This is my second blog.

My first blog chronicled my experiences over three years caring for my dad as he lived through and finally died from Alzheimer's. That is the book that is for sale.

This second blog kind of chronicles of life, what it is like to start your life over in your late 50's. After caretaking, you are damaged, file bankruptcy, and the world doesn't care what you did. After 8 months of unemployment, you wake each day knowing the world doesn't want you. Finally you do find a job, 5 weeks before homelessness, but doing what you did 30 years ago and getting paid what you did 30 years ago. So this is starting over.

The object of life is not to be on the side of the majority, but to escape finding oneself in the ranks of the insane.

Sunday, December 21, 2014


Saw a report today where currently the CDC is tracking 1400 cases of Ebola in this country, and I thought WOW.

This whole Ebola thing smells.  The outbreak in Africa is still out of control, unchecked, and growing; but somehow the news media has moved on.  But if we have 1400 possible cases in this country, and the media is not reporting it, the government is not doing something seriously about it, then we have a total dereliction of duty on both parts.

But I can't help but wonder about the whole thing.  As my long term imaginary and anonymous readers know, I am disgusted how the western world uses Africa as some sort of experimental petrie dish and can't help but wonder is some scientific experiment in Africa went bad or worse, did exactly what it was suppose to do.

Why else would we bring people from the center of the outbreak with the disease back into a country with 300 million people?  To study or test something.

Imagine if we have a way to introduce and spread a disease with 90% fatalities and have a way to make sure most people in this country don't come down with the disease.  How about wiping out Islamic countries population?  How much better the world might be if 90% of the population of the middle east countries were killed off and we could go back into them for their resources without having to deal with terrorism, sheiks, and other such issues.  Test in African blacks, get a good cure for the 'white' world, then let er rip.  Why we could wipe out not only the Islamic world, but the populations of middle east people in Europe and America too.  Dearborn Michigan could be returned to the local taverns and strip bars.

Yes, I spent several hours one afternoon in a strip bar in Dearborn back in 1990ish.  Met up with an old college friend I hadn't seen in 10 years who spent the day trying to score coke and me making a mental note never again try to catch up with an old friend.  I mean coke was so 1980's.

But think about the elite thinking.  How to wipe out those pesky Islamic terrorists that hold the world hostage.  A nice Ebola that only attacks blacks and middle eastern people, a cure that only is effective in white european people, and you not only free the middle east of being a problem for the next 100 years, you also solve the whole inner city welfare state of many European countries.

I wonder if anyone is counting the survivors by race?  God is going to punish so many for the way we've used black africa like lab rats one day.

So, here we are.  We have a 300 lb thug beat a cop in Missouri, then charge the beat up cop and get shot, and millions are up in arms making the stupid thug kid a hero.  Then we have a cop trying to control another thug with a nice long criminal history who is resisting another arrest and puts him in a legally approved choke hold and the guy with asthma, high blood pressure, and diabetes ends up dying and when we don't arrest the cop, millions more start wearing I Can't Breath t-shirts.  Numb Nuts once again come out siding not with law enforcement but with the thugs and today we wake to find two cops executed in NY.

Funny how 13 years ago these cops were heroes for 9/11 and now they are evil people to be executed.  Fortunately, the idiot shot himself afterwards, but not after tweeting his deed and bragging about it but I do appreciate him saving the country the cost of a trial.

Golly, if we could only convince more criminal types to think that committing suicide was seriously cool to do.

So two cops are dead, actually more than that.  Saw an article that listed all the cops in the USA killed in the last 3 months, I think it was five, and four of the five were white cops killed by black assassins and one was a black cop killed by a white guy but that wasn't racist because he was a cop and Numb Nuts and the Keystone Racist Squad won't support a cop.

How would you like to be a cop today knowing the copy cats are just waiting for you?  How would you like to be a cop today having to protect people that cheer the execution of other cops?

Now, here is what really bugs me.  Little Louie Farrakan gave a speech last week where he called for blacks to kill cops.  Yep.  Now, think of this: if some white guy like Limbaugh or Hannity told people they should kill blacks, or hispanics, or lawyers, okay-maybe not lawyers, but you see where I am going, and then somebody went out and killed said persons or people, do you think the federal government would ignore it or prosecute the crap out of them?  But Louis F can call for blacks to start killing cops and you can bet nobody will have the balls to charge him as an accessory or incitement or anything.

In the end, we have the same problem in this country in the black community we have in the world with the Islamic community.  A percentage of the black population are just down right evil scumbags, just as a percentage of the Islamic world is.  And that small percentage scares the living daylights out of the majority, scares them into keeping their mouths shut, scares them into not going to the authorities, scaring them, threatening them, into silence.

And that small population of bad produces the hatred and prejudice against all.  And, in the end, nothing will change because what needs to be done will never be done, and the weeds will continue to take over the field and kill the crops.  Sorry, think I mixed metaphors.

Perhaps we should start changing our 911 phone system by zip codes.  If you live in one of those neighborhoods that cheer cops being shot, protest 300lb thugs getting shot after beating up a cop, maybe they could redirect those 911 calls to the local street gangs to come to your home to help in an emergency.  Hey, it's a theory.

Standing in a forest gazing at the sun
looking at the trees but there's not even one
See a rippling stream that smiles and then goes by
run to feel its comfort but the water's dry.
I see her face and run to take her hand
Whey she's never there I don't understand
The trumpets sound my whole world crumbles down
Visions of angels all around
dance in the sky
Leaving me here
forever goodbye.
As the leaves will crumble so will fall my love
for the fgragile beauty of our lives must fade
Though I once remember echoes of my youth
now I sense no past, no love that ends in love
Take this dream the stars have filled with light
As the blossom glides like snowflakes from the trees
In vengeance to a god no-one can reach.
Visions of angels all around
dance in the sky
Leaving me here
forever goodbye.
Ice is moving and world's begun to freeze
see the sunlight stopped and deadened by the breeze
Minds are empty bodies mor insensitive
some believe that when they die they really live
I believe there never is an end
God gave up this world its people long ago
Why she's never there I still don't understand
Visions of angels all around
dance in the sky
Leaving me here
forever goodbye.