This is my second blog.

My first blog chronicled my experiences over three years caring for my dad as he lived through and finally died from Alzheimer's. That is the book that is for sale.

This second blog kind of chronicles of life, what it is like to start your life over in your late 50's. After caretaking, you are damaged, file bankruptcy, and the world doesn't care what you did. After 8 months of unemployment, you wake each day knowing the world doesn't want you. Finally you do find a job, 5 weeks before homelessness, but doing what you did 30 years ago and getting paid what you did 30 years ago. So this is starting over.

The object of life is not to be on the side of the majority, but to escape finding oneself in the ranks of the insane.

Thursday, December 26, 2013


This is a black hole. It consumes matter, sucks it in and crushes it beyond existence. When I first heard that, I thought, that’s evil at its most pure. Something that drags you in, crushes you, makes you … nothing.

Alice Morgan in Luther

I wonder how many Americans are feeling like matter, caught on the perimeter, and slowly being sucked towards the black hole.  Hope and Change.

So we shall talk of other things!

Have done a lot of study of late on the Holy Ghost; the forgotten leg of the triune God.  Have you prayed to God the Father?  Have you prayed to Jesus?  Have you prayed to the Holy Ghost?  No?

David Wilkerson is my favorite preaching pastor.  Billy Graham spoke to an audience of unbelievers, so his sermons were different; John MacArthur is a good preacher but sometimes I get the feeling he loves to prove how smart he is.  Wilkerson though, here is a guy that cried during sermons.  Here is a guy that admitted he was a sinner.  And here is a guy, one of the few, that really explained who the Holy Ghost is and why it is important.

 “Repent, and be baptized every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of sins, and ye shall receive the gift of the Holy Ghost. For the promise is to unto you, and to your children, and to all that are afar off, even as many as the Lord our God shall call” (Acts 2:38–39).

Repent.  There is a term you don't hear much in churches anymore.  To need to repent means an acknowledgement of sin and that is just such a downer to point out to your church growth crowd that they are sinners.  But the gift of the Holy Spirit; God in us.  God on Earth.  The Father in Heaven, His Son at His side, and the Holy Spirit in believers on Earth.

I use to have this theory, nothing theological here or provable via Biblical text, but I use to say that we need to feed the Holy Spirit inside of us and He only eats The Word of God; so the more you read your Bible each day, the stronger the spirit becomes.  But, remember, I just made that up.  Does seem to work though, which can lead one to believe I might not be a total idiot.

But what is interesting is Paul seems to be saying in Acts that not all believers have the Spirit.

“He said unto them, Have ye received the Holy Ghost since ye believed? And they said unto him, We have not so much as heard whether there be any Holy Ghost” (Acts 19:2)

So this is kind of strange, it's like a next level of things, beyond normal faith and sanctification, you also have this next level of the Spirit in you.

And this, like Christianity itself, should be thought about before saying, "Yea, I want that!"  For the one unforgivable sin, according to scripture, is to blasphemy the Holy Ghost.  Jesus even says you can make fun of Him and it's forgivable, but blasphemy the Holy Ghost and it's all over for you.

So how do you blasphemy the Holy Ghost - He didn't say.  I've read elsewhere it is when you attribute gifts from the Holy Ghost as coming from somewhere else or visa versa.

“And it shall come to pass in the last days, saith God, I will pour out of my Spirit upon all flesh…. I will pour out in those days of my Spirit” (Acts 2:17–18). 

Wilkerson talks about this relationship in prayer, where you pray to the Holy Spirit, who talks to Jesus, who intercedes with the Father sort of system but I have not found that specifically laid out in Scripture.  But there is no question the Holy Spirit is God; ask the couple that tried to keep some pocket money when they sold all their stuff and lied about it.  And the Holy Spirit is not just a NT thing, you can find Him throughout the OT too.

“But ye shall receive power, after that the Holy Ghost is come upon you: and ye shall be witnesses unto me both in Jerusalem, and in all Judea, and in Samaria, and unto the uttermost part of the earth” (Acts 1:8).

So when you say your prayers today, don't ignore the Holy Spirit.  He is who is here.