This is my second blog.

My first blog chronicled my experiences over three years caring for my dad as he lived through and finally died from Alzheimer's. That is the book that is for sale.

This second blog kind of chronicles of life, what it is like to start your life over in your late 50's. After caretaking, you are damaged, file bankruptcy, and the world doesn't care what you did. After 8 months of unemployment, you wake each day knowing the world doesn't want you. Finally you do find a job, 5 weeks before homelessness, but doing what you did 30 years ago and getting paid what you did 30 years ago. So this is starting over.

The object of life is not to be on the side of the majority, but to escape finding oneself in the ranks of the insane.

Friday, June 24, 2016


Well, I was totally shocked.

Never thought for a moment that the leave vote would win.  Oh, I was sure the majority would vote for it, just couldn't believe the world powers that be couldn't fix an election in Britain.  I stayed up late waiting for one of those last areas to come in 2,000,000 votes for and zero to leave in an area with 500,000 registered voters.

Like that area of Philly that went 19,000 for Obama and zero for anyone else.

But you gotta give the Brits credit, now give them your prayers.

Because those world banks and such are going to crush the Brits.  And for all those thinking that this bodes well for Trump, when the British economy is totally tanked in October with massive unemployment as a warning to the USA.

What is amazing is they have one vote and it's a done deal.  Doesn't work like that in the good ol' USA.  See, in the USA they just keep having vote after vote.  Like gay marriage.

At one point, after over 30 votes state by state, some multiple times, all saying NO to gay marriage, the Americans have another wonderful little feature to let the people know you can vote all you want, we don't care.

They go to court and get a judge they have blackmail evidence on to overturn the will of the people and say Screw You, gay marriage is okay.

Then and only then is it a done deal.

But not our motherland, say what you will about having an official Queen named Sir Elton as well as a royal family of inbred Germans, but the people spoke and now all hell breaks loose.

First, Scotland and Northern Ireland are going to do everything they can to bolt so they can stay part of the EU, which will have plenty of room because France, Denmark, Netherlands and Italy want out now too.  Germany is not happy because the EU is expecting them to make up the billions lost when England left.

One wonders when history is written, will the vote in Britain be the spark of a future war?

There is really only one place to put the blame on this, though they would never admit it, it's the EU who caused all this.

First of all, when the EU started, it was sold on the economics and traveling between countries made easy.  What it turned into was some unelected group in Brussels making up law after law after law like how loud you can listen to music on your iPhone.  Imagine sitting in Brighton England and being arrested for listening to your music too loud thru your headphones.

And then there is this immigration thing of the western world having to open their doors to hundreds of thousands, hey, selling Brussels short here, millions and millions of immigrants from third world countries flooding into their country, sucking billions a year in welfare, education, and medical dollars from citizens.  Now you have entire areas in European countries where Sharia Law is the Law and local police don't dare drive into without a tank escort.

Let's face it, the English had enough.  They had enough of tens of thousands of middle eastern young men being brought into their towns and communities.

Do you read overseas papers?  Do you know the number of rapes occurring in England, Sweden, Norway, Denmark, Germany, and France done by middle eastern men of local girls and boys.

Oh yea, boys too, those middle eastern men seem to skip right over Mohammad's rules against buggering the little boys.  Guy at a public pool in England did a young english lad and when was done - he went swimming.  Cops got there, kid pointed him out, and he's like 'what is the big deal'.

Let's face it, we all, unless we are native americans, come from immigrants.  But people immigrated to this country to become Americans, well, except the original ones, if they did we'd all be living in TeePees and our congressional representatives would be screaming for arrow control.

What is happening now is we are being flooded with people south of the border that have no interest in becoming American, they raise the mexican flag or the Saudi flag, they don't try to learn English so now we have to wait when making a call for the robot to say "press 1 for english, press 2 for spanish, press 3 for fasi, press 4 for swedish, press 5 for portugese, press 6 for german, press 7 for creole, press 8 for french, press 118 for russian and 20 minutes later you don't remember why you called in the first place.

Oh wait, it was 911 and you were reporting the three saudi's for raping the 8th grade cheerleader next door - never mind, they left.

Just keep your eyes on that case in Idaho where three young middle eastern boys raped the 5 year old girl, well, not all of them raped, some were not old enough to get it up so they just peed on her beaten naked body.

And the democrats want to take away your guns so the 30 million illegal aliens can rape and pillage all they want.  Vote to get them out and the judges will just overturn it.

I wonder if the english will vote back gun ownership, if they do, might be time to move back to the home country.

Please take me away
Far from this place
Leaving me here
Take me away

To the furthest star in the sky
Take me away
To the deepest cave of the night
Take me away
Voices of love, here I am
In the sad sad world of fear
Take me away
From the power of my ambition
And I'll be happy

I - I've conquered time
Where will I go ?
Am I still mine ?
Take me away

To the furthest star in the sky
Take me away
To the deepest cave of the night
Take me away
Voices of love, here I am
In the sad sad world of fear
Take me away
From the power of my ambition
And I'll be happy

Peace - floating in limbo
Limbo - Leading me nowhere
Peace, now without motion
I cry, when will I die ?
God - Where is my soul now ?
My world, please set me free
Peace, now without motion
I cry, when will I die ?


Tuesday, June 14, 2016


Tiger gotta eat, bird gotta fly
Man gotta wonder why why why
Tiger gotta sleep, bird gotta land.
Man gotta think he needs to understand.

Wow, even I didn't see this coming.

To think the shooter, well, apparently liked the walk on the wild side.

His ex wife, possibly the stupidest woman on the planet, first said he was violent, then said he was probably gay, now says she knew what he was planning, was on the buying trip with him, and told the authorities all about it, making her a co conspirator in the killing of 50 people.

I think we've found a future democratic nominee for president.

There is nothing funny about what happened, nothing funny in 50 people losing their lives and another 50 shot up and in the hospital with a variety of injuries that will affect them the rest of their lives.  What is funny is watching the reactions of the different  players.

Liberal democrats immediately blamed gun control laws, we need more.  Problem is, they guy had a gun license in NY, one of the toughest states to get a license.  He legally purchased the guns.  He'd been investigated and questioned by the FBI.  He'd passed background checks for his job as an armed security guard for a company with DHS contracts.

Of course, this should bring up questions how a guy when in high school was cheering when the planes hit the towers - I don't have all the training of an FBI agent, but shouldn't that be some sort of clue or negative thing - a guy who apparently had a work partner once who quit his job because he couldn't stand listening to this guy go on and on about his hatred of gays and others, expressing the desire to kill them.

But of course one side is blaming Islam, another is blaming guns, another is blaming the plight of gays in this country.

And our president, man how smart is this guy, immediately picked up on the situation and blamed the mass killing on hate while the rest of us were confused, not sure if it was due to hate or love.  We have so many mass killings caused by love for our fellow mankind.

But now, what will people say?  Turns out the killer didn't just hate gays, he was gay.  Been going to gay bars for years.  Dating on gay apps.  So now what will they say?  That it was because of some deep psychological trauma of being muslim and gay drove him to do this?

Tiger gotta eat, bird gotta fly
Man gotta wonder why why why
Tiger gotta sleep, bird gotta land.
Man gotta think he needs to understand.

I don't get the whole gay thing anymore.  Look, no doubt, at one time people who were gay had to hide their live style, but now?  No one really cares anymore, it won't hurt you getting or keeping a job, might even help you get the job.  You can rent, buy, get married to your partner, what is the oppression?  Not in America.

Now in the Islamic world, well, not so much.  You are hung, tossed of roof tops, beaten, mutilated, and all those other fun things those pesky peace loving muslims like to do in their spare time.

So now President Numb Nuts, a man rumored to have enjoyed a few walks on the wild side himself since high school, is filling this country with Islamic soldiers who are attacking gays.  And liberals, gays, blacks, hispanics, jews, and muslims all voted for him for being so open minded.

The problem with being open minded is eventually your brains pour out.   Get over your grieving quickly my imaginary readers, there are going to be many more mass shootings, bombings, and such in our future.  Compliments of your friend neighborhood Numb Nuts.

Tiger gotta eat, bird gotta fly
Man gotta wonder why why why
Tiger gotta sleep, bird gotta land.
Man gotta think he needs to understand.

Monday, June 13, 2016


And people wonder why I pray for God to reboot.

Well, the Canadian Supreme Court has determined that oral sex with animals is perfectly legal as long as it doesn't involve penetration.  That is right, now hockey players will have something to do once the ice melts, the hosers can spread peanut butter on their hoser and let their dog lick it off and not worry about those pesky Canadian Mounties from disturbing their summer picnics, eh?  Which is probably for the best since the Mounties might be too busy with their horses.

And a bunch of law school graduates have determined this is okay.  Maybe Lenin was right after all.

Just to keep the flow, big story out of California, gee, there is a surprise, where what started as something in Oakland is now spreading about cops and young girls in sexual encounters. A whole underground system of cops and 15 year old girls.  Which, when asked at a press conference about what was happening, led former President Clinton to say "I always wanted to be a cop".

Now the shooting in Florida.  Still confused as to what it is; some say it's a hate crime of some homophobe shooting a bunch of gay people.  Others think it is Islamic terrorism.  The president thinks it is inanimate objects gone wild as guns just opened fire in a gay bar.

Tonight on Fox:  Are bullets homophobic?

Now the shooter is a first generation American, apparently.  Strong muslim ties to a mosque the feds expected would be trouble but were prevented investigating further a few years ago so as to not upset the muslims.  Liked to beat his wife, then she left.

Frankly, I think the whole thing started when the bar held Retro Bee Gees Disco Night at the bar; that would set anyone off with an automatic weapon.

Here is the point without the dribble.  A muslim went whacko and shot up a bar of people, killing over 50 of them.  Of course, this is a well respected person who apparently is an armed security guard working for a company with contracts with the Department of Homeland Security.

Get a grip on that: one department under DHS was investigating this guy for his radical islamic ties and was told to stop while another department in DHS approved him to be an armed security guard with one of their contractors.

We are allowing this country to be overrun with foreigners.  Foreigners that don't go thru medical testing and now have little kids in our schools with TB sitting next to your little kids.  We are allowing young men trained in terrorist camps in the middle east to flood into this country.

What happened Saturday night is the first of many times to come.  But then if you read this blog, you already knew that didn't you.

Admit it, when you woke up Sunday morning and read the news, you really were not the least bit surprised, were you.

Guess I got what I deserve
Kept you waiting there, too long my love
All that time, without a word
Didn't know you'd think, that I'd forget, or I'd regret

The special love I have for you
My baby blue

All the days became so long
Did you really think I'd do you wrong
Dixie, when I let you go
Thought you'd realize,thatI would know, I would show

The special love I have for you
My baby blue

What can I do, what can I say?
Except that I want you by my side
How can I show you? Show me a way
Don't you know, the times I tried

Guess that's all I have to say
Except the feeling just grows stronger everyday
Just one thing, before I go
Take good care, baby let me know, let it grow

The special love you have for me


Saturday, June 4, 2016


Yes, still alive, was just taking a break from blogging.

I know being President of the United States is a very hard job, maybe one of the hardest jobs around.  No one is really prepared for the job, certainly Obama wasn't and after eight years probably still isn't prepared for it.

Be that as it may.....

And I can understand when your last year of a second term comes around, you would be feeling a might melancholy, thinking you got just one year left as the most powerful man on earth, how will you spend it, what will you do before you leave the office.

And apparently President Obama has decided to cut salt from our diets and pretty much allow anyone to use any bathroom they choose depending how their hormones are raging on any given day.

Now is that is a legacy a man can hang his hat on or what?  Transsexuals with good blood pressure.

Told you Jenner would be regretting the sex change.  If you were an unhappy person with a penis, you will be an unhappy person without a penis and visa versa, once the novelty wears off.

I'm waiting for some business to get clever and start labeling their bathrooms XX or XY to avoid the whole thing.

All that hopey changy talk 8 years ago and what do we have.  Is the economy better, nope.  Oh I know the stats coming from the government look good but anyone who believes them is pretty much an idiot - which actually describes a majority of voters.  I'm not worried about insulting potential readers, after all, assuming Obama voters can read is quite a jump in logic in the first place.

Real stat to know.  there are approximately 150,000,000 people with jobs in this country.  There are approximately 96,000,000 people of working age without jobs.  So let's bring in 10 million people from other countries cause that will create jobs.   One day in our lifetime, we might see that figure at 120M/120M.

So the economy sucks still.  How about how the world looks, well, Iraq went from a voting democracy when Obama came in with happy people with purple thumbs to a quagmire of violence again; Iran has nukes, about of 1/2 dozen of the middle east countries are chaotic messes, Xians in the middle east are nearing extinction, Europe is a terrible mess with massive invasion of terrorists, er, sorry, illegal aliens, oops sorry, refugees who are raping young women and boys at a sexual pace that would make Warren Beatty go 'wow'.   So not a good track record there either.

Now stories are out how our government is just grabbing up people coming over our border, throwing them in buses and vans and driving them to other parts of the country and letting them loose.

Prediction Time:  Don't pay any attention to the concerns about all these Islamic terrorists coming into this country over the border and a planned massive terrorist type thing happening this year.  Won't happen while Obama is president.  Next year though?  Oh yea, it's going to get ugly dirty for sure for sure.

Cavet to this prediction: not including the possibility that Obama will start a major war with Russia and or China before he leaves office just to finally finish destroying the country he loathes so well.

Our military is an utter mess with all the political correctness mandates and the purging of most captains, majors, admirals etc who knew what they were doing and the absolutely horrible treatment of soldiers who fought against terrorism.

So I pose this question.  Can you really and objectively name one way this country is better off today after 8 years of the Obama presidency?  Stop and think that question through.  Health care you say?  Yea, sure, if you were poor and used medicare you are now poor and use subsidized health insurance and the funny part of that is before ObamaCare you could get a policy for around 200 a month, 2500 deductible, that would cover you and that is if you were 50.  Cheaper if younger.  Now you would be hard pressed to find similar policy for less than 500 a month.

So basically, if you had pre existing conditions, you can now get a low cost policy that is subsidized by healthy people who saw their premiums more than double.

That is one, I guess.  Scrapping to find it though.

But there is a light at the end of the tunnel, unfortunately it appears to be an out of control train headed our way.

There is no way under God's green earth I can step into a voting booth this fall and vote for Hillary.

While Bernie has some good ideas and good points, his plan to double or triple the debt to pay for everything is absolutely insane.  And speaking of insane, there is Trump.  Nice thing about Trump, if he lives to be elected and sworn in, is that there is no middle ground with him, he will either fix much that is wrong with this country or be the final straw that breaks the camels back and puts the United States somewhere on the scrap pile of history with Atlantis.

How did it ever get this far out of control?

I don't know what to say about these days
I'm seeing people changing in the strangest ways
Even in the richer neighbourhoods
People don't know when they got it good
They got the envy and they got it bad

When I was a kid everything I did was trying to be free
running up and down tinsel town with the fire inside of me
my planets all in retrograde the best of all my plans got made
I made my breaks and some mistakes
Just not the ones people think I made

I'm a long way gone down this winding road I'm on
It's gonna take me where I'm bound
It's a long way around

Jackson Browne