This is my second blog.

My first blog chronicled my experiences over three years caring for my dad as he lived through and finally died from Alzheimer's. That is the book that is for sale.

This second blog kind of chronicles of life, what it is like to start your life over in your late 50's. After caretaking, you are damaged, file bankruptcy, and the world doesn't care what you did. After 8 months of unemployment, you wake each day knowing the world doesn't want you. Finally you do find a job, 5 weeks before homelessness, but doing what you did 30 years ago and getting paid what you did 30 years ago. So this is starting over.

The object of life is not to be on the side of the majority, but to escape finding oneself in the ranks of the insane.

Tuesday, December 17, 2013


Well, woke up this morning to two pieces of bad news.  Of course, in my life right now, the only news is bad news.

Billy Jack is dead.

If you are asking "who is Billy Jack", I can't help you.  But for those who just had a sad smile cross your lips, Actor Tom Laughlin died last night in CA.

Before Arnold, before Rambo, before Indiana Jones, there was Billy Jack.  A half breed American Green Beret who lived on an indian reservation and protected peaceful loving hippies from evil conservative town folk.  Funny, always portrayed as evil conservatives and yet every time we get a progressive president, it's then our freedoms disappear.

Anyways, Billy Jack was THE drive-in movie in the early to mid 1970's.  There were four in all, the first, Born Losers, no one ever saw until after the second, Billy Jack, hit it big and then there were two more Billy Jack movies, The Trial and Billy Goes to Washington which they swear wasn't satire.

The funniest part of the Billy Jack movie will be where he makes the rich kid drive his brand new Vette into the lake and when the dad finds out he says "you just drove a brand new 3,000 dollar car into the lake?"  Just a note to the goddess inflation.

The best part of the story is how Tom Laughlin fought Hollywood and the industry to make his films and distribute them as an independent.  He is the hero to independent film makers everywhere.  A hero to those who refuse to give in to the system.

So rest in peace, one tin soldier.

Recently applied for a job with the state of Colorado.  I didn't really fit the 'minimum requirements' but I thought my unique skill set would be a match.  It was for a Victim's Advocate with the Department of Public Safety.  Basically, you deal with victims of car accidents and help them deal with the event, sign them up for state aid/benefits, find the families tickets and hotels to come out here because of the accident, deal with the hospitals, etc.  So you would think that someone with a masters in PM and who was a caretaker for 15 years for his parents would be a good fit.

But, alas, no.

Dear Richard: 

We are sorry to inform you that your application for Victim's Advocate - District 3 with the Department of Public Safety is no longer being considered because you did not meet the minimum qualifications for the position. 

Please refer to the minimum qualification identified in the announcement for this position. The announcement may be accessed from your NeoGov account atwww.colorado.gov/cojobs .

If you have questions or additional information regarding the review of your application, please contact me immediately at xxx-xxx-xxxx or via email at XXX. If you believe this decision is in error and that you do meet the minimum qualifications, you must contact me to attempt to resolve any questions you may have concerning your qualifications by no later than five days after the date of this notice in order to be included in the comparative analysis process for this position.

We appreciate your interest in this employment opportunity with State of Colorado and wish you the best in your job search. 

And so it goes and so continues my problem with the market place today.  I almost miss the days when we complained about bean counters and lawyers ruining the world, now it's HR.

Herein lies the problem: you have Alpha, or Type I errors, and Beta, or Type II errors.  The Beta error, for HR, would be bringing in or hiring a bad person.  So they weigh things very strongly to avoid a Beta Error.  But when you weigh things to avoid one error, you increase the probability of the other error.  So for HR, they totally minimize the Beta error, interviewing or hiring a 'loser' and in turn are much more likely to commit an Alpha error.  How many excellent employees never get so much as an interview and the owners will never know they exist.

The problem is, no one tracks Alpha errors against HR.  How many excellent potential employees go 'unknown' to the owners of a business because the HR department eliminates them from the pool?  Then owners sit around and wonder why they can't find those creative types we use to hire and blame the generations when the problem is their HR department.

The second problem will arise over time, where the HR department will hire a certain type of person for every job and you end up with a company full of drones who are all alike in personalities, world views, and such; mirroring the HR department.

Frankly, if I owned a small business of under 500, I'd dedicate one morning a week to review all the rejected resumes to pull out the diamonds HR missed.

Where are the creative liberal arts people hiding these days?  I'm asking, where did you find a job you could hide from the world?

Maybe I should just garage sale my life, drive west, buy a horse, and protect Christian conservatives from the progressive town folks who want to kill Christians in the name of tolerance, relativism, and for the betterment of society.

Listen children to a story
That was written long ago
'Bout a kingdom on a mountain
And the valley folk below

On the mountain was a treasure
Buried deep beneath a stone
And the valley people swore
They'd have it for their very own

Go ahead and hate your neighbor
Go ahead and cheat a friend
Do it in the name of Heaven
You can justify it in the end

There won't be any trumpets blowing
Come the Judgment Day
On the bloody morning after
One tin soldier rides away

So the people of the valley
Sent a message up the hill
Asking for the buried treasure
Tons of gold for which they'd kill

Came an answer from the kingdom
With our brothers we will share
All the secrets of our mountain
An' all the riches buried there

Now the valley cried in anger
"Mount your horses, draw your sword"
And they killed the mountain people
So they won their just reward

Now they stood beside the treasure
On the mountain dark and red
Turn the stone and which beneath it
"Peace on Earth" was all it said

Go ahead and hate your neighbor
Go ahead and cheat a friend
Do it in the name of Heaven
You can justify it in the end

There won't be any trumpets blowing
Come the Judgment Day
On the bloody morning after
One tin soldier rides away

One Tin Soldier by Coven
The Billy Jack Theme