This is my second blog.

My first blog chronicled my experiences over three years caring for my dad as he lived through and finally died from Alzheimer's. That is the book that is for sale.

This second blog kind of chronicles of life, what it is like to start your life over in your late 50's. After caretaking, you are damaged, file bankruptcy, and the world doesn't care what you did. After 8 months of unemployment, you wake each day knowing the world doesn't want you. Finally you do find a job, 5 weeks before homelessness, but doing what you did 30 years ago and getting paid what you did 30 years ago. So this is starting over.

The object of life is not to be on the side of the majority, but to escape finding oneself in the ranks of the insane.

Sunday, January 18, 2015


I haven't watched a football game for two seasons, but occasionally on Sundays would sign into fox sports and check scores, which I did today and with 7 minutes left, GB had the ball, 19 to 7 lead.  And in only what I can guess was some sort off tribute to the Bears, they lost the game?

Life is funny, Dallas' coach goes 12 and 4 and gets a 5 year new contract, Denver's coach goes 12-4 and gets fired.  And the Bears hire him, which is good, since the Packers may never recover from what happened today.

Spent the day watching several videos on the Geocentric universe and it was very interesting.  Not sure I'm buying into it yet, but it is interesting the scientists really can't 'prove' the sun is at the center and the earth revolves around it, but then again, neither can the Geocentric proponents really prove their point.  What they can do is using the same math and rules design a geocentric model that works just as well as the heliocentric model.  This is all coming up because of some movie, The Principle, which is pushing the geocentric model.  What spiked my interest was that in a 48 hour period last year, 189 stories appeared blasting the movie, all the same story, and before anyone had even seen anything about the movie - when you see that sort of behavior, it's kind of like "okay, what don't they want us to think about?"

Frankly, I could care less, but I see the point; the whole concept of the sun centered solar system was to show the earth was nothing special in the universe.  Problem is there is some data now that proves otherwise.   I didn't catch the names, but apparently some research probe was launched about 5 years ago that came up with some data that freaked everyone out, so they launched another to get better data and it came back last year and sure enough verified the first finding; which basically shows the earth is actually at dead center of the whole damn universe and the whole thing is angled at the same angle of the earth's tilt.

But in the end, it will be just like people digging up skeletons of giants, so what?  The science machine, the media, the universities will bury it, mock it, and nothing will change.

So, that is going on the back burner for awhile, can't be thinking about that too deeply with Hebrew study starting in two weeks, but it does interest me.  So much of science and economics are just so easily accepted by people because they use math and math doesn't lie.  Except for this little problem, even if you prove something by math, it doesn't make it true, just mathematically proved.  Not the same thing.  And in many cases, the math is made up to make something fit to make a model work, like the bankruptcy paper work - just kidding.  See Dark Matter, for a good example.  Or the speed of light is a constant.  All little things we all accept but are not actually proven.  Those assumptions, they get you every time.

Why Hebrew?  Over the Greek?  Well, at my age, I have to pick one.  Not knowing any is a weakness, but only having a semester of each is even more dangerous, so I chose the Hebrew and after two or three years of study, it will be fun to read Genesis, Job, and those prophets in the original texts.

Sorry about the Packers, Brian, I was rooting for them.

His world is under anesthetic
Subdivided and synthetic
His reliance on the giants
In the science of the day

He picks up scraps of information
He's adept at adaptation
Because for strangers and arrangers
Constant change is here to stay

He'd love to spend the night in Zion
He's been a long, long while in Babylon
He'd like a lover's wings to fly on
To a tropic isle of Avalon

He's got a force field and a flexible plan
He's got a date with fate in a black sedan
He plays fast forward for as long as he can
But he won't need a bed
He's a digital man