This is my second blog.

My first blog chronicled my experiences over three years caring for my dad as he lived through and finally died from Alzheimer's. That is the book that is for sale.

This second blog kind of chronicles of life, what it is like to start your life over in your late 50's. After caretaking, you are damaged, file bankruptcy, and the world doesn't care what you did. After 8 months of unemployment, you wake each day knowing the world doesn't want you. Finally you do find a job, 5 weeks before homelessness, but doing what you did 30 years ago and getting paid what you did 30 years ago. So this is starting over.

The object of life is not to be on the side of the majority, but to escape finding oneself in the ranks of the insane.

Sunday, March 15, 2015


I'm not sure when it all clicked in my head.  That all of this, life, history, is just nothing more than what LA Marzulli refers to as the Cosmic Chessmatch.

I've been thinking about it this week, with the world, the election in Israel, our Numb Nuts - hey, I capitalized it - history, and they battle that has been going on since the dawn of time.

Satan versus God.

The Bible is nothing more than a supernatural story of this battle between God and Satan.  It starts in the Garden, well, actually, probably long before that but we only get to pick up the story there,  when Eve is tooling through the Garden and Satan is standing by the tree and offers Eve a bite.  She says no, God said not to eat from that tree and Satan begins the dialectic: He said that?  Are you sure?  You know why He said that?  Because if you eat this apple you will be like God.

And human history is nothing more than mankind wanting to be like God.

I've just started outlining a wonderful commentary on Job, it's available as a podcast and it's really interesting so I'm going to be doing that over the next week, which I have off by the way.  Job is such an important book, it really outlines the whole story of the Bible, and most importantly it outlines this battle between God and Satan.  And if you read it, when Job's first friend begins talking, notice where this is all coming from, from a visit from a spirit who tells him what to say.  Now, who could that be?

Could it be Satan?  I know, I sound like the church lady now.

Then its the blood line and Genesis 6, nope not Seth, it's angels that left their domain to have sex with the human women and corrupt the blood of everyone on the planet.

Or who told the Pharaoh to kill all the jewish children under 2?  To wipe out Moses.  All through the Bible, it's about wiping out the Jews.  Eventually God figures better to spread them around and they leave their land, yes, their land, and spread around the planet.  But that comes a little later.

Then when Satan figures out that Jesus has been born, he finds another leader to wipe out the children again.

Then Jerusalem is overrun, Jews and now Christians are spread out.

But, the battle to wipe out Jews continues.  Satan starts his own religion in the mideast, a continuation of Baal, today know as Islam.  Satan has used 'anti-christs' throughout history and Islam is one of the biggest that have attempted several times.  Fortunately for all the jews that fled the middle east and ended up in Eurpoe the Islamic advancement of overthrowing countries in southern Europe was stopped at the French border by, oh, those evil crusades.

Unfortunately for the jews, europeans haven't been much better than muslims and wishing them dead, and Satan certainly found a tool in Hitler who did his best to wipe out the race.  I'm not sure the governments in Europe and the US weren't cooperating to some degree, such as the ship load of jews that were turned away at the US and Canada.

So afterwards, as with many other times in history, God counters Satan moves and uses that evil to produce the new state of Israel.  So the jews get their land and the Palestinians get their land and it all worked just fine until the Brits sailed over the horizon and the Palestinians and all the other muslim countries attacked Israel to wipe them out.

Fortunately, the Jews kicked their asses all over the place and took some of the Palestinian lands.  What, you say, they didn't take all of it?  Well, no, for you see most of the land that was going to be for the Palestinians actually resides in what is now known as Jordan.  Few remember in the 1960's how Jordan wiped out about 20k Palestinians and took that land from them.  Funny how no one ever asks Jordan to give back any land, isn't it, it's always the Israeli's that have to give it up.

And now we have our president using our tax dollars to attempt to influence an election in Israel to get rid of Bibby.  Get a nice liberal patsy in there and very soon the deal will be set and Israel will be divided up further, and eventually from the north, from Jordan, from Syria, from Egypt and what will the US do?

Nothing, because Numb Nuts is another anti christ.  And America is going to pay dearly for our part in taking land given by God to the Jews.  We try to take what God gives and God will take from us.  America will not be the same.

And Israel will win the war.

But now one understands any of this, no one sees the world in this supernatural battle, which is exactly what Satan wants.

The wall on which the prophets wrote
Is cracking at the seams
Upon the instruments of death
The sunlight brightly gleams

When every man is torn apart
With nightmares and with dreams
Will no one lay the laurel wreath
When silence drowns the screams?

Confusion will be my epitaph
As I crawl a cracked and broken path
If we make it we can all sit back and laugh
But I fear tomorrow I'll be crying
Yes, I fear tomorrow I'll be crying

Between the iron gates of fate
The seeds of time were sown
And watered by the deeds of those
Who know and who are known

Knowledge is a deadly friend
When no one sets the rules
The fate of all mankind I see
Is in the hands of fools

King Crimson