This is my second blog.

My first blog chronicled my experiences over three years caring for my dad as he lived through and finally died from Alzheimer's. That is the book that is for sale.

This second blog kind of chronicles of life, what it is like to start your life over in your late 50's. After caretaking, you are damaged, file bankruptcy, and the world doesn't care what you did. After 8 months of unemployment, you wake each day knowing the world doesn't want you. Finally you do find a job, 5 weeks before homelessness, but doing what you did 30 years ago and getting paid what you did 30 years ago. So this is starting over.

The object of life is not to be on the side of the majority, but to escape finding oneself in the ranks of the insane.

Tuesday, March 31, 2015


Strange times we live in.

Just finished reading two books by Mark Goodwin entitled In The Days of Noah I & II.  They are pretty good, fast reads - like a Patterson novel - and sort of a quasi Left Behind series for preppers and end timers.  I almost didn't get very far in the first one because towards the beginning they were talking about 9/11 being an inside job and regurgitating all that Building 7 crap that is just flat out wrong, but I stayed with it and glad I did.

In the book, there is a part, without ruining the story because you can see it coming, where soldiers are temporarily staged at the football stadium in Knoxville for 'training', as well as other locations all over the US and lo and behold, there is an explosion at the Knoxville police station killing all the cops so how lucky all those soldiers were in place to take over the city.  And amazingly enough, all those other locations had terrorists attack too so the soldiers were in place.

So, what exactly is going on this summer with Jade Helm 15?

Never heard of it?  Betcha it's not being covered by TV news very much.  Basically, if I understand it, there is military exercise taking place in the US this summer - I thought that was against the law, but never mind - where in now 15 states, some labeled 'bad' like Texas and Utah hmmm, and a big special forces thing going on and I can't help but wonder is this a setup, a dry run, a test for public reaction or what?

How many cities have put up with allowing blackhawk choppers to be flying thru their cities?  Has any mayor said no?  Does you local police force or county sheriffs department have a bunch of cool new toys from the feds?  If so, don't count on them to stand up to the feds.

I cringe reading the news about Iran and nukes, Numb Nuts and Israel, and wonder when the ball is going to drop.

Which brings me to another topic of protesting.  How many people have been outraged at anything of late?  Seriously, okay, you got blacks rioting in MO for a black kid being shot by a cop; not much though for the thousands of black kids killed each year by other black kids, but let a cop shoot one and it's riot city.

But think about the news stories that have come out the last few years; from Snowden's revelations to others and the doubling of spending by the feds, 3 trillion in tax dollars collected and people don't remember that 15 years ago the total federal budget was less than 2 trillion.  Yet with 3 trillion we are still running deficits.  The dollar is about to become useless paper and we what?  Blog?

Back in the 60's, Babyboomers took to the streets and college campuses and rioted big time.  Why - okay, to avoid the war in Vietnam, but otherwise why?  Because they could.  Let's face it, mom and dad were paying college, you could always go live at home, and in spite of the war, life was pretty good.  But today, we've been squeezed.  We are sitting in the chair in musical chairs unwilling to stand up and start running around to the music because we know when the music stops are chair will be gone - sent to Asia or Mexico - or find an illegal alien sitting in the chair.

We have too much to lose.  And the younger generation today are too brainwashed and brain dead to look up from their devices to notice anything is going on.  The older generations are too much in debt and too afraid to lose their jobs.  We all know it's coming, we just hope and pray it's still a few years away, a few years to buy a little more food, a little more silver, and in the end whether it's tomorrow or 5 years or 10 years from now we won't be prepared for what is going to happen.

I worry about intermittent reports of Chinese troops hiding and positioning themselves and their equipment in Mexico, about 100 miles from the border in the mountains.  We should hold missile testing there.  I cringe when I read the Google executives meet regularly at the WH, like weekly, and then help write the legislation - Google is not your friend people - I know, I use their blog - but I don't use their search engine.

See, just as the evening news controls what you will be told and how it will be told, Google controls what it wants you to find on your searches.  Most people who search will click off whatever they want from the first page and never go further; so Google controls what you find, what you will think, etc.

Fort Collins Utilities came by today to put a wireless thermostat on my water heater and I said no.  For two reasons.  One because the guy totally ignored the sign you absolutely cannot miss that says don't know on this door during these hours.  When he knocked, fortunately I was on offline time and not on a call, I stepped outside and looked at the sign and back to him and said 'you didn't see that?" and he said no.  Then I said I didn't want the wireless stat in the apartment, I called the city twice yesterday and they wanted you to install it and turn off the wireless.  He said he didn't know how to do that so I said then you can't install it.

Probably going to hear about this from someone.  Government doesn't like not being able to control your electrical use.  Of course, if they were not shutting down all the coal burning power plants in the US, putting tens of thousands of people out of work, driving up electrical costs by 50%, we wouldn't be facing power shortages.  But never Fear  Fort Collins is building a 200 acre solar farm north of town that will power 7,000 homes.  Of course, for the same money, they could build a coal power plant that would power 70,000 homes or not shut down several in the state and really save some money but this town is seriously going as liberal as Boulder and so tied and sucking on the UN teet with Agenda 21 it is ridiculous.

Last year, some woman started protesting against all this and they came and took her kid away and she is still fighting to get her kid back.  That is the nice thing about having nothing.  They can't take anything away from me except my dog and after a few days they will return him I'm sure.

There's evil brewing, getting out of control
And I'm helpless I can't put it right
Something's unrighteous is possessing my soul
And it's cold in the heat of the night

Something's wrong in this house today
While the sorcerer slept the apprentice decided to play
While the master was hiding the servants decided to play
Might be too much sun or too much of something in the air
Whatever's happening nobody else is aware

There's evil brewing, getting out of control
And I'm helpless I can't put it right
Something's unrighteous is possessing my soul
And it's cold in the heat of the night

Something's wrong in this house today
Something's been going on there may be a price to pay