This is my second blog.

My first blog chronicled my experiences over three years caring for my dad as he lived through and finally died from Alzheimer's. That is the book that is for sale.

This second blog kind of chronicles of life, what it is like to start your life over in your late 50's. After caretaking, you are damaged, file bankruptcy, and the world doesn't care what you did. After 8 months of unemployment, you wake each day knowing the world doesn't want you. Finally you do find a job, 5 weeks before homelessness, but doing what you did 30 years ago and getting paid what you did 30 years ago. So this is starting over.

The object of life is not to be on the side of the majority, but to escape finding oneself in the ranks of the insane.

Saturday, June 13, 2015


Been listening to a few Coast to Coast AM's of late.  May join up with the premium membership again, they do have interesting shows some nights without the hysteria of some of the other previously mentioned shows.

They had one this week about EMP/Solar flares and our electrical system and I'll tell you what, if you listen to it and hear how several times in the last 10 years the house has passed the law to require the utilities to insulate themselves against such an event and each time it is totally killed in the Senate in committee before it ever gets a vote will make you cry.

If you do not know what an EMP is, there are two types.  One is one nuclear bomb is exploded about 30 miles above the center of the US and the electromagnetic shock wave will knock out everything, and I mean everything.  All the electrical transformers will be burned out, so no electricity.  No computer, no internet, your smart phone instantly has value only for throwing at someone, no ipads, ipods, digital music, TV, movies.  Oh, turn on the faucet and no water (except what is in the hot water heater - so check it out to see how to disconnect and how to drain the water out of the bottom.  You might need some to, oh, I don't know, flush your toilets?  Cause they won't work either.  All this is of course dependent on your home not catching fire from the electrical surge rushing thru all the wires.  And, your car probably won't start, the older, the more likely, but it could burn all the computer chips and so even cars from the 90's will probably have issues.

So, very quickly, no news, society breaks down but you prepared!  You got food, you got water filters, you will rebuke the hundreds of zombies, formerly known as friends and neighbors, because you got your guns and ammo so you will still be alive for a couple of weeks when all those used fuel rods stored at every nuke plant in the US, and haven't had running water to cool them, go critical and blow, spreading enough radiation to kill whatever is left in north america, then europe, asia etc.

Now, just so you understand, the probability of this happening one day is 100%.  The solar flare has happened before, back in the 1800's lots of telegraph operators were killed when one hit and travelled on the lines, hundreds of fires broke out across the world from the overload.  Unless you were a telegraph operator though, probably were not effected.  And unless you are some hermit or farmer in the third world who gets along fine without electricity, you will die when this happens again.

And, just keep this in mind, NK and those cuddly little islamic terrorists know about this too and are working very hard to get one bomb on one missile to launch from a container ship 100 miles off our coast to take America back to the stone age.

And what would it take to stop this?  Well, a couple of billion dollars and about 5 years, which means it could have been done by now if the senate hadn't killed it in 2004.  Or 2009.  Now it's up again, except this time it's not sailing smoothly through the house.  See?  Tsunami.  Our leaders in Washington fiddle with climate change while this goes undone.

Ain't nobody gonna be worried about climate change, free trade, gay marriage, the Apple Watch, the new season of whatever is on TV, is Bruce call me a chick Jenner or are the Cubs going all the way if and when this happens.

In other words, dear readers, we could have protected the entire electrical grid by now for less money than we provide Saudi Arabia, Pakistan, Iran, and several other countries in one year.  For less than we give to the south of the border countries to stop drugs from coming into this country in one year.

Stopped by the Fort Collins police station today to get the final word on whether carrying a telescoping baton is illegal or not and came back with a definitive, not sure.  They don't know either, they had books out reading the statue and some said section 102 while not saying it specifically could be read to include it and others said it would not so I left there confident nobody knows anything.  Their suggestion, just go get your CCW from Larimer county and then the CCW would cover the baton along with a gun.  Unless of course when I pick up the app the Sheriffs department tells me it's not required to carry a baton then I can quit worrying about it.

So, glad that cleared things up.  Like almost everything, it is now illegal if they want it to be illegal.  I'm sure sitting here with a macbook on a pillow listening to REM while I type a blog and drink Jones Real Sugar Cola  is illegal in some jurisdiction somewhere.

By the way, since I quit drinking the new Pepsi with real sugar and started drinking Jones, I've dropped 10lbs.  I KNEW that Pepsi was not using real cane sugar in that replacement for Pepsi Throwback.  But of course, Pepsi can lie on their cans and that is legal, if I drink it with a baton in my pocket it's not.

Okay, now to the point.  Another one of the shows I listened to this week was the interview with Howe, co author of The Fourth Turning with Strauss, and one of the best books I've read.  I'm always proud of three books I read before anyone heard of them or they became famous:  Megatrends, The Firm, and The Fourth Turning.  Read all three before they ever hit any best seller lists.

Howe's conversation about generations is very fascinating, talking about Baby Boomers, Generation X and Millinials, hang on, got to fix the spelling, milennials - well, google says that is wrong too but tells me that is how it's spelled on a search, go figure - and how these generations are interacting today and the issues.  Baby boomers are required to work more years now than previous generations because we live longer, because of the unanticipated costs of raising kids, and Gen X is trapped with BB's not retiring and Milennials pushing from behind.  It was also interesting how milennials are extremely positive about the future, which is very surprising since most are saddled with huge amounts of college debts, unable to find jobs, and living with their folks at 30, so I'm not sure where they get their optimism from other than the reality of life has not hit them yet because they borrowed money and live off mom and dad still.

Side note:  had a conversation recently about teens and milenniums who grew up texting.  Seems by texting that teens don't feel nearly as shy in dealing with the opposite sex as most teens have thru centuries so by texting they avoid all those embarrassing moments of stumbling over words, drooling, wetting your pants when asking a girl to a dance because you are so nervous - not that I ever did that mind you - BUT in reality they are now in their 20's and still haven't quite gone through the process of dealing with people face to face.  So all they managed to do is delay emotional growth from their teens to later years.

Honestly, I never wet my pants asking a girl out.  No comment on drooling.

But here is always my issue with generations.  Baby Boomers were defined as 1945 to 1964 for years, but now it seems since 2008, it's been defined as 1961 as the cutoff.  Why?  Because supposedly, who knows for sure, that is the year Obama claims to have been hatched and he wanted to be part of the Gen X generation so professors and media across the country just changed the date to accommodate the man.

My problem is Generation X really started in 1957, let me explain.  We claim baby boomers started when soldiers came home from the war and started families, but BB should probably have started about 1941 because there were lots of kids born between 1941 and 1945 from husbands and boyfriends headed off to war and wanting to leave kids behind.  But more importantly, baby boomer children are not really defined by the year, but by Vietnam.

The draft did not take place for those kids born in 1957 and later, it did take place for 1956 and earlier.  For me, for example, born in 57, what I was going to do if I was drafted was always a theoretical exercise - and forever is a theoretical exercise.  But for children born between 1941 and 1956, it was not theoretical, they were drafted and many were called and had to make a choice, especially after college deferments were stopped.  That defined the baby boomers, not Make Room For Daddy or Leave it to Beaver. Lumping those from 1957 to 1964 into that generation disregards the one word that defined that generation, Vietnam.  So really Generation X should start in 1957 and probably run till about 1982, where someone born in 1982 would graduate high school in 2000.

These 'second half' babyboomers have much more in common with Generation X than baby boomers.  Yes, we might remember when JFK was shot, but all we knew was we got off of school about 4 extra days.  Vietnam was a show on TV news, unless our older brother went away and never came home or never was the same when he got back.  And second half boomers were just as stuck behind the first half boomers on corporate ladders as generation X - in fact, I will bet more second half boomers have started their own companies than first half boomers or gen Xer's have.

In fact, the Generation X generation is probably more related to the Silent Generation than anything, since both followed a 'great generation'.  There is probably some generation envy going on.  the silent generation missed WWII but had Korea and early Vietnam.  Actually, the Silent Generation were really the instigators of much of the unrest in the 1960's; Hoffman, Ruben, etc were all part of the silent generation, the baby boomers were the followers.

And maybe so it will be in the future, as Generation X takes over the reigns, will they lead the Millennium Generation to revolt against society again?  Entirely possible, the most vocal rabble rousers we see today are people born between 1957 and 1981, and the Millenniums are just waiting for a leader to get them out of mom and dad's house, to protest the debt, lack of jobs, etc.

This could be the saddest dusk
I've ever seen
Turn to a miracle
high alive
My mind is racing
As it always will
My hand is tired my heart aches
I'm half a world away here
my head sworn
To go it alone
And hold it along
Haul it along
And hold it
Go it alone
Hold it along and hold, hold.

This lonely deep sit hollow
I'm half a world
Half the world away
My shoes are gone
My life spent
I had too much to drink
I didn't think
and I I didn't think of you
I guess that's all I needed
To go it alone
And hold it along
Haul it along
And hold it
Blackbirds backwards forwards and fall and hold hold.

Oh this lonely world is wasted
Pathetic eyes high alive
blind to the tide that turns the sea
This storm it came up strong
it shook the trees
And blew away our fear
I couldn't even hear