This is my second blog.

My first blog chronicled my experiences over three years caring for my dad as he lived through and finally died from Alzheimer's. That is the book that is for sale.

This second blog kind of chronicles of life, what it is like to start your life over in your late 50's. After caretaking, you are damaged, file bankruptcy, and the world doesn't care what you did. After 8 months of unemployment, you wake each day knowing the world doesn't want you. Finally you do find a job, 5 weeks before homelessness, but doing what you did 30 years ago and getting paid what you did 30 years ago. So this is starting over.

The object of life is not to be on the side of the majority, but to escape finding oneself in the ranks of the insane.

Saturday, January 10, 2015


Jeepers, spent 180 bucks at the grocery store today.  Nice to have a car to haul it all.  Part of that was Evol frozen meals, a Colorado company that makes really healthy, mostly organic and GM free foods, were basically buy one get one free, so I stocked up with 16 of them.  Plus fresh veggies; it's funny, in the winter, I pound fresh veggies with every meal and rarely eat any fruit - in the warm summer weather, I rarely eat veggies and gorge myself on fruits.  Wonder why that is....

Lost in the myst of Islamic terrorism this week was a little story about one of Bill Clinton's great buddies.  One of those guys with more money than people on the planet who gets busted for crimes, does some club med time, and lives to continue some rather hedonistic ways.

Seems the guy has quite a few powerful friends.  Our ex president's numbers, over 20 of them, were in his list.  Our ex president flew quite a few times on the ex con's private jet including multiple trips to his little private island where he rubbed elbows with Prince Andrew, the old one, and other really elite people - and apparently a gaggle of young girls - also known as underage - Chester the Molester material.

I guess that's how people live when they have everything, they just want more.    The old joke about the Texas rancher who didn't want all the land, just the land next to his.  So guys who have it all, in their 50's and 60's, are flying to the island to have sex with teenage girls, hey, who's kidding who, bet there were a few boys in the gaggle too.  And so rich, so powerful, they know they can get away with it.

Baby, if you ever wondered
Wondered what ever became of me
I'm sitting here in the penitentiary 
Honest, I swear, she told me she was eighteen

So we have the leaders of this world, the men who make decisions that make or break the lives of billions, wars, jobs, careers, all hang by a thread where these men make more bucks and give no thought to the lives they ruin; and to relieve the pressure they fly off on private jets to an island of the richest of the rich and strip down their flabby naked bodies on 15 year olds.

And the royal family, the washington media, the New York media will all let this little thing slide right off the pages, hell, they will probably start a war if they need to in order to cover up the perverted peccadillos, what's a few million dead in order to keep the perversions off the papers.

Got kind of tired of girls around my age
Can't divorce, marriage in a cage
Maybe I retired before you turn turned age 3
But honest I swear I thought you were eighteen.

Then, of course, we have Bill Cosby cracking a joke the other night, warning the women to be careful drinking around him.  At least Cosby has the decency to only force himself sexually on woman over eighteen, which I guess makes him the moral compass of the elite.

Been watching some interesting videos from the lunatic fringe, otherwise known as people who are laughed at today and what they say will be common sense in 10 years, and the videos are from The Aberino Analysis and one of the more interesting videos  (  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jF86-hl7DlY ) is on underground military bases in America and around the world.

You can watch the video and judge the evidence for yourself, but there are some interesting dots connected here that will make sense of things.  One is the reports around the country and world of strange humming sounds, loud booms, vibrations, and numerous earthquakes where earthquakes were unknown, like Oklahoma and Texas.  Funny, two years ago it was sinkholes in Louisiana and now it's west with earthquakes in Dallas and Oklahoma.   The documented evidence of a device to tunnel underground from 1972 patents for example, could explain what people sense or feel, the loud booms and weird sounds, the earthquakes, as well as our underground water aquifills being emptied could all be explained by a system of bases and underground transit systems connecting them, as well as supplying them with water and it fits with the elite's desire to have a system of cities and the ability to move between them without being subject to whatever is happening on the surface of the earth.  What really impressed me was the Rand Corporation Report back in the late 1970's laying the whole thing out.

See, when you look at our world, sometimes there doesn't appear to be hard evidence of this or that, but if this or that 'fits', then it is wise to consider the probability that it is true.

Think of the trillions of dollars that have disappeared from different departments over the last few decades.  Remember when this federal department and that federal department all had over a trillion dollars that it could not account for back during the Clinton years?  How about Rumsfeld announcing on September 10th, 2001, that the Pentagon/Defense department had a 2.3 trillion dollar unaccountable shortfall, which most people forgot about the next day.  (by the way, this is the only evidence I've ever seen for 9/11 being an inside job, way to coincidental - but unfortunately, nothing else fits the conspiracy).  The point is, maybe these missing trillions were being diverted to fund the building of these underground cities, bases, and the transportation system between them.

And, it sounds like something the elite would do.  Build a little underground world for them to all go and hide out for a decade while hell is let loose on the surface and after a decade or two, kill off whoever managed to survive and now you have 500 million people with a whole planet.  I'll bet 10 bucks there will not be an Arab Sheik or muslim cleric underground anywhere.  Probably no Baptist pastors either.

Pity the fools.  Their underground cities will make a great tomb.  And maybe that is how God intends to separate the chaff from the wheat.  No one ever gets to the end of Ecclesiastes to understand the point.  Oh well.

This coat that fits you like a glove
These dirty streets you learned to love
So welcome back my long lost friend
You've been to hell and back again
And God alone knows how you crossed that span

Back on the beat, back to the start
Trust in your heart
That's the measure of a man

It's the fire in the eyes, the lines on the hand
It's the things you understand
Permanent ties from which you once ran
That's the measure of a man

You've come full circle, now you're home
Without the gold, without the chrome
And this is where you've always been
You had to lose so you could win
And rise above your troubles while you can

Elton John