This is my second blog.

My first blog chronicled my experiences over three years caring for my dad as he lived through and finally died from Alzheimer's. That is the book that is for sale.

This second blog kind of chronicles of life, what it is like to start your life over in your late 50's. After caretaking, you are damaged, file bankruptcy, and the world doesn't care what you did. After 8 months of unemployment, you wake each day knowing the world doesn't want you. Finally you do find a job, 5 weeks before homelessness, but doing what you did 30 years ago and getting paid what you did 30 years ago. So this is starting over.

The object of life is not to be on the side of the majority, but to escape finding oneself in the ranks of the insane.

Wednesday, January 15, 2014


Here is what has always bothered me about some branches of science.  Picture your self on a Tilt A Whirl.  Your car is rotating around, while the track you are on is revolving around.  Can you accurately measure the distance you need to run when you get off to reach the bathroom and throw up?

Of course not.

Yet we see people coming up with all sorts of measurements of space as we spin around in our daily rotation, as the planet revolves around the sun, as the solar system revolves around the center of the galaxy, as the galaxy travels through space.  And from that perspective we measure another spinning galaxy.  Don't freak out on me, this is going somewhere.

There are approximately 200 billion stars in the Milky Way galaxy. The Milky Way  is a spiral galaxy, with a bulging center and arms that start in the center and form a flat pinwheel shape. The galaxy is estimated to be 100,000 light-years across. The Sun is located about two-thirds of the way out from the center of the galaxy or about 28,000 light-years away.

Okay, what this means is we are about 78,000 light years from the other edge of the galaxy, which means when we look up at night, if we could see with our naked eye the farthest star in the milky way, we'd be seeing the light from 78,000 years ago, according to scientists.  We see, what isn't there.  What is there, we don't see.  Even if you use Hubble, you are still seeing something that is no longer there, it's just a bigger and clearer illusion.

I always look at the stars when I walk the dog at night.  I look at the stars during the day too, but you can't see them from the sun, BUT they are still there.  I saw the moon tonite, with Jupiter not too far away.  I look for Orion's Belt and I can see Rigel off to the right below the belt while Betelgeuse is off to the left on the shoulder of that imaginary constellation.

Except, none of it is really there, at least as we see it.  Betelgeuse is shrinking and going to go supernova, but since it's 530 some light years from earth, it may have already happened.

So what we see, isn't really what is there.  Think of it this way.  The Andromeda galaxy, is close to the size of the Milky Way. This Local Group is part of a supercluster, known as the Virgo supercluster, which has at least 5,000 member galaxies and is roughly 100 million light-years across.

Now I've place three circles in the picture, one at the front edge, one in the middle, and a black circle with a yellow center on the far edge.  What we see in this picture is 100 million light years across, length wise, so let us guess that it is 50 million from the orange circle to the black circle.  And let's say this is 1 million light years from Earth.  And I know this photo is tilted which changes the numbers somewhat but for the sake of the discussion, forget about the tilt variation.

So, you think that what you see is a picture of something as it was a million years ago, but in reality only the orange circle is a picture from one million years ago, the center would be actually 26 million years ago and the black circle 51 million years ago.

So how can they tell how fast a spiral galaxy is spinning?  How can you tell that the stars on the outer edge are spinning around the center at the same rate, (not speed) when the stars you are seeing at the center are 25 million years earlier, or later, depending on what edge you compare it to?  And, how do you calculate the 'expanding' universe into the equation?

I don't know either.  All I know when I look at the sky is what I see, isn't really there, or each star I can see is how it looked yesterday, it's light shining on me for one brief moment as it continues it's journey across the universe.  And what happens to light when it reaches the end of the universe?  Does it end or bounce back?

The point is, all the math is an illusion; an explanation that sounds so reasonable or so intelligent, we just assume it is correct and no one ever stops to think about the distances because it is so far beyond our imagination to comprehend 100 million light years.

But what if all this is wrong?

The idea that time itself could cease to be in billions of years - and everything will grind to a halt - has been proposed by Professor José Senovilla, Marc Mars and Raül Vera of the University of the Basque Country, Bilbao, and University of Salamanca, Spain. The corollary to this radical end to time itself is an alternative explanation for "dark energy" - the mysterious antigravitational force that has been suggested to explain a cosmic phenomenon that has baffled scientists.

However, to this day no one actually knows what dark energy is, or where it comes from. Professor Senovilla, and colleagues have proposed a mind-bending alternative. They propose that there is no such thing as dark energy at all, and we’re looking at things backwards. Senovilla proposes that we have been fooled into thinking the expansion of the universe is accelerating, when in reality, time itself is slowing down. At an everyday level, the change would not be perceptible. However, it would be obvious from cosmic scale measurements tracking the course of the universe over billions of years. The change would be infinitesimally slow from a human perspective, but in terms of the vast perspective of cosmology, the study of ancient light from suns that shone billions of years ago, it could easily be measured

The team's proposal, published in the journal Physical Review D, dismisses dark energy as fiction. Instead, Senovilla says, the appearance of acceleration is caused by time itself gradually slowing down, like a clock with a run-down battery.

“We do not say that the expansion of the universe itself is an illusion," he explains. "What we say it may be an illusion is the acceleration of this expansion - that is, the possibility that the expansion is, and has been, increasing its rate."


Wrap your mind around that one, stoners.  Time could be slowing down and will one day stop.  Couple that with the growing evidence and acceptance that light is not a constant and in fact is slowing down and where does that leave us?

And I was walking down the street one day
Being pushed and shoved by people trying to beat the clock,
oh no, I just don't know,
I just don't know
And I said, yes I said

People runnin' everywhere
Don't know the way to go
Don't know where I am
Can't see past the next step
Don't have to think past the last mile
Have no time to look around
Just run around, run around and think why
Does anybody really know what time it is
I don't
Does anybody really care
If so I can't imagine why
about time
We've all got time enough to die
Oh no, no