This is my second blog.

My first blog chronicled my experiences over three years caring for my dad as he lived through and finally died from Alzheimer's. That is the book that is for sale.

This second blog kind of chronicles of life, what it is like to start your life over in your late 50's. After caretaking, you are damaged, file bankruptcy, and the world doesn't care what you did. After 8 months of unemployment, you wake each day knowing the world doesn't want you. Finally you do find a job, 5 weeks before homelessness, but doing what you did 30 years ago and getting paid what you did 30 years ago. So this is starting over.

The object of life is not to be on the side of the majority, but to escape finding oneself in the ranks of the insane.

Saturday, July 19, 2014


I use to write everyday it seemed, now it's once a week.

Amazing how a job can prevent a man from thinking, which makes me wonder in the next election if we should only elect unemployed people who've been spending the last few years pondering life.  Plus, they'd be grateful for the job and a lot less likely to rob the public blind.

So Fort Collins is contemplating a 10 cent a bag charge at all the grocery stores for every paper and plastic bag, with the store keeping the 10 cents per bag.  Claims it will cut down on all that plastic in landfills.  So why the hell have we spent the last 30 years being asked "paper or plastic" every time we shop?  We were suppose to use plastic, according to the environmentally disabled to save trees, then they said the plastic was bad for the environment, so now they want us all to buy bags made by asian slaves in some third world country.  My favorite part was their justification that other cities like Austin are doing it - which is a typical teenager response that is usually met with an adult asking if Austin jumped off a cliff, should we do it too?

We need everyone to go back to school for classes in logic and critical thinking.

Even Elizabeth Warren said something recently that just made he go 'uh?'.  She stated she was for raising wages for every working person, a living wage to make sure we could all afford cable, HDTV, and political contributions.  Then she said she was for amnesty for the 30 million illegal aliens.  Well, duh, we'd have a living wage if it weren't for the illegal aliens that have flooded the country for 30 years taking all the jobs Americans don't want, like high paying construction jobs, the few factory jobs not yet moved overseas, waiters, cooks, etc.  If you legalize them and all the flood coming across now, you will drive wages down even further.

Jeepers, Lizzy, let me put it a way even a Harvard professor can understand.  You are putting the ice cream in the oven.  It just doesn't work that way.  You want higher wages?  How about removing 30 million illegals from the country, stopping the flow of jobs overseas, and reducing the tax burden on start up businesses?  Remember how we didn't collect sales taxes on the internet for 15 years to help it grow?  How about doing the same for startup businesses?  No corporate taxes on profits for start up businesses for the next ten years?

Ol' Liz really preached to the choir the other day, I think they were called The Brainless Twits, about how progressives believe in science and we should save the planet.  Which I guess means that non progressives don't believe in science and want to blow the planet up - okay, maybe Muslims - but for the rest of us?  What exactly does it mean to "believe in science"?  Is believing in science an oxymoron?

A web site I read this week on critical thinking said the first premise of critical thinking is falsifyability:
it must be possible to conceive of evidence that will prove the claim false.  He thinks this first rule will eliminate people's believe in the paranormal, well, and God.  Problem is, his first postulate, in order to be true, it must be possible to conceive of evidence to prove the claim false.  Why don't people ever see this?

Presumptional apologetics tends to make the same mistake, in that while I agree that any attempt by an atheist to 'prove' or 'assume' things like morality or truth require a belief in God.  If we are all just the result of random chance evolution and all of our thoughts are nothing but the chemical reactions of our brains, then how can we be sure we really know anything, every thought is not knowledge or wisdom, just the firing of neurons in by brain fed by chemicals, including that thought.  The problem with presumptional apologetics is while it makes a great argument for God, it doesn't make a great argument for the God of the Bible and in it's philosophy of not using evidence kind of shuts the door on the very evidence needed to prove God of the Bible, His Son, and the Holy Ghost as true, not the moon demon or some space ship or some evolution of all of us to gods with our own planet some day.

Life these days seems to be floating, waiting.  Not sure for what - can't seem to move forward.  Need 1200 bucks to file bankruptcy but living paycheck to paycheck where one check covers the rent for the month and the other must pay the loans, the bills, and food - it's not exactly easy to save 100 bucks let alone a thousand.  Maybe, God willing, I can continue like this for another 6 months and then in Dec there is that extra biannual paycheck plus the work from Christmas to New Years at double time and maybe I will be able to have enough to pay an attorney; otherwise I have to live the next 15 years with the weight of knowing that if I lose my job I will be homeless in less than 60 days.

It sucks when your retirement plan is die to early.

So that is my brain this week, wish I had more time to ponder this stuff more deeply, but I don't.  Thanks for the few of you that are left and still reading, hope it entertained.

There is no pain you are receding
A distant ship's smoke on the horizon
You are the only coming through in waves
Your lips move but I can't hear what you're saying

When I was a child I caught a fleeting glimpse
Out of the corner of my eye
I turned to look but it was gone
I cannot put my finger on it now
The child is grown the dream is gone

I have become comfortably numb