This is my second blog.

My first blog chronicled my experiences over three years caring for my dad as he lived through and finally died from Alzheimer's. That is the book that is for sale.

This second blog kind of chronicles of life, what it is like to start your life over in your late 50's. After caretaking, you are damaged, file bankruptcy, and the world doesn't care what you did. After 8 months of unemployment, you wake each day knowing the world doesn't want you. Finally you do find a job, 5 weeks before homelessness, but doing what you did 30 years ago and getting paid what you did 30 years ago. So this is starting over.

The object of life is not to be on the side of the majority, but to escape finding oneself in the ranks of the insane.

Sunday, September 7, 2014


What is your favorite Gospel?  If you answered "Jesus Christ Superstar" please leave now.

I like Matthew.  Matthew is an interesting book when you think about the history of the book.  First Matthew was a census taker, which meant he had to know shorthand, which is why there are more parables and discourses in his book than any of the others.

Mark, he wasn't an Apostle, he followed around Peter and wrote what Peter said.  Luke was a doctor who wrote two really great books, Luke and Acts, but he was a researcher type.  John was an Apostle and I really like his book too, but for different reasons.

But Matthew was there and took notes.  Gotta love that.  I know many a theologian like to say Matthew didn't write it, that it was copied from Mark, but then really, think about it for a moment.  Now I will grant you that sometimes the disciples were sent out in pairs and so Matthew might not have been around when X or Y happened and he might have asked when he got back but why would he 'copy' from Mark?

Matthew was writing his book to the Jewish people.  Now some of those overeducated theologians who needed to make something up for their papers so they could get their PhD like to say that Matthew was written decades after the death and resurrection of Jesus, but then why not include things like the death of James or the whole end of Jerusalem.

Nope, pretty sure Matthew was written early on from the notes Matthew took constantly.  In fact, they found several pieces of script that have been dated to no later than 60AD that are from Matthew.  So I'm inclined to say Matthew was probably written in the 30's or 40's AD, I mean, if you hung out with God, would you wait 20 years to write about it?

The real question in my mind are these.  Was it written in Hebrew or Greek?  I've read several books that lay out a heck of a case for Hebrew.  There are Hebrew 'puns' in the book that would not be there if translated back to Hebrew from Greek or Aramaic.  However, the Greek argument has merit also.

Saddle up my imaginary readers and let's go for a ride.

Ever hear of Ivan Panin?  I hadn't either.  Panin is some russian math wizard that graduated from Harvard with a PhD in math back in the 1800's, when a PhD meant something.  Then he accepted Jesus as his savior and the Holy Spirit opened his mind to use his math skill

Panin found, first in Psalms and then later in the Greek NT mathematical patterns that would defy any logical mind from concluding there had to be a higher source involved in the writing.

So let's try an experiment with my imaginary readers since according to stats few real readers are still around.  Spend a few minutes and start writing out the genealogy of your family tree.  Start with yourself, then your mom and dad and then keep going back with which ever you know better, the mom or dad side.

I'll wait.....

Okay, now let's look at Matthew, except we have to look at the Greek text which none of us can probably read, so we will have to go with Panin, who was educated at a time when people learned multiple languages quite extensively in college and didn't waste time in classes like Beyond Survival and the Social Meanings of Buffy.  Yes, there really were college courses on Buffy.

Here is what is in that genealogy in Matthew 1.

the number of words is divisible by 7 with no remainder
the number of letters is divisible by 7 with no remainder
the number of vowels is divisible by 7 with no remainder
and yes, the number of consonants is divisible by 7 with no remainder
the number of words that begin with a vowel is divisible by 7 with no remainder
the number of nouns is divisible by 7 with no remainder
number of males names? is divisible by 7 with no remainder

What Panin discovered was there were 75 different variables in that chapter that are all divisible by 7 with no remainder.  Which the odds of that occurring randomly are 7^75 power.

Seriously, try that at home.  Just do the number of words, vowels and consonants.  But I'm not going to wait.

Normally, I restrict much of my reading on theology to the first and second century; people who were there with Jesus, the students of the people there with Jesus, and the students of the students of the people who were there with Jesus, after that things get a little screwed up.  But I'm finding some excellent theology work from the 1800's, Panin and Sir Robert Anderson's work The Coming Prince, where he shows that conversation between Gabriel and Daniel and how you can pinpoint the start date and arrive at the Sabbath in 32AD before Passover as the day the Messiah will ride into Jerusalem on the horse as being the exact predicted date.

And most of the Hebrew people missed it when it was right in front of them.  I wonder what American Christians are missing.

Heard a podcast last night and there are now over 100 million Christians in China.  That may exceed the number of Christians in this country now.  Think about 100 million people willing to accept Christ as their savior in a country where it can send you to prison or death.  And we don't want to talk about it because we might 'offend' or be laughed at by our peers.

Kind of makes you wonder which side God will be on when the war between China and the US begins; the country that rejected him or the country where people accept him under the threat of death.  Which of course made me think of escape routes again, up into the mountains.  Recently went to a web site for splunkers and discovered that the uber guberment here have been closing off caves all over the place, sealing them so they can't be entered.  Wonder why, certainly not a job creation plan, must be another reason.  Either to keep us out from hiding in them or are they wanting to keep something in?  I always ask that question when someone builds a wall; is it to keep other in or others out.  In life, it usually works out to both in the end, something we should think about before we build a giant wall between us and mexico.

Came from passion and you gave it a name
The fingers of poison like needles in the drivin' rain
So smile discreetly as you watch with such grace
Now I must slip away but can you forget my face

Out of reach, out of touch
How you've learned to hate so much
Out of reach, out of touch
How you've learned to hate so much