This is my second blog.

My first blog chronicled my experiences over three years caring for my dad as he lived through and finally died from Alzheimer's. That is the book that is for sale.

This second blog kind of chronicles of life, what it is like to start your life over in your late 50's. After caretaking, you are damaged, file bankruptcy, and the world doesn't care what you did. After 8 months of unemployment, you wake each day knowing the world doesn't want you. Finally you do find a job, 5 weeks before homelessness, but doing what you did 30 years ago and getting paid what you did 30 years ago. So this is starting over.

The object of life is not to be on the side of the majority, but to escape finding oneself in the ranks of the insane.

Saturday, August 9, 2014


Many people claim to embrace change, look forward to change they say, but the truth is people really don't like change.

New shifts started today and I'm doing a split, which I volunteered for, so I have time during afternoons to hit the gym, bike, and see the world in daylight - it's kind of like college all over again, classes in the mornings, bartending at night, except now I don't spend the afternoons stoned, watching soaps, and such.

Nor are there a dozen pretty college girls talking to me at work.  Sigh.

But our bodies don't like change, the body likes routine.  It likes getting up at a certain time, going to bed at a certain time, and eating the same foods.  When you make changes, your body doesn't like it and in some cases will eventually adjust, other cases it never adjusts.

Business always claims they want change but my experience at two large companies is that process improvements are great, root cause analysis is great, as long as it's not in MY department!  I actually saw a company decide rather than spend 20k to fix  a problem cause 100k in rework every month choose to keep doing the rework because that's not cash out of the bank like 20k would be.  Yea, doesn't make a lot of sense to me either 5 years later.  I bet they are still spending 100k a month in rework, putting orders a month behind, just to save that 20k and patting themselves on the back.

Last Saturday, there is a great interview on Coast to Coast with the guy who wrote Dr. Mary's Monkey,  about the death of Dr. Mary Sherman, the connection to Oswald, and most importantly the history of the polio vaccine.

Polio was an epidemic, but actually had been around for years.  In fact, between 1900 and 1942, there were about 3k people a year in this country get polio.  Not many, unless you were one of the 3k.  But in 1942 it jumped and kept jumping until 50k a year and what happened in 1942?

Penicillin was introduced.  The interview talks about how antibiotics kill the bad and good and what happens in our intestines when the good stuff is killed off, how fungus forms, and now things that would never get through that wonderful system of intestines that evolved over billions of years, cough cough, protecting us from all sorts of bad stuff is now letting the bad stuff into the blood streams and the polio virus got into many people, other stuff got through including the pesky SV40 virus from the polio vaccine that is dead center of many of the tumors and cancer people have gotten since.

In fact, one of the founders of penicillin wrote there is a dark side to this drug and suggested later that it would lead to a cancer epidemic.

So basically, the line is antibiotics release a polio epidemic, the cure creates a cancer epidemic, the entire BB generation has this ticking time bomb in them, there is a government coverup,  murders, and the fascinating fact that Lee Harvey Oswald is involved and Mary Sherman is killed the day the Warren Commission shows up in New Orleans.

This story fascinates me.  It is such a bizarre tale, yet fully documented and statistically verified issues with cancer.  A murder mystery, a government plot, I am sure guy like Tom Clancy wish he could have imagined.  Ed Haslam is the author, you can find the interview on youtube by now I'm sure and you should at least check it out, it's a fascinating story that more people should know.

It also brings about why I am always looking for what a government will do to it's people and where I came up with the conspiracy theory that our government is going to solve the economic problems of this country by wiping out the BB generation by activating the SV40 virus into a fast acting cancer and turning SS/MED into the black in about 4 years.  Governments do these things.

Of course, Obama has other plans for genocide.  I look at all these people flooding into our country and wonder if we are drawing the bravest of central america to this country for the wipe out, leaving only the passive and scared behind, for better control.

Which brings up the question, are you following the ebola story?  I wonder at what point people will begin to hunker down, will you get to the store in time for that last shopping spree?  Can you go three months without leaving your home?  Whether we like it or not, times they are a changing.

Come writers and critics
Who prophesize with your pen
And keep your eyes wide
The chance won't come again
And don't speak too soon
For the wheel's still in spin
And there's no tellin' who
That it's namin'
For the loser now
Will be later to win
For the times they are a-changin'.

The line it is drawn
The curse it is cast
The slow one now
Will later be fast
As the present now
Will later be past
The order is
Rapidly fadin'
And the first one now
Will later be last
For the times they are a-changin'