This is my second blog.

My first blog chronicled my experiences over three years caring for my dad as he lived through and finally died from Alzheimer's. That is the book that is for sale.

This second blog kind of chronicles of life, what it is like to start your life over in your late 50's. After caretaking, you are damaged, file bankruptcy, and the world doesn't care what you did. After 8 months of unemployment, you wake each day knowing the world doesn't want you. Finally you do find a job, 5 weeks before homelessness, but doing what you did 30 years ago and getting paid what you did 30 years ago. So this is starting over.

The object of life is not to be on the side of the majority, but to escape finding oneself in the ranks of the insane.

Tuesday, September 22, 2015


So, we have another example of progress not always being progress.

Seems VW has designed their computer systems in the car to behave one way when it's hooked up to the machines states use to reduce air pollution on cars and behave another way the rest of the time.  The world is shocked, outraged, the CEO is resigning in disgrace - and I'm betting a few other auto manufacturers are scrambling behind the scenes to remove same software from their cars as soon as possible.

This is what happens when we trust computers.

About 20 years or so ago, the industry was shocked to discover some of the Japanese cars which had such great results in the crash tests we run absolutely totally failed a new test they didn't know was coming - they were building the safety of the car to pass the tests, not really protect the occupants of the cars.  After months of claiming the tests were faulty, it was evident that those safe little rice cars were not nearly so safe.

Of course, back to computers, we now have electronically controlled acceleration, breaking, steering, and all other sorts of improvements which mean you, the driver, really don't have control of the car like you think you do if it suddenly starts to accelerate, break, or steer which ever way the computer software is telling it to do.  Then blame the floor mats because of course, the computers cannot be wrong.

And now we learn all these cool computer driven machines are totally hackable.  Progress ain't always progress.

A few years ago, I probably wrote a few pieces at my disgust for James Winston, the QB at some Florida college who apparently, we will say probably for legal reasons, raped a young woman and the police and school rallied around the football player because he was seriously good, good enough to win the Heisman Trophy that year.  Poor girl was ridiculed, left the school.  Now we have schools passing these new rules in CO that if a woman accuses a man of rape, that student, the male, will be immediately dismissed from the school and banned from campus.

Though I bet if he is a really good football or basketball player there will be an exception.

So how do we move from a football player being protected by cops and school and the woman literally removed from the school to an accusation of rape being enough to kick a guy off campus and out of the school, where we were told recently they could go to another college while awaiting trial - like other schools will welcome said student with open arms.

But where all this is going is the saga of Patrick Kane, the hockey player.  Probably arguably the best player in hockey, who is accused of raping a woman at his home in Buffalo this summer.

Why do I want to give Kane the benefit of the doubt but immediately believed the woman in the Winston case?

First of all, all you imaginary ladies reading my blog, here is some advice: college and pro athletes are some of the most spoiled and entitled people on the planet.  They pass thru high school and college getting A's and B's without ever showing up for classes. Most have IQ's lower than their diastolic reading of their average blood pressure.  When you, a woman, go to the home or apartment of said athlete, they are not thinking you are there to discuss Faust or particle physics.  You are there for sex, because that is the limit to their vocabulary.

But back to Kane versus Winston.  Why does part of me hope Kane didn't rape the woman, that it's a honey trap of some sort but immediately sided with the woman against Winston?  Kane has money, Winston, at that point in time, did not.  Kane is white, Winston is black.  Is that it?

Do I immediately assume Winston, the black dude, raped the woman, who's color I don't know?  Do I assume Kane, the white guy, might not have raped the woman, who's color I don't know?

I don't know, but it's been bugging the crap out of me for weeks.  If I decide in my mind now Kane is guilty, in order to be logically consistent, I am convicting him by race also.  So either way, it's racist.

Thinking can sometimes be a trying habit.

In this our life on earth
Another dawn we face
Is this the moment of truth
For the whole human race
Is that the last man down
Is that the last life laid to waste
Can we find in our hearts
Each and every dream we've misplaced
Before heaven cries tears
On the mountain we climb

Farewell to arms
Rest in peace
May the rain of freedom be released
Farewell to arms
We just can't walk away
We're all sharing this earth at the end of the day

Greg Lake