This is my second blog.

My first blog chronicled my experiences over three years caring for my dad as he lived through and finally died from Alzheimer's. That is the book that is for sale.

This second blog kind of chronicles of life, what it is like to start your life over in your late 50's. After caretaking, you are damaged, file bankruptcy, and the world doesn't care what you did. After 8 months of unemployment, you wake each day knowing the world doesn't want you. Finally you do find a job, 5 weeks before homelessness, but doing what you did 30 years ago and getting paid what you did 30 years ago. So this is starting over.

The object of life is not to be on the side of the majority, but to escape finding oneself in the ranks of the insane.

Wednesday, October 1, 2014


It's here.

What President Numb Nuts and other denied was likely, what average americans who are not glued to a TV figured out, Ebola is here.

Why?  Because our government dropped the ball completely. One month ago all travel to and from Africa should have been banned.  No flights out, you travel there, you are going to stay there until the disease has run it's course.  Air drop supplies, no landings.  Quarantine.  Where did I read that before.....

So it's out in Dallas.  Guy with it was apparently involved with local schools so now hundreds of children may have been exposed.  And all their family members.  And all their friends.

I'm pretty isolated, a trip or two a week to grocery stores, church, maybe a take out place once a week.  Pretty much a loner.  Yet in one week I probably am in the same building with 1000 people - each of whom were in contact with thousands of others who were in contact with thousands of others.

The punch line, when the guy first went to the hospital complaining of symptoms and telling them he'd just flown home from Liberia, well, they went into action and prescribed antibiotics and sent him home.  That is why they call it 'practicing'  medicine.

I'm really angry about this, why aren't you?

It was either gross negligence, incompetence, or intentional that we did not take the steps necessary to fight this and prevent it from reaching American shores.  And now it's here.  It will take a miracle of God Almighty to prevent this from spreading across America.

Maybe we deserve it.  Maybe this is God's way of punishing us for using Africa as a lab for human experiments, treating God's creations as rodents for profit and to support an unholy lifestyle.

Would one reporter, just one White House reporter, ask the president "WHAT THE HELL WERE YOU THINKING??"  Not taking any steps to prevent this would be like letting a pedophile move into your home with your 5 small children and then expressing shock that the pedophile would sexually assault your kids.

Here is a Zen Riddle.  Ebola wipes out humanity.  But you survive.  For over a year, you live alone on the planet.  Then one day you see another person in the distance.  You are thrilled, you approach this person and as you get closer, you discover the other survivor on the planet is Numb Nuts himself.  The riddle is:  Do you just shoot him or beat the living crap out of him until he's dead?  Ponder your decision.

In the end, the elite will go into hiding, probably already are, and the rest of us will take our chances.  Maybe God will show mercy, maybe  it won't be bad, a few thousand and gone.  Maybe we will announce a miracle vaccine and we will all rush out and get injected with whatever the government wants running through our bloodstreams.

Have to think about that.

So stock up on some things.  Bleach, medical gloves and masks, soap, toilet paper and vitamins.  Plenty of that good bacteria stuff.  Canned fruit and veggies; you really want to get fresh stuff everyone has been picking up and putting back now?  Soups would be great.  Time to get into that 5 month food supply.  Better buy a few months of dog food too.

If I'm the last person left alive, do I still need to sign in and take support calls?

The actors and jesters are here
The stage is in darkness and clear
For raising the curtain
And no one's quite certain whose play it is

How long ago, how long, if only we had listened then
If we'd known just how right we were going to be
For we dreamed a lot and we schemed a lot
And we tried to sing of love before the stage fell apart

If everyone was listening you know
There'd be a chance that we could save the show
Who'll be the last clown to bring the house down?
Oh no, please no, don't let the curtain fall

Well, what is your costume today?
And who are the props in your play?
You're acting a part which you thought from the start
Was an honest one

Well, how do you plead? An actor indeed
Go re-learn your lines
You don't know what you've done
The finale's begun

If everyone was listening you know
There'd be a chance that we could save the show
Who'll be the last clown to bring the house down?
Oh no, please no, don't let the curtain fall