This is my second blog.

My first blog chronicled my experiences over three years caring for my dad as he lived through and finally died from Alzheimer's. That is the book that is for sale.

This second blog kind of chronicles of life, what it is like to start your life over in your late 50's. After caretaking, you are damaged, file bankruptcy, and the world doesn't care what you did. After 8 months of unemployment, you wake each day knowing the world doesn't want you. Finally you do find a job, 5 weeks before homelessness, but doing what you did 30 years ago and getting paid what you did 30 years ago. So this is starting over.

The object of life is not to be on the side of the majority, but to escape finding oneself in the ranks of the insane.

Sunday, December 8, 2013


The past 10 years or so is very much like the 1950's and early 1960's except back then most people had jobs and today most don't.  But the 'fear' of nuclear annihilation was everywhere; people built bomb shelters, towns had civil defense bunkers and people in the town joined the civil defense, the sirens we now use almost entirely for tornado warnings were originally used to announce incoming nuclear bombs, which created a very funny moment in Chicago in 1959 when the Sox won the pennant and Mayor Daley The First set off the alarms and scared the living crap out of everyone.  Movies, and I love this genre, black and white end of the world movies through critters and animals being nuked and turning into giants eating up the cities, or visitors from space taking over the earth, and, of course, the best show in the history of television, The Twilight Zone.

Media today is littered with web sites announcing the end of the world via visitors from space, comets that are going to destroy the earth, new world order, and just all sorts of wonderful ways to die.  The problem with all of this, is there are some serious things going on that get lost in all the fluffer nutter.

Can you believe we actually ate Fluffer Nutter when we were kids?  Marshmellow spread on a peanut butter sandwich.  Yuk.  But look at movies and TV shows today, zombies, aliens, survivalists, it is all the same stuff but in living color.

So where was I, oh yea, end of the world.  Fukushima and the leaking radiation is seriously bad.  I'm not just talking about the amount of radiated water being dumped every damn day into the Pacific, but what has been released in the air.  There are a couple of websites you can monitor radiation stations across the country.   Most were taken down for repair not long after Fuku blew, nice timing huh, and while down they announced they were adjusting what was a safe and acceptable level of radiation which was about 10x what they'd said before.  And several times recently, some of those stations around the US, not one here or there, but many, were spiking way above safe levels.

We are being radiated folks.  We are seeing some serious die off of fish in the Pacific, and if you are eating sushi or other fish from the Pacific, you are nuts.  It is in our air.  There are some reports thyroid cancer is shooting up on the west coast and in other sections of the country.

But there are all these weird stories about China.  China showing their map of how they could nuke the US.  China buying land in MI and now NY to build giant Chinese cities and we are letting them although that once would have been called treason.

But that is the disconnect: if China had any thoughts of nuking the US to the ground, why would they be building cities and buying businesses?  They don't have to attack us via a military, they are buying us out.  I've warned you before that the FED is getting that 40 billion a month to buy up mortgages from somewhere and that somewhere is China.  They are going to own the paper on every home with a loan in another year or two.  They will own the mortgages to your home.

Secondly, it doesn't make sense to nuke the US to dust.  They want the land, they want the water, the resources, the fertile fields.  And the idea of doing EMP's doesn't make sense for them either because the dirty little secret most preppers don't know and won't be able to do anything about is if we EMP'd, all those nuke power plants we have will go Fukushima.  And if they all go Fuku, the world goes radioactive for hundreds of thousands of years.  The whole world.

So if China wants to nuke us, they better have a plan in place to shut down all the nuclear power plants within 30 days or the whole planet goes glow.

Dittos for Russia.

So what all this means is the nuclear option will not be used by the Russians or the Chinese.  The arabs?  Well, that is a wild card, because they pretty much won't think all this through very far, long term consequences for behavior is not a critical thinking skill of the arab world.

So that leaves the financial world to crush the US or the biological direction.  And it could be hidden.

Think of all the times you have read stories on how scientists have figured out a way to cut down on some critter by introducing something in their environment to make them sterile.  And you never thought to yourself, I wonder if there is an experiment or two underway to do the same to humans?

Of course, I am ignoring several things.  Let's face it, the history of the Chinese and Russian leaders over the last 100 years have no problem just killing hundreds of millions of people for the hell of it.  The grounds of Russia and China are filled with over 150,000,000 dead just because the leaders wished them so.

And then we have God.  Because in the end, the cosmic battle between God and Satan is behind all of this.  Americans are so naive to think that before all this breaks loose, God is going to rapture us up because we are Baptists, or we are Catholics, or we go to church every Sunday.  And God may be stepping up things, the number of volcanoes going off around the world have greatly increased, all those quakes in areas not known for quakes, like TX and OK, who knows, maybe God is going to step in and start shaking up the planet to keep us busy so we don't keep going down this path.

Most importantly, we came out of the 1950's and 1960's and the nuke war never happened.  Two sides, cool heads, and mutually assured destruction.

Today, there are multiple heads, some not caring about MAD, we no longer have local civil defense systems in place though rumors are the wealthy elite have places in Virginia, WV, the Ozarks, under the Denver airport, and several other locations where they think they can hide from the destruction, and from God.  Frankly, I think they are just moving closer to their final resting place in eternity.

So what does all this mean, I don't know.  Frankly I get a kick out of reading beforeitsnews.com who have incorrectly predicted the end of the world has we know it every month for the last two years.

We live in a world where technology rushes forward, in the hands of people who don't believe they answer to any God other than themselves, and history is littered with the bodies and bones of billions who stood in their way.

And we are in their way.

Well, what is your costume today?
And who are the props in your play?
You're acting a part which you thought from the start
was an honest one.
Well how do you plead?
An actor indeed!
Go re-learn your lines,
You don't know what you've done.
The finale's begun.

If Everyone was listening, you know
There'd be a chance that we could save the show,
Who'll be the last clown
To bring the house down?
Oh no, please no, don't let the curtain fall.