  But Trump runs and suddenly out of the woodwork...

I smell a rat.

Trust me, I can help you
Feel free, we can save you
Join us in the good life
And better days, better days

Campaign for the new life
Champagne and the bright lights
Make way for the right way
Better days, better days

You didn't realize about the other life
That we can give you
We'll open up your eyes and make you see
The light that's all around you

We'll help you work it out
And then you'll never doubt
Our intuition, our vision
Our decision, our mission, so listen

No war and no inflation
No more desperation
You'll see, we can show you
Better days, much better days

No hunger, higher wages
Good schools and smiling faces
Make way for the new way
And better days, better days

We're gonna lead you down
To where the sun is always brightly shining
We'll push away the clouds and show you
There's a gold and silver lining



Okay, it's another baseball blog, deal with it, I'm a pig, remember?

So Chris Sale is probably the best pitcher in the American League, has a really 'cheap' contract if more than 10m a year is cheap, and is signed for the next 4 or 5 years.  And the White Sox kind of suck.

Then tonite, Sales is scheduled to pitch, going for win number 15 this year, and the Sox have some sort of thing going where they like to wear throwback uniforms so all the old fans remember the good ol' days, except the Sox pretty much didn't win anything like a division or pennant when they wore these uniforms either.  And the ones they were suppose to wear tonite are generally considered thru out baseball as one of the worst uniforms in sports history and Sale feels real uncomfortable wearing it.  So he asked the Sox if they could wear a different uniform tonite when he pitched and they said no.

So Sales shredded his uniforms during batting practice.

Now the Cubs, who historically are worse than the Sox, haven't been to a World Series since Truman was president, they never really change their uniforms giving their fans that consistency and connection with history of all the losing seasons of decades past.  The Sox seem to change every few years like you can paint a dump in the slums and people will think it's a better product.

So here is the thing.  Pick up the phone, if you are the Sox GM, and call Boston, NY,  Washington, St. Louis, Texas, and the Dodgers and say Sale is on sale for 48 hours and we want the pick of any six of your minor leaguers or major leaguers with less than 1 year of major league experience.  Call the Cubs and demand eight.

You could rebuild a ball club pretty quickly with the six best minor league players from those organizations.  There is another pitcher they could probably get 4 from one of those teams, and a couple of players worth 2 or 3.  I mean you could clean out and come up with 15 of the top 100 minor league players in baseball.

But trust the Sox to screw this up.  That is why they are in Chicago.  Think about it.  Two teams, 100 years, 1 World Series victory.

So they will probably trade Sale for 2 or 3 players that will never make the majors, while Sale's will capture a few Cy Youngs and WS championships for a team that knows the difference between putting a good team on the field and putting a good looking team on the field.

I started following the Sox in 1967, that was an amazing year for baseball.  Four teams, the Red Sox, Tigers, Twins and White Sox were all within a game of winning the pennant with 5 games left in the season.  The White Sox were the best off, win two to tie, three and it's theirs, and they had a double header against the worst team in baseball and then 3 games against the second worst team.

They lost all 5.

Should have figure it out then.

The moon and the sun
We all come undone
The night steals the ground
We all fall down

A blue whisper rain
Dark shadows again
The crush of a prayer
Hangs in the air

Sweet Talk Radio 


Okay, ladies, don't read this blog, just go on to the next one please.

No cheating.

I'm waiting.

Okay, now it's just us guys here.

Guys, want to talk to you about the presidential election and give you the best reason in the world for voting for Trump.

Did you see the convention?  Did you see the Trump wife?  How about the daughters?

Now, ask yourself this one question.  Over the next four years, do you want to see the Trump chicks constantly or do you want to see Hilary and Chelsea Clinton all the time.

This is a no brainer and why every red blooded straight american male in this country should be voting for Trump this fall.

Yea, I know, I'm such a pig.  But guys, tell me, you already figured this out too, didn't you?  We're all pigs.

Saturday, July 16, 2016



Great articles this week picking the 10 best players at each position and making it so everyone could read it without signing up for your 'special access' crap.  And I did appreciate you left off the steroid kids like Bonds, Palmero, etc.

And I was surprised at how good it was, though some of the current players being included is a little presumptuous.


The guy hit 500 homers, 3,000 hits, won gold gloves and you put David Ortiz on there because he played 20 games at first base back last century?  No Eddie Murray?  Seriously?  You could argue he was better than Mantle as the greatest switch hitter of all time, maybe not, but a good argument could be made.

And no Louis Aparicio at short stop?  Better hitter than Smith, better base stealer than Smith, and probably a better fielder.  Aparicio played in an era of all grass and dirt, smaller gloves, and some seriously bad infields.  Smith played all home games and over 1/2 of the away games on nothing but smooth astro turf for miles in front of him, which is why he could park is ass in short left field to play short stop, hell, a paraplegic could play a decent short stop in those conditions.

But no Eddie Murray, mind boggling.

Sorry imaginary readers, that's been bugging me for 24 hours and I had to let it out.


Hmm, wonder how long that title will last on Google....

When history is written, provided God wins and Satan loses of course, how will people look back at our world today and not wonder "how stupid were those people"?

The two words I most despise today are 'offended' and 'tolerance'.  The phrases I most despise are 'it is what it is' and 'perception is reality'.  Well, there is a new one joining the group and maybe moving to the lead, 'Islam is a religion of peace'.

Well sure it is, or will be, as soon as they kill anyone who disagrees with them and doesn't want to follow Sharian laws.

Did you catch the article this week about the terrorist event in France, no, not the truck thing, we will get to that, I'm talking about that one a while back with all the shooters and kidnappers.  Turns out there was this little itty bitty part of the story that had been kept secret.  In the hall where they took hundreds of captives, the second floor had been converted to a torture chamber where people had their eyes remove, sex organs cut off and stuffed in mouths, etc etc etc.  By the peaceful Moslems.

But that had been kept secret by the governments of Europe from the people.

How stupid are we?

Now turns out we find the Saudi's were deeply involved in 9/11 and it was covered up by the Bush administration.  And the presumptive Democrat nominee is wanting to import 1,000,000 more Moslems from the middle east her first year in office.

The brilliance of Mohammad, or whatever evil spirit took over his body and mind, was he was able to wrap up this violent political system into a religion; an effort Hitler tried to copy but failed at, and so this system to conquer the world and leave in it's wake the dead bodies of anyone who disagrees with them hides behind the veil of religion which I guess is fair since Satanism is technically considered a religion.

But Satan is a clever one, first he convinces the population that while the one true God in Heaven says "I am who I am" Satan say "I am who am not" and the world eventually ceases to understand his existence.

Then he bastardizes a religion, claiming it's a continuation of Judism and Christianity except the only damn thing similar is an aversion to pork.

Allah, as referred to by Moslems is Satan and someone has to say it while there is still an iota of free speech left in this country, not that anyone will listen.

The war is coming to America soon.  Be tolerant and convert and you may live for awhile.

And you know, part of me would almost welcome it.  I mean think of all the liberal democratic voters out there who are welcoming Islam with open arms and claiming people like me are evil and haters.  Just wait until it happens.  You know those debates on abortion?  Well that will end, no more abortions.  Know those debates on gays?  That will end, you will be killed or tossed off roofs - unless those leaders have the hots for you and want to keep you around as a sex slave.  Children's rights?  They have a right to be buggered.  Woman's rights?  You have a right to be raped by any Moslem that takes a fancy to you and you better cover up - who wears short shorts will be replaced by head to toe coverings.

Am I wrong?  Do you pay attention to Europe?  Sweden and Norway?  The mass sexual molestations that occurred at a recent concert by middle eastern men on blonde future St. Paulie Girls?  Where were the swedish men when this happened?  Are there men in Sweden?

You can capitulate and try to get along but it only buys you some time.  How stupid are we?

Remember where you heard it: Islam is terrorism.  The only peace in Islam is when there are no humans left who disagree with Islam.

Now I'll say something positive about Islam: they do not discriminate.  They don't care if you are Christian, Jewish, Hindu, Buddhist, agnostic or atheist, they will cut your head off just the same.  And they don't care if you are asian, black, white, or brown.

Would one brave reporter during a debate or press conference ask Hillary how many black Egyptians were killed when we helped overthrow the government of Egypt and why is that genocide of black Egyptians not an issue with black voters in this country?

Oh well, time to read while I still have a head to read a book.

When you're asleep they may show you
Aerial views of the ground
Freudian slumber empty of sound

Over the rooftops and houses
Lost as it tries to be seen
Fields of incentive covered with green

Mesmerised children are playing
Meant to be seen but not heard
"Stop me from dreaming!"
"Don't be absurd!"

"Well if we can help you we will
You're looking tired and ill
As I count backwards
Your eyes become heavier still
Sleep, won't you allow yourself fall ?
Nothing can hurt you at all
With your consent
I can experiment further still."

Madrigal music is playing
Voices can faintly be heard
"Please leave this patient undisturbed."

Sentenced to drift far away now
Nothing is quite what it seems
Sometimes entangled in your own dreams

"Well, if we can help you we will
Soon as you're tired and ill
With your consent
We can experiment further still

Well, thanks to our kindness and skill
You'll have no trouble until
You catch your breath
And the nurse will present you the bill"



Liberals across Europe and America are now demanding strict new controls of trucks in wake of the slaughter in France.

The Teamsters Union in the US is claiming Trucks don't kill, people kill.

Stay tuned.

Friday, July 8, 2016


When all is said and done, some of us while having no sympathy for the shooters in Dallas, wonder about the police sending in a robot with a bomb to just kill the guy.  Judge Roy Bean must be grinning in his grave.

Well, I'm sure glad I didn't jump to conclusions after reading where some black guy said he wants to kill whites especially cops who are white because I might have jumped to the conclusion this guy was some serious racist nut or something.

But after watching clips of our president, potential second coming of Clinton, and others, I've come to realize that this shooter was not a racist, I am a racist and it's all my fault because I'm a white guy.

And the really sad thing, there are tens of millions of people in this country who actually bought this line of bullshit and think it is true.

How about this perspective, most of these black lives matter people are serious dupes and the radical ones are the ColoredCluxClan.  They are financed by people like George Soros, a man who started life turning in Jews to the Nazi's and later learned how to make billions screwing with the economies and currencies of countries so that millions and millions of everyday people would lose jobs, homes, and lives so Soros could pocket the profits.

And now Soros and his buddies are sewing loads of cash to to reap a race war in this country.

Do you really want to know at who's feet the fault the plight of black america rests at?  Black people.  Not whitey.

Whitey don't care.  Whitey reveres the great black athletes, authors and actors.  Whitey works side by side with blacks in many fields today and doesn't think twice about the skin color issues.  Whitey, well, the stupid ones, voted twice a black president.

Whitey doesn't care about skin color.  Intelligence, yes, skin color no.

Well, except liberals, they love keeping the black man down.  White liberals don't think blacks are smart enough to pass thru school.  White liberals use money from people like Soros to fund Planned Parenthood programs to abort millions of black babies - oh go look up who started planned eugenics hood, who they supported (Hitler) etc.

Johnson did the big civil rights thing that forced millions of blacks into subsidized towers of terror and and gave them enough money to eat junk food, booze and drugs and as long as nobody strayed to far from the towers of terror, cops stayed away.  Oh, yea, and this was brilliant, pay the women to have kids but only if they don't have a husband.  So millions and millions of black boys and girls grew up with no dads. Then liberals redesigned the education system and assured generation after generation of kids would just pass thru school not being able to spell, read, add, or think.  The liberals built prisons to house the black youth that looked at the horizon so today nearly 50% of black men do time.

And Clinton signed NAFTA and CAFTA so that millions of good paying factory jobs that many a black men worked and raised families on in the 30's 40's 50's 60's and 70's were shipped overseas.  And since they couldn't ship away those jobs fast enough, those same liberals that blacks have been voting for the past several decades started allowing millions and millions of mexicans and other immigrants into this country to take the jobs at the lower end of things.  No more cab driving, cooks, landscaping, construction, or factories.

And black america just kept voting for these leaders who promised them election after election more free this and more free that and now look where you are at.

Unemployment in this country is over 40%, but if black, it's over 60%.  Blacks have hissy fits if a cop shoots a black man but don't say squat about last weekend in Chicago 60 people were shot, almost all blacks and shot by blacks.  One black gets killed by a cop and it's a march and riot.  Hundreds of blacks shot by hundreds of blacks and that's just life.

Here is a promise.  Vote for Hillary black america.  She will say all the right things, promise you the sun and the moon, the jessie's and al's will tell you to vote for them,  and in 4 years you will still be where you are at today, unless you've been shot by another black man or put in prison.  But your life will not be better.

Just stop blaming me for your own apathy, your own stupidity, your own choices and stop being patsies for Soros, Clinton and the others that don't give a crap about you.  They just want your vote.  Then if the cops kill you great, they can use that for more votes.

Devolving backwards with glorious abandon
Delirium  In a gilded cage
Aching like an open wound
In consecrated disillusion
Man crawls back into the slime
Like carrion upon carcasses of slaughtered beasts
Successors  scraping at your gates
Spine broken underfoot in rotten evolution
Drowning in eternities of neglect
Constant and eternal
As it carved into the flesh of earth
Under the sovereign-doctrines
The inner iron-discipline

The slaves shall serve
Chaos reign supreme
The slaves shall serve
In corrupt insanity
The slaves shall serve
Alone in decrepitude
The slaves shall serve
In reverse spirituality
The slaves shall serve
Chaos reign supreme
The slaves shall serve
In corrupt insanity
The slaves shall serve
Alone in decrepitude
The slaves shall serve
In reverse spirituality

In piles of bone building towers to the sky
Kneeling  In dying contemplation
Spitting the futile prayers
Towering to be closest to the gods
In spineless submission
Swarming under isoclinic cromlechs of death
Culling  mormillion opiate-masses
Resting on the laurels of mass graves
Climbing gold mountains, in disposable waves

Tuesday, July 5, 2016


I had an epiphany today.  I am changing my name to Clinton.

Now I can rape a woman and not be prosecuted, and if I am, I can lie about it under oath and not be convicted.

I can ride on luxury jets with rich guys and teenage girls and have my way with them and no one will care.

I can sell military secrets to our enemies for millions and millions of dollars to my 'charity'.

And now, in spite of the law saying I can be negligent with state secrets being a crime, the head of the FBI can investigate and say being negligent is no excuse and then say I was negligent and then "ah heck, why bother a Clinton with pesky little details that has sent thousands of people to prison in the past".

I mean did you see the FBI statement?  If you are Hillary Clinton, you and your people can erase thousands of emails from a server you know is wanted for an investigation and, nada.  Nothing.

If it were you and I, that would be destroying evidence.

The server was illegal.  The use of private email by a high ranking government official is illegal.  Using said server and email to send and store top secret and secret files is illegal.

But hey, it's a Clinton, that's okay.  We let them get away with murder, rape, intimidating witnesses, selling military secrets, illegal campaign contributions, I mean really, what is the big deal.

You really want four more years of this shit?