This is my second blog.

My first blog chronicled my experiences over three years caring for my dad as he lived through and finally died from Alzheimer's. That is the book that is for sale.

This second blog kind of chronicles of life, what it is like to start your life over in your late 50's. After caretaking, you are damaged, file bankruptcy, and the world doesn't care what you did. After 8 months of unemployment, you wake each day knowing the world doesn't want you. Finally you do find a job, 5 weeks before homelessness, but doing what you did 30 years ago and getting paid what you did 30 years ago. So this is starting over.

The object of life is not to be on the side of the majority, but to escape finding oneself in the ranks of the insane.

Wednesday, September 4, 2013


I've really had it with food advice.

New study out shows that when I buy red snapper, there is an 87% chance I'm not getting red snapper, but some other fish.  Tuna, just a little better, there is a 40% chance I am actually going to get tuna when I order tuna, except if I eat the tuna, there is almost a 100% chance it will have high levels of radiation if it came from the pacific ocean, somewhere between Japan and the USA.  So should I be happy if the tuna isn't tuna but escolar, which is often, like 84% if the time, substituted for white tuna, and it is good for you if you don't mind intestinal issues including oily discharge from your butt.

Holy brown underwear, Batman!

Even halibut is often replaced with grouper or tile fish, which apparently tastes about the same except for the much higher mercury content of the fish.  Seems most fish have this high mercury content.

So we got it out of our paint and then put it in the fish?

At this point, I refuse to eat fish from the gulf of mexico or the pacific.  Between the radiation from Fukushima and the oil in the gulf, I don't want to eat either.  I love Alaskan Salmon, which is always wild, it's illegal to farm raise them, but how much of the radiation has hit the salmon? Cod is from the north atlantic, which is about the least polluted of our oceans.  And we have a nice trout farm here in the foothills that is suppose to be pretty good, though one wonders at this point if any fish is safe.

Chicken is so pumped up with steroids and stuff like arsenic in order to make the chickens grow fatter faster.  Hmm, feed the chicken stuff to make it grow fatter faster, then tell people to eat more chicken, now people are getting fatter fasters, nah.

People were in a lot better shape when they smoked, ate steak with a salad, and drank hard liquor every night after work.

In my lifetime, we were told butter was bad for us, to use margarine, so millions did and ended up with clog tubes because it turns out margarine is worse for us than the butter; it's not nice to fool with mother nature, don't you know.  Eggs were bad, eggs were good.  Now we are to eat more vegetables, but those veggies are now genetically modified with pesticides by companies like monsanto and I'm thinking if the pesticide is so good for us, why not just put it in the water, oh wait, it is in the water, never mind.

The good news is you can't taste the pesticides in the water because of all the pharmaceutical drugs that are in the water from all the drugged up citizens pissing their birth control and tranquilizers into the toilet and then we recycle the toilet water into drinking water and, and, oh yuk!

And people wonder why I have a big water filter system on my counter with regular and fluoride filters.

So, what do I eat tonite?  Organic cereal with fruit and then pour organic milk on the stuff knowing the cows that gave the milk were probably eating grass tainted with radiation from Fukushima?  How am I suppose to really know if the fruit, veggies, or something I am eating hasn't been bio engineered?  Or peed or crapped on by some worker?  So I wash it off with tap water poisoned with fluoride, pharmacology, and pesticides and feel safe?

Heard a guy the other night talking about that 'bot' system that scans the net to predict the future and it came up with future foods that not only stress organic and non GMO but will also publicize it is radiation free, just in case my few imaginary readers think I am making all this stuff up.

Back in the 60's, kids drank pop all the time.  Lots of flavored sugar water.  They even had this great penny candy that were little wax bottles filled with sugar water and you bit off the top of the little bottle and sucked out the tasty liquid.  Sugar Pops, Sugar Frosted Flakes, add some sugar to the cereal, and we finished the whole bowl, especially the sugary milk left!   Sugar Pops and Captain Crunch made the best tasting after milk!

And when we went to school, there might have been one overweight kid in a class of 30. But we stayed in our seats because if you didn't, there was this principal with a nice paddle hanging on his wall….

Thought of that today while I walked 3 miles to the car mechanic to pick up my car.  Thankfully, the leak that drained the power steering fluid was a hose.  But it cost 170 bucks for parts and labor to change the gas filter!  Last time I change that filter!  Put it on credit card.  Everything is on credit card now.  I know, the gas filter has nothing to do with the power steering problem, it was scheduled for an oil change and I change the air filters and gas filter once a year.

I think often of the 1950's.  I don't remember it, I was too young, wasn't even born for most of it.  But people seemed happy back then, well, unless you were a black guy in the south.  People ate whole foods from small farms, drank a drink or two each night, smoked a pack a day, got married, had kids, had grandkids and died in their 60's or 70's. Families were close to each other, geographically.  Today, we eat fast food, packaged food, don't marry until we are in our thirties if ever, don't drink, don't smoke, and try to act like we will live forever; riding elliptical riders, bikes, and such and we will live into our 80's and be babbling idiots with the bodies of a 40 year old, assuring a long slide of life into infancy again where we poop our pants and eat baby food.  Well, until Obamacare starts euthanizing everyone over 80 except politicians.

Now doctors have 1/3 of the adults over 40 on blood pressure pills, another 1/3 on pre hypertension blood pressure pills even though there is no such thing as pre hypertension, it was a made up thing by guess who?  That's right, the pharmaceutical companies realized they could double their sales if they convinced everyone they had pre hypertension.  A doctor told me about the whole thing, he was a neuro, so it wasn't coming out of his pocket.  If you are 40 with a blood pressure range in the prehypertension category, there is no evidence that in 20 years you will have high blood pressure; in other words, being 150/85 at 40 means you might be 150/85 when you are 50 or 60.  Blood pressure doesn't automatically go up as you age!

A better world through pharmacology!

The 1950's were a lot like today.  Everyone was living in fear of nuclear radiation, everyone was building bomb shelters in their back yards because any day now the Russians that the US were going to wipe the planet out with nuclear bombs.  Today preppers are preparing for the EMP that will wipe out our electronic infrastructure, scared our own government stockpiling 2 billion rounds of ammo are going to go door to door and kill it's citizens.

But people were mostly happy then, we are not today.  Why?

I was pondering all of this since Sunday.  I went to church Sunday night and zoned out when the sermon was about sports and kids.  I swear if I ever finish my masters in theo and ever get to be a preacher, I will have a note on top of my Bible that says "NEVER EVER TALK ABOUT SPORTS, ESPECIALLY GOLF, AND DON'T TALK ABOUT KIDS EITHER".  So I was thinking about all this comparison of the 1950's and today, wondering why people are so unhappy today but for the most part were happy back in those days?  Wasn't a problem thinking about this in church, there are a lot of empty seats in the churches these days, not like it was back in the 1950's.

Must be the mercury in the fish.  Or the electronics.  Or maybe the GMOs are making people unhappy.   Just can't put my finger on the problem.

 It's an easy ride to roam
You'll never walk alone
Naturally we blew
Simple things we say
Everyday we find the way

Seems like we've opened up the door
Feels like we've walked this way before

Simple things you say
Everyday you'll find the way
It amazes everyday

Zero 7