This is my second blog.

My first blog chronicled my experiences over three years caring for my dad as he lived through and finally died from Alzheimer's. That is the book that is for sale.

This second blog kind of chronicles of life, what it is like to start your life over in your late 50's. After caretaking, you are damaged, file bankruptcy, and the world doesn't care what you did. After 8 months of unemployment, you wake each day knowing the world doesn't want you. Finally you do find a job, 5 weeks before homelessness, but doing what you did 30 years ago and getting paid what you did 30 years ago. So this is starting over.

The object of life is not to be on the side of the majority, but to escape finding oneself in the ranks of the insane.

Friday, November 22, 2013


Fifty years ago.  It seems like just yesterday the world lost one of the last of the great men of the 20th century.  But I will write about CS Lewis another day.

It is one of the great cosmic jokes of history that CS Lewis died the same day JFK was killed.  The current popular theory is LBJ was behind the killing of JFK, which a good argument can be made, but then the list of possible killers would make a three dimensional game of Clue look simple.  Did LBJ kill him because the Justice Department was about to nail LBJ?  The CIA kill him because he was about to break up the CIA?  The FED because he was going to get rid of it?  The military because they wanted a war in Vietnam?  The Cubans?  The Russians?  Or was this a non funny version of the Inspector Clouseau movie where everyone was in Daley Plaza that day wanting to kill him?

My favorite is LBJ telling his mistress the night of the 21st that after tomorrow he won't have to worry about the SOB Kennedy anymore.

In the Gospels, we learn Judas had the devil enter him and he went off to turn in our Messiah.  Had to happen, Jesus had to die, had to be betrayed by one of the inner circle, and I often ponder whether Judas ever had a chance.  It really wrecks the whole argument of free will, don't you know.

And we have our Oswald.  A guy who apparently defects to Russia then comes back to the US and just picks up his life, which is the only known example of a US service man defecting to the Soviets and being allowed back into the country without spending a whole lot of time being questioned, sitting in jail, etc.  Was he allowed back in to one day be a patsy?

The past week, being sick, I've had plenty of time to watch video on the JFK stuff.  There is some great information on youtube, my favorite is just the raw footage on the networks where you see things that just don't make sense.

For example, in Houston and San Antonio, the SS is riding on the bumper and sides of the car.  In Dallas, as they leave Love Field, the agents are called off leaving one of the agents throwing his hands up in the air several times going "WTF"?  Or over two hours into the coverage, the Dallas County Sheriff announcing they'd recovered the Mauser from the Book Depository.  Then later, it's not a Mauser, it's some Italian bolt action rifle, which is like mistaking a Rolls for a Yugo.  Or the Parkland doctors press conference talking about the entrance wound at the front of the presidents throat. Or the bullet hole on the front windshield from a bullet entering the windshield?  Or that on Monday, November 25th the presidential limo was already at the manufacturers being fixed and repaired before any forensic work could be done as per LBJ?  Or that the only evidence linking Oswald to that Italian rifle is a palm print on the stock?  No finger prints on the barrel, no prints on bullets in the rifle, the shells, etc.

And who was responsible for the little cubby hole area they found with leftover chicken dinner and some other things that made the official tell the reporter in Dallas that it looked like the assassin had camped out overnight in the room?

Or that the trip earlier in the month to Chicago was called off because of the uncovered assassination plot, or the trip to Tampa was changed around because of the uncovered assassination plot the week before Dallas?

You should really search youtube today for JFK Assassination CBS, NBC, and ABC as well as Parkland press conference and the 1977 BBC documentary on the assassination where they will show you how that famous picture of Oswald holding a rifle is a faked photograph.  Skip the Hollywood stuff, skip the internet goofies, and just watch the raw news footage from the day.  Some of it is funny as hell, like McGee or something talking on the phone with an onsite reporter thinking everyone can hear the reporter but nobody can and so he starts repeating everything about the time the techs figure it out so you can hear the reporter but McGee keeps repeating it anyways.  And watch every reporter smoke the whole time while on the air.  I'm surprised they didn't have martinis too.

And don't miss the dead witness collection.  One show even provides the statistical analysis on the probability of all these people dying from murder, suicide, and accidents to show you how out of whack it really is.

Okay, I also got a kick out of the old commercials.  Gawd, I remember that bottle of Armstrong Floor Wax that cleans and waxes at the same time!  My mom used that!

The null hypothesis: Oswald acted alone and shot JFK.  The alternative is the NOT and the responsibility is to prove the alternative to a level of confidence to reject the Null and accept the alternative.  I've read and watched both sides of this issue for years and there is no question in my mind that the evidence supports rejecting the null.  That doesn't mean we know who actually killed JFK, but the theory of Oswald, alone, with a magic bullet is preposterous.

Fifty years and we still don't know what happened in Dallas.  We do know that because JFK died that day, we ended up in Vietnam and 50K young US soldiers never came back home.  The CIA gave birth to the NSA, TSA, HSA, CYA, and KYAGB.  LBJ recalled all those silver backed dollars and now we owe the FED something in the area of a gazillion dollars.

What was Nixon's famous line, something like the difference between he and LBJ is he didn't have the guts to kill JFK like LBJ did.

And while you are doing all this, I'm going to be reading CS Lewis.

He went to fight wars
For his country and his king
Of his honor and his glory
The people would sing

Ooooh, what a lucky man he was
Ooooh, what a lucky man he was

A bullet had found him
His blood ran as he cried
No money could save him
So he laid down and he died

Ooooh, what a lucky man he was
Ooooh, what a lucky man he was