This is my second blog.

My first blog chronicled my experiences over three years caring for my dad as he lived through and finally died from Alzheimer's. That is the book that is for sale.

This second blog kind of chronicles of life, what it is like to start your life over in your late 50's. After caretaking, you are damaged, file bankruptcy, and the world doesn't care what you did. After 8 months of unemployment, you wake each day knowing the world doesn't want you. Finally you do find a job, 5 weeks before homelessness, but doing what you did 30 years ago and getting paid what you did 30 years ago. So this is starting over.

The object of life is not to be on the side of the majority, but to escape finding oneself in the ranks of the insane.

Monday, October 28, 2013


Well, all I have to say to the French, the Spanish, the Germans, and others is we don't like all the spying either.  Let's face it, most of your people were as fooled by Barry as most of the Americans that voted in 2008.  2012?  Well, that one a good argument can be made was an election that was so corrupt it should of had a redo on paper.  OH, PA, and several other states had such statistical abnormalities that anyone with high school stats could figure out something really strange was going on.

The point is, people of Europe, you were more in love with Barry than most Americans were.  We thought, 'yea, it would be cool to have a black dude as president and then we could put this whole race thing behind us once and for all' but alas, we are more racially divided now than we were in 2008.  Apparently, if you are white and voted for Obama because he is black, that is not racist.  However, if you ever disagree with anything Obama says because he is a bloody idiot who doesn't have a clue what he is doing, that means you are a racist.

Europe, however, you all were thinking that Barry would stop all wars and were so confident that you gave him a Peace Prize before he'd taken his first dump in the White House bathroom.  You thought he was going to unite the world so we'd all get along and everyone would live happily ever after.  At least some of us in America knew Barry was a fake, a fraud, and was selling snake oil.

So now all of Europe has their panties all wadded up their butts to find out the Obama and the US government has been tapping all the phone and email of everyone around the world.  Look, I understand the average Joe or Jane being pissed.  We are too.  See, whether you live in Russia, England, Sweden, France, Spain, S. Africa, Brazil, Belize, Mexico, Canada, the US, or any other country; we are all the same.  We have the same dreams, the same desires, we just want to have a roof over our heads, a job that pays us a fair wage, food on the table, friends, family, and die after a peaceful life - surrounded by people who love us and will remember us after we are gone.  Basic wishes and desires of everyone.  But unfortunately we don't run the world, megalomaniacs who want power and control run the world and rely on us being wussies to retain their power and control.  One person standing up to the government is crushed, one hundred million standing up to the government is a revolution, which is then run by new megalomaniacs who simply crush a whole different set of the population.

That is why Iceland fascinates me.  The average Joe's and Jane's rose up in Iceland, threw out the entire government, rewrote the laws, told the world banks to take the Icelandic debt and stick it up their ass, and not a bullet fired.  I wonder when they are going to pay the piper for this behavior?  But my admiration for the people of Iceland is high.

You loved Barry more than we did.  And now you find he is spying on your president, spying on you.  He wasn't the brilliant person you expected, but like most megalomaniacs is a weak little man who loves nothing more than feeling powerful and important by flying drones over weddings or traffic and bombing away to kill one person he decided today should die.  If a dozen other innocent people nearby die, so what?  Just more average Janes and Joes of history no one will remember.

What most don't realize is the megalomaniac is all about power and control but often is unable to kick the cat without getting hurt, so he/she requires an army of young fools who follow orders blindly and are easily brainwashed.  Let's face it, thousands of Germans were brainwashed that killing Jews was a good thing to do.  Thousands of Russians were responsible for the killing of over 100 million fellow Russians, the Chinese rulers had their army of killers of over 100 million fellow Chinese.  How and why does an average Joe allow himself to think that it is okay to line other average Joe's up and shoot them dead just because they live on the wrong side of the tracks, the wrong school, the wrong church, or the wrong heritage?

What drives such a person?  Is it simply fear if I don't follow orders they will kill me or if I don't line up all these people in the village that have peacefully lived here for thousands of years, they might kill me tomorrow so I should kill them first?  Or is what really scares me true; we, even we average Joe's, love to kill.  Once we start, we won't stop.  An act of self defense, in the right environment, will grow into a killer who can line up women and children and shoot them in the back of the head and not bat an eyelid.

Will you die for God?  Or will you kill for Barry?  Barry is generic here, a megalomaniac who thirsts for power and more power and one day realizes he must kill the enemy, anyone who has an ounce of courage to stand up for a conviction.  Our military and police forces in the US are being cleansed of people who stand up to what is coming and leaving young, brainwashed people to carry out the cleansing that is coming.  I suspect that is happening in Europe and other countries too.

Who will you choose, your soul or your self?  I often wondered when hundreds of millions watched Lord of the Rings how many envisioned themselves being an org or goblin because most will; the choice of your soul or your life and most will pick their life.

The game is afoot.  The leaders of this world have been using the muslims for decades to create the terror that allowed the laws to be passed to make the rest of the free world as enslaved as most in history have been.  Soon, the need for the muslims will come to an end and they will be crushed.  The leading megalomaniacs have not been secretive about all of this, it's all written down, including reducing the earths population from about 7 billion to less than a billion.  That is a lot of average Joes' and Janes' going to die and I'm sure the plan is for a game to be setup so we kill off each other in the name of Country or Religion.

We are the anonymous of history.  The snowflakes that become the water drops then flow down the rivers and out into the oceans of time.  Few knew us when we lived and no one but God will remember us when we are gone.  Name a Railroad Baron from the 19th century?  Now name a single chinaman that actually built that railroad.  We are those chinamen.  We like to pretend we are not, but we are.  Whether you work for an auto company, Wal Mart, Krogers, or some other corporation, you are nothing much more than a chinaman was for the Union Pacific.  You are paid as little as possible, worked as hard as they can legally make you work, and when you are not needed you are tossed aside while the leaders in the board room light their cigars and toast the B&B.

Cheer up Europe, you are as screwed as we are in America.  When Atlantis fell into the sea, the world survived.  When the US fails, we will take everyone with us.  The retirement accounts you spent a lifetime saving, gone.  Your savings, gone.  Your homes, gone.  Your job, gone.   From the hostel owner in Switzerland to the shepherd in Scotland, to the miner in Africa, to the autoworker in Germany, to the banker in Hong Kong to the hockey player in Canada, to the prostitute in Brazil, to the rancher in Chile, to the drug kingpin in Mexico: you will all go down when the US goes down.  When the dollar fails, so will your currency.  When we fall into the sea, we won't be around to protect you from invasion, we won't be buying your oil, your cars, your computer chips, your cheese, your wine.  Every Jane and Joe in the world will be in a world of hurt.  Because you, like us, fall for people like Barry.  Children, not men. Managers, not leaders.  People who are driven from some psychological need formed when they were children to control, to punish.

God or your country?  Your soul or your body?  Start thinking about the choice; time is coming when you will have to decide.

`cause you were bred for humanity
and sold to society
one day you'll wake up
in the present day
a million generations removed from expectations of being who you really want to be.

skating away, skating away,
skating away on the thin ice of the new day.

So as you push off from the shore,
won't you turn your head once more
and make your peace with everyone?
for those who choose to stay,
will live just one more day
to do the things they should have done.
and as you cross the wilderness,
spinning in your emptiness:
you feel you have to pray.
looking for a sign that the universal mind has written you into the passion play.

skating away, skating away,
skating away on the thin ice of the new day.

Jethro Tull