This is my second blog.

My first blog chronicled my experiences over three years caring for my dad as he lived through and finally died from Alzheimer's. That is the book that is for sale.

This second blog kind of chronicles of life, what it is like to start your life over in your late 50's. After caretaking, you are damaged, file bankruptcy, and the world doesn't care what you did. After 8 months of unemployment, you wake each day knowing the world doesn't want you. Finally you do find a job, 5 weeks before homelessness, but doing what you did 30 years ago and getting paid what you did 30 years ago. So this is starting over.

The object of life is not to be on the side of the majority, but to escape finding oneself in the ranks of the insane.

Friday, February 26, 2016


Al Sharpton has said if Trump is elected, he will leave the country.  Whatever Hell Trump releases on America, an America without Al Sharpton can't fail to be an improvement.

Sad week, one of my favorite 'takes me forever to read his books' authors has passed away, Umberto Eco.  Often I finish a novel of his and have no idea what was going on, what the purpose of the book was, but somehow I feel like I am smarter at the end of the book than when I started.   His essay books  on subjects are always fascinating, but the novels.  Foucault's Pendulum was a brain teaser like no other, well, until Dan Brown came along, stole the plot, took out all the big words, philosophy, and wrapped 200 pages of history onto the back of a Bazooka Joe bubble gum wrapper.  Brown's version was probably something Eco used as toilet paper after reading it through in one or two bathroom breaks.  Sad though that he is gone.  Now Mark Helprin still publishes books and while he is a completely different writer in style and substance when you finish his books you get that same feeling of accomplishment.

No more John Gardner, nor more John Fowles and no more Umberto Eco.

I read thru Bernie Sander's web site and his 'points' and came away thinking, can't do it.  It's not that I disagreed with everything, some of the economic things I totally agree with.

Health care, you know, I have no issues with birth to death medicare in this country, just how is it going to be paid for is my problem.  More payroll taxes?  No thanks.  A sales tax, might be okay, want to see what it is and what controls are put on it to make sure in 10 years it's not a 20% sales tax, which could happen easily.  I still like that 1 cent tax every time a dollar changes hands idea, as long as Wall Street pays it too.  Think about it this way, when you buy a car, sell a car, or buy anything you pay a tax.  When you sell stock you pay capital gains taxes.  But when Wells or Goldman buys 100,000,000 shares of XYZ  in the morning at 20 and sells it later in the day at 20.5, they make 50 cents a share and no taxing is done.  Put a 1 cent tax on each end of the transaction and they will need to stock to move more than 2% before they can make any money.

 Raising minimum to 15 is another example.  Look, corporations in this country have gotten away with 'murder'.  They stock manual labor with illegal aliens, move manufacturing overseas, and now use this visa program to put Americans out of work and keep labor costs down.  Yet these same corporations pay the equivalent of more than 15 dollars an hour in European counties and you know what?  They are making money in those European countries, otherwise they would not be there.

The trouble with Sanders is he wants open borders, for one thing.  Fact: we will never get this economy turned around and people working as long as there are 20 million illegal aliens in this country, no matter where they are from.  And as long as America does not put tariffs on foreign goods coming into this country from countries that put tariffs on US goods coming into their country we are screwed and swirling down the toilet ever faster.

I don't care who builds the damn wall, just build it.  Where I live, I know there is one apartment that every morning 8 people pile out of to go to work.  That is illegal and in Fort Collins there is even a 3 person non family members in a unit law.

Oh yea, Sanders wants to empty the prisons.  Now I've gone off several times on the travesty that is our prison system in this country,   Corporate run prisons that have incentives in their contracts to have over 90% occupancy so the pressure is on states, counties, and cities to make sure they put enough people in prison and keep them there as long as they can so the cost per prisoner is lower; meanwhile same judges, lawyers, and others invest in those companies so they make money on the little scheme.  I'm all for breaking that up, but when over 40% of the people working age in this country are not working, what happens when you release another million into that equation?

Picture a country where illegal aliens are gone.  Restaurant and labor jobs open up at 15 bucks an hour or more and guess what, that 90 million is going to drop down to less than 50 million pretty quick.  Yes, your burger will cost a little more, but guess what, your salary is going to go up with the bottom of the labor goes up to 15.  And as I pointed out, the restaurants, bars and shops are full in Europe with people who can afford those things so it must work better than what we've been doing for 30 years.

What I just cannot fathom is how the hell democrats are so for Hillary.  Are they really that stupid and blind?  Are they even following the email server thing?  Nixon and his aides lost their jobs and most went to prison for doing so little compared to what this email server is.  And I am so sick of Bill Clinton walking around like he was the most popular president ever, HE NEVER GOT 50% OF THE VOTE IN EITHER ELECTION.

Damn that Ross Perot.  If that idiot had not run for president in 92, Clinton never would have been elected and no one would have ever heard of Hillary.  And PT Barnum would throw flowers at her for proving the point of how many people can be so fooled by lie after lie.

My favorite was Bill Clinton claiming when he would fly from England back to NY from Oxford he often had long layovers and use to use the time to walk thru Harlem.  AND PEOPLE BOUGHT IT.  Now picture a pudgy young farm block wearing english tween sports jacket with fat boy jeans walking down the streets of Harlem in the 1970's.  Really?  Seriously?

Any time God wants to start the 7 year clock is okay with me, the sooner the better.

Afterglow in a distant row
The door is open and the lights are cold
The children come in here and they dare the ghost
Like a fire burning in a stone
Silent light in the theatre's sky
Phantom cigarette and a silent cry
The door swings open and it's cold outside
Run and hide, run and hide
Ah, ah

They can still see him singing on the corner singing songs
That never fade away, fade into the kids that come along

Memory in a silent seat
Melody on a long retreat
Like an angel on a balcony