This is my second blog.

My first blog chronicled my experiences over three years caring for my dad as he lived through and finally died from Alzheimer's. That is the book that is for sale.

This second blog kind of chronicles of life, what it is like to start your life over in your late 50's. After caretaking, you are damaged, file bankruptcy, and the world doesn't care what you did. After 8 months of unemployment, you wake each day knowing the world doesn't want you. Finally you do find a job, 5 weeks before homelessness, but doing what you did 30 years ago and getting paid what you did 30 years ago. So this is starting over.

The object of life is not to be on the side of the majority, but to escape finding oneself in the ranks of the insane.

Monday, June 16, 2014


Well, there sure are a ton of articles out lately about how dangerous sitting is to our health.  Is this the next don't eat eggs, don't eat butter - eat margarine, oh wait, margarine is twice as bad as butter.

I swear, one day they will decide cigarettes are really good for us.

I sometimes think of the WWII generation and the generations before.  Most worked in fields and farms, ate meats, dairy, smoked, drank, worked all day long and into the evening in the fields, building the roads, building the skyscrapers, and all died quite happy and content in their 60's.

Today most people sit on their butts to commute hours to work, sit on their butts at work all day, sit on their butts driving/riding home, then sit on their butts watching the tube at night and live 20 years longer than their parents and grandparents.

The trouble with all these studies is that you can't isolate all the variables and then most of the studies come off looking pretty stupid.

If you read these articles, a person who works out each morning for an hour, then sits at a desk all day, then relaxes at home is more at risk then the mailman walking a route, eating fast food and smoking.

Which makes me wonder where all of this is leading.  What are all these studies really trying to do?

Let's face it, if sitting is bad, then why do we make kids sit at desks all day in school?  Aren't we concerned for the children?  Are we going to let the kids sit all day wrecking their lives?

And what of the lawyers?  Is this the new lawsuit of the next decade?

So you go to work for a company for 30 years, sitting in meetings, sitting at desks, and then get some disease and now you can sue the business for making you sit 40 hours a week?  What about churches, sitting in pews, quilting clubs where old ladies sit around at quilt - okay talk with occasional stitching.  Can we sue the churches?

But wait, what about the manufacturers of chairs?   Steelcase doesn't make really expensive office chairs, they make comfortable death traps - get me my lawyer on the phone!  Lazyboy, SteelCase, and all the other furniture companies are about to get smashed with lawsuits from people who get cancer of the this or cancer of the that who spent the better part of their lives sitting on their butts.

Are we really happier in our lives today?  I sometimes look back at people in the 40's, 50's, and 60's and they may have been out of shape; smoked, drank, look 60 when they were 35, but they did seem just a whole lot happier in life.

The American Dream was alive and well.  Jobs for life, pension plans for retirement, insurance, and croak before the body falls apart completely.

Mostly because they weren't bombarded with idiotic studies every week of their lives telling them everything the say, do, eat, sleep, don't do, don't smoke, don't eat, don't think is going to kill them.

The longer I live, the more I think each of us, somewhere buried deep inside, is a clock that already has our death date stamped.  Sure, you can get killed in an accident, but otherwise you are going to live those years and when you reach that date, it won't matter, times up.  That's why otherwise healthy seeming people drop dead and other live thru disease after disease and illness and keep getting up the next day.

Diet, attitude, exercise?  Maybe the quality of your years are better because of the habits, but it won't add to the years.  Had an uncle that started smoking at 14, couple of drinks each day and lived to 90 before his clock stopped.

Think I will just sit here and ponder this whole sitting thing a little while longer.

Seems that nothing is black and white anymore
Shades of gray and I feel the weight over my shoulder
It's tough getting older
I always thought that I knew where I'd wanna go
But now I'm here and I find that I'm still getting colder
It's kinda tough getting older

Here before my eyes, many roads ahead
Time for me to choose one way now
If I take a chance, what lies down the road?
Feeling so confused, turned around