This is my second blog.

My first blog chronicled my experiences over three years caring for my dad as he lived through and finally died from Alzheimer's. That is the book that is for sale.

This second blog kind of chronicles of life, what it is like to start your life over in your late 50's. After caretaking, you are damaged, file bankruptcy, and the world doesn't care what you did. After 8 months of unemployment, you wake each day knowing the world doesn't want you. Finally you do find a job, 5 weeks before homelessness, but doing what you did 30 years ago and getting paid what you did 30 years ago. So this is starting over.

The object of life is not to be on the side of the majority, but to escape finding oneself in the ranks of the insane.

Sunday, December 6, 2015


So,got an email this week with what I thought was an interesting metaphor.

There is a large bowl with 10,000 M&M's in it - but there are ten M&M's in the bowl that are poisonous-how many pieces will you eat from the bowl?

I mean, come on, one per 1,000,  .001 probability of picking one that is poison.  Let your kids have some, no?

While this metaphor is meant for middle eastern immigration, I am going to use it for another topic.  Kierkegaard.

Soren Kierkegaard is a very misunderstood and maligned theologian in modern thought and for two reasons: no one actually READS what he wrote and the meaning of words change.

Kierkegaard 's thesis involves objective truth and subjective truth and the above metaphor explains it well.   Objective truth is sitting in font of your computer contemplating the non hypothesized bowl - subjective truth would be sitting in front of the actual bowl and actually choosing an M&M.

The issue or mistake many make is defining subjective as relative, meaning truth is relative.   What Kierkegaard really said is it is relative to your position, it is not the truth that is relative, but the subject that is relative to truth.

Kierkegaard's point was to the church - people who objectively 'know' God: they know the verses, they know the doctrine, but they don't subjectively know God.

So maybe the reason evangelicals don't like Kierkegaard is not a definition, but maybe his writings are a punch to their gut.  Look at what is preached from the pulpits today, baptists can't drink, know the creeds, tithe; do the acts.

This morning tens of millions of people will be in church, but when they exit, if they found Arabs or the government outside the building, and gave them the choice to recant or die, what would happen?

Well, besides Kierkegaard smiling down from heaven saying "now, you get it ".