This is my second blog.

My first blog chronicled my experiences over three years caring for my dad as he lived through and finally died from Alzheimer's. That is the book that is for sale.

This second blog kind of chronicles of life, what it is like to start your life over in your late 50's. After caretaking, you are damaged, file bankruptcy, and the world doesn't care what you did. After 8 months of unemployment, you wake each day knowing the world doesn't want you. Finally you do find a job, 5 weeks before homelessness, but doing what you did 30 years ago and getting paid what you did 30 years ago. So this is starting over.

The object of life is not to be on the side of the majority, but to escape finding oneself in the ranks of the insane.

Friday, June 23, 2017


It's funny as you approach 60 (six months if you want to send a card.....or present...... or cash) how you start looking at the world, the changes, the improvements, how things are worse, what is coming in the future and you think to yourself....


Here, let me repeat myself, only louder.....


Not even sure where to start with this.  How about cars, trucks, trains, planes and automobiles with no human at the controls.  We just seem to be flowing over some waterfall towards this future and nobody seems to think twice.

Artificial intelligence, well that I am beginning to understand now, because our society is being overrun with illiterate mind numbed people who look to their phones, tablets, computers and TV to do all their thinking for them anymore.  Without saying much, I'm doing a different job right now, same company, reviewing feedback for software and I look thru hundreds, I mean hundreds of feedback forms before I run into one that is intelligently written; proper English and rational thought in describing what happened.  Hundreds, the rest have to be deciphered from stupid into an actual logical classification of an issue.

Jeepers, I wrote better than most of those things in Kindergarten - okay, 2nd grade at least.

But what bugs me is all the warnings we've seen over the years from sci-fi  and other sources of the dangers, the inevitable conclusion, and as a people we just blissfully rush towards it.

How many people put directions in a map program and just turn turn turn.  You have to get from A to B and just pop the two addresses in and the system will route you. All wifi accessible to someone who will turn you right onto some dead end street where they can rob you.  Or a government of the future that decides you are no longer valuable and drive you into a body of water.

We give up control on a plane, but we trust the pilot and let's face it, for the most part the number of times a pilot drives a plane nose first into something gives you odds of winning 4 straight lotteries and then getting hit by lightning as you walk into the lotto building.

Look at Dr. Who, tens of millions of people on both sides of the pond watch Dr. Who.  What have the shows warned you about?  How about putting some device in your car that provides driving instructions and then drives some woman into the river and then one day all the cars start releasing gas to kill everyone?  Or sticking two wireless things in your ear and getting information streamed to your brain?  Or a news/entertainment system that basically feeds you what 'they' want you to know, think, and do.

When archeologists and anthropologists study the end of America hundreds of years from now, they will determine that one of the first places things got out of hand is when corporations that do business with the government bought the new services and made sure no story that might embarrass certain administrations to make sure their billions and billions dollars contracts with the federal government keeps those stock prices up.  Look at Amazon, owners of the washington post, and their cloud servers have a 600,000,000 contract with the CIA to house information.

Now think about that for just a second, throw yourself back 30, 40 or 50 years, can you imagine the CIA storing data with the owners of the Washington Post?  Why would the CIA risk their secrets on the headlines?  Cause they know it won't happen.

We are rushing forward to a society, if we don't blow it all up first, where robots will drive everything that moves, robots will do your job, robots will write blogs and books, robots will write the new, clean the homes.  Who's gonna find a job?  How will humans pay for rent, homes, clothes,  or food if 90% of the population are replaced by robots?

And why when AI programmers and developers talk about all the jobs they are going to eliminate with AI robotics, why are AI programmers and developers never one of those jobs?

Are we better off today than we were in the past?  I use to think yes, but now I'm starting to think no, we are not.  Yes, it's cool having an internet, cool steaming shows, downloading music, reading books.  Yes, it's cool shopping and click click click and two days later it's at your door rather than going to a mall.  You remember malls, where people had jobs?

Soon a drone is going to dump that package of new underwear, coffee maker, and shirts at your door. I'm actually missing the whole mall experience.  I know I miss going to the books store and spending two hours browsing, the smell of the books.

A world of 90% of the population living like the lower 30% live now, while 10% of the population basks in all the glory.

We had a middle class, that is either in the process of dying or drowning trying to stay afloat.  Thirty years ago the middle class was booming.  Today, you have to earn over 70k to have the buying power someone earning 30k had in the 1980's.  You making 70K, I'm not.  But I made 30 and more in the 1980's.

So I've reached that day, that day where you realize it was better in the old days.

Old days, good times I remember
Fun days filled with simple pleasures
Drive-in movies, comic books and blue jeans
Howdy doody, baseball cards and birthdays
Take me back to a world gone away
Memories seem like yesterday

Oh, old days, good times I remember
Gold days, days I'll always treasure
Funny faces full of love and laughter
Funny places, summer nights and streetcars
Take me back to a world gone away
Boyhood memories seem like yesterday

(Old days)
In my mind and in my heart to stay
(Old days)
Darkened dreams of good times gone away

(Old days)
Days of love and feeling fancy free
(Old days)
Days of magic still so close to me


So, according to the latest news, a US Navy ship gets broadsided in the middle of the night by some container ship.  The container ship, it turns out, was on autopilot and the US Navy ship's radar did not pick up what the container ship apparently did; a it suddenly made hard right and went on that new route for about 3 minutes, then turn hard left and got back on course.

Now why would a ship on autopilot, suddenly make a hard turn to go straight at another ship and for some reason not appear on the radar of a ship with the top of the line radar?

I smell a hack, a test run.

Imagine one day if large ships on autopilot all diverted their courses and aimed at military, cruise, oil tankers, hey you name it, you can cause all sorts of hell.

Imagine just a little more that Russia or China can hack Navy radars and hide something as large as a container ship.

Saturday, June 3, 2017


That title is one of my favorite book titles, unfortunately, the book is about some football player that had it all and lost it cause of his behavior around some underage girls.

But that title came to mind reading about the poor poor plight of Kathy Griffen.  Such a sad story.

Okay, not really.

So the woman who is a famous comedian because she swears  and makes obscene hand signs on TV and hits all the politically correct positions dead center and now her career is over because she had a picture taken holding up a blood soaked replica of the president's head.

And the backlash was immediate, she panics, apologizes, and then hires some attorney who brings her out for a press conference and now claims she is being bullied for her free expression and artistic integrity.

That has to be the sorriest excuse since the Melendez brothers expected mercy at their sentencing for killing their parents because they were now orphans.

There are liberal positions or people I like and sometimes agree with.  I absolutely loved Les Leopold's book Raging Inequality, for example.  While typing this, I'm listening to REM.  But I am sorry, liberalism today is the antithesis of logical thinking.

Climate change - liberal thinkers actually believe we can change the long term weather patterns of the planet but we can't control our borders.  Liberals look at the world and the violence in the inner cities of hopeless generations of blacks in our inner cities with crappy school systems run by liberals for 50 years, joblessness in inner cities almost exclusively run by democratic party mayors, watch moslems throw gays off rooftops, behead people who disagree with them, crash planes into buildings, blow themselves up in concerts killing teenagers, kill their daughters in ritual killings, roving rape gangs of moslems looking for white chicks and liberals will tell the biggest problem is  white christian conservatives; they are the real problem.

The classical liberal is a thing of the past, now we only have stupid thinking people with no training in logic or critical thinking who suffer no cognitive dissonance with opposing views in their brains because while on the surface they appear opposite, in truth they are at their foundation the same - wrong and stupid.

So Trump walked away from the Paris accord.  Good.  If that and appointing several conservatives to the Supreme Court are all he accomplishes in his term(s) he will be a success in my book.  But if you read anything on our walking away from Paris, you would think Trump came out for poisoning air and water and ending humanity.

Walking away from Paris does not prevent companies from pursuing solar power or wind power, it just makes sure we don't live in a country with rolling brown outs and black outs.  It means coal plants and coal mines will be operating, it means plants won't close and have to go overseas because the EPA decides that an extra 1 part per billion of some gas is not worth 2500 jobs.  And next time you see them forcing car companies to do something to add 5k to the price of a car to reduce emissions by 10%, you need to understand that today's cars already have reduced emissions by over 98% from a 1960s car and that 10% reduction is really a 10% of  that remaining 2% or .002 reduction for another 5k from your pocket.

Excuse me, what is that noise, oh just a private airplane owned by DeCrapio or the bozo at Telsa flying overhead to a private dinner party across the planet to rally similar believers that the combustible engine is evil, sorry, where was I.......

The next time some Prius or Volt owner turns their nose up at your car and what you do to the environment ask them if they ever looked up all the rare metals that are in their car, where they come from and if they are proud of all the african slave labor that it took to get those metals so they could drive a Prius.  I would love to get a bumper sticker for my old Volvo that says this car is build from materials that involved no slave labor unlike a Prius or Volt.

The new motto for the democratic party should be "Do what we say not what we do".

Here is what is known about the whole climate change movement.  It use to be called global warming.  But after several cases where it was found those people pushing the global warming agenda were manipulating the data, cheating, and that there has actually been something of a cooling for the last 15 years, they changed from global warming to climate change - kind of like taking a long straddle in the options market, you bet and win if the number moves in either direction.  So now they claim their is climate change and anyone who disagrees with the rest of the program is a denier.

One class in logic and a 3rd grader could destroy that argument.

Of course there is climate change, 500 years ago we were in a little ice age.  2000 years ago the average temps were about 10 degrees warmer than they are now.  Greenland.... use to be green with grasses and trees - they have even found evidence in the Antartica that show at one time in past it had grasses and trees.

The framing of the debate by the logicless left is you either believe their definition of climate change and causes for climate change or you are an idiot, a denier, a moron or a white christian conservative.

Well, I believe in climate change.  I believe that over time due to the amount of energy (read heat) produced by the sun, the amount of heat produced in our molten core, will effect temperatures on earth.  And there is not a damn thing we can do about either of those, unless you are a liberal who thinks not driving SUV's will cool the planet regardless of solar activity.

I wonder, if all this is the fault of the white conservative christian driving pickup trucks and SUV's, does a gay black man driving a pickup truck also pollute?  What if the gay black man is an actor driving to his private plane to fly to Paris to denounce Trump, does it cause pollution?

What I have not seen answered is exactly how the logicless left intend to charge all those electric self driving cars in a world run on solar power and wind power - do you know if I waved a magic wand and changed every car in america to an electric car like the volt that the entire country would suffer a black out when everyone plugged in the car to charge because WE DON'T NOW PRODUCE ENOUGH ELECTRICITY TO CHARGE THEM ALL.

Well, the logicless left think, we could put solar panels and a windmill on the top of every car to charge it has it drives!  Heck, why not just put sails on the roof of the cars?  Or enslave all the white conservative christians to attach them to harnesses and have them pull the cars and trucks everywhere oh wait, probably shouldn't have suggested that, Waters or Pelosi see that they will think what a great idea.

THIS JUST IN:  Giant comet is headed to earth and due to impact in 2021, democrats immediately call for a new bill to allow men who dress like women to use women's restrooms.

I want the sun to shine on me
I want the truth to set me free
I wish the followers would lead
with a voice so strong it could knock me to my knees

Hold on world 'cause you don't know what's coming
Hold on world 'cause I'm not jumping off
Hold onto this boy a little longer
Take another trip around the sun

If I jumped into the ocean to believe
If I climbed a mountain would I have to reach?
Do I even dare to speak?--to dream?--believe?
Give me a voice so strong
I can question what I have seen

Hold on world 'cause you don't know what's coming
Hold on world 'cause I'm not jumping off
Hold onto this boy a little longer
Take another trip around the sun


Sunday, May 21, 2017


About 3 1/2 years ago, I wrote a blog titled Martin's Dream Died in Memphis.  I thought of him again this past week.

Seems students at some college, black students, wanted their own private graduation ceremony with only blacks allowed.  Fifty years of segregation just came to a screeching halt.

And all those tornadoes, caused by Martin spinning in his grave.

Any sentences lately that begins with "students and some college" is bound to be a head scratching chuckling story because I've never seen so much stupidity coming from any part of the universe that can approach what you read today on college campuses.

Students at some school are complaining that the dark wood panelling in hallways and classrooms and some building that is like 150 years old is triggering them and causing them mental anguish.  Wood panels.  And this isn't that fake wood, no sir, this is solid maple.

When I was in school, we also had triggers, but they usually resulted in shots of tequila or hits on a bong when triggered.

No doubt about it, the 30 or 40 year experiment in not spanking kids should come to an end, it's been a failure.  Next alt left or whatever it's called now, student riot protesting the president because they didn't vote for him and get their way should be dealt with by all those students arrested should get paddled two or three times then sent home - better yet, when the parents show up to complain, paddle their asses too for raising such spoiled little brats.

But now after 50 years of progress, black students want their own graduation.  Spinning with you Martin, spinning with you on this one.


Sad night.

Just watched the final performance of the Ringling Brothers and Barnum & Bailey Circus.  They were kind enough to stream the even on You Tube.

For nearly 150 years, this circus has traveled across North America by train and trucks, setting up in cities and the circus has come to town for a few days.  And my dad, great dad that he was, use to take me every year when I was a kid.  I'm sorry now I grew out of it.

But watching the show tonite, it resembled little of what I remember as a kid.  First thing I remember is the smell, the elephants, lions, and tigers and bears, oh my, what a smell; but it is a good smell, a smell of childhood in better times, like the taste of Grape Nehi, just something that lies forgotten, waiting to be remembered.

But the elephants, the clowns before they were creepy, trapeze artists, the big cats; memories long forgotten.  Tonights show, well it is a different circus, different times.  There are no elephants anymore, clowns were not really a big part - but I remember a lot of those clowns were working the audience, not really part of the show, well except when like two dozen pile out of a VW Beatle.  But they did have the big cats, one man, 11th generation with the circus, in the ring with 8 tigers and two lions at one time making them do tricks when just one turning on him would created a feeding frenzy.  And the trapeze artists were amazing as a child and amazing as an adult.

All gone now, lost on the sands of time to video games and smart phones.  And age.  I miss what I haven't thought about for years, can't remember the last time I thought I should go see the circus.  So age and forgetfulness are as complicit as the video games.  Can't blame everything on the millennials.

In Chicago, the circus use to be held as Shriners Hall or Masonic Temple, can't quite remember for sure but leaning towards Shriners, and we'd drive downtown Chicago, off to the north or west, maybe south side, and as soon as you got out of the car, the smell of the circus would hit.

You know what else I remember?  Chameleons.  Every year, would get out the aquarium turned terrarium about a week before the circus and get it ready because at the circus you could buy a chameleon, in a box, and bring it home.  My dad would buy me two every year and every year I'd bring those things home, put them in the terrarium, feed them, play with them but no matter what, every year,  within two or three weeks the Chameleons would be dead - I wonder if that is why my folks were so nervous when I said I would take care of them in their old age?

And, checking Google Earth, yep, still there, in Blue Island on Maple Ave if you got back on the driveway of the house I grew up in, there is a little section of grass just off the south side of the drive before you get to the garage, and I bet if you dig up that area you will find the skeletons of two dozen chameleons, and a few turtles, in the ground probably remains of  small boxes that each of those chameleons.  Poor mom, she probably thought I was going to bury her in a box next to the driveway too.

Eleven generations of raising, training, taming and showing the cats.  And I'll bet there are clowns and trapeze artists with a longer history in the RBBBC and now it is over, gone.  I wonder what they will do now, now that the only life they have known is gone, the family is gone.  What happens to the clowns, the skaters, the lions, the trainers.  Train keeps a rolling, with no reason why.

Some things shouldn't change.

"I am forever searching high and low
But why does everybody tell me no
Neptune of the seas have you an answer for me please
The lily of the valley doesn't know

I lie in wait with open eyes
I carry on through stormy skies
I follow every course
My kingdom for a horse
But each time I grow old
Serpent of the Nile
Relieve me for a while
And cast me from your spell - let me go

Messenger from seven seas has flown
To tell the king of Rhye he's lost his throne
Wars will never cease
Is there time enough for peace
But the lily of the valley doesn't know."

Sunday, May 14, 2017


Boy, you just must admit that this weeks slight of hand should be nominated for some sort of award, maybe even name the award after it.

On earlier this week, news broke of the major FUBAR in Washington, the story was going absolutely viral and then BAM BAM the story is gone and a new story goes viral and 5 days later you have to really really search for a new story on the FUBAR but the news is still full of the President firing the FBI director.

Kind of makes you wonder just how bad that disaster in Washington State is leaking radioactive particles into the atmosphere - I did see as of Friday the airspace above the collapsed tunnel and surrounding area is still closed, but hey, talk about one of the ultimate misdirections.

And why would reporters fall for it?  Because they can stay in DC and write scathing articles about how unfair firing the FBI director is, a scandal of Watergate proportions rather than get on a plane and fly to Washington state and perhaps die from radioactivity.  Kind of a no brainer for a profession with no brains to begin with if you ask me.

And so it goes, the american public being led by the nose from crisis to crisis, golly Brad has lost weight, while evil megalomaniacs position for a war.  Rumors are there might be a little trading going on letting the US take out NK, China grabs Taiwan and Russia grabs the Ukraine and they all shout each other down in the UN for a few weeks then it all settles down.  But Turkey is one you want to keep an eye on, just saying.

And ransomware is running amok.  Apparently, some smart 22 year old IT security wiz figured out how to kind of halt that outbreak.  Guy's on vacation and did something with registering the domain of the hack and that stopped it cold, now there is a battle going on right now in the dark net between people trying to rerelease it and those stopping it.  Exciting TV, watching burned out pencil necked Red Bull drinking twerps type at the keyboard faster than I can think keyboard, good luck dark net warriors, however it ends up.

Apparently, the hack is being done with software developed by our very own NSA, with tax payer funding, and the NSA has been using said software for years to infiltrate computers around the world but the dark netters got into the NSA and stole all their software, which makes Tim Cook look like a prophet because two years ago when the government was trying to get Apple to develop a program to get around passcode and that only the feds would have it Cook laughed and said if they did that it would be in the hands of hackers within a year or two.  That would be a Bingo, gringos.

And finally, how absolutely gut busting funny it is watching democrats calling for special prosecutors and investigators and calling for the FBI director to be returned to his post and you can go back to last fall and see the very same democrats ranting, foaming at the mouth calling for the very same FBI director to be fired, showing you that even if a republican does exactly what the democrats want, they will then say he should be fired for doing what they asked of him.

Which, come to think of it, is the one time democrats are correct, any republican that goes along and thinks it will make things nicey should lose his/her job for being a fool.

Sunday, April 30, 2017


So, have had a few semi interesting experiences of late I thought I would share.

This WHOLE blog will be about a grocery store chain where I buy FOOD at least once a week, I don't do all my shopping there because, well, it's pretty expensive, but what I really like is their healthy prepared FOOD.

When ever I was there, I use to buy a sandwich from the sandwich grill.  They had this really good Horsetooth Sandwich, which is really just a reuben with a clever name for 8.99.

So on the 21st I went there to buy some things and picked up from the prepared section some lasagna, deviled eggs, couple of cucumbers, bread, and a package of smoked salmon.  Oh, and from their new sandwich menu with I didn't realize until I'd gotten the sandwich, all those 7.99 and 8.99 sandwiches were now 11.99 and 12.99.  New menu, four bucks more for the WHOLE sandwich.

So, sandwich for lunch, 1/2 the lasagna for dinner, on Saturday ate a cream cheese with salmon and cucumber sandwich.  Felt great, no issues.

Saturday night, I used the deviled eggs, with a slice of cucumber and a piece of salmon, around 8pm

At midnight I was on the toilet, by 6am, the WHOLE digestive system had expelled all the FOOD I'd ever eaten, but no, that didn't stop my need to be in the can.  Because then came the blood and bloody powder for another 12 hours.

Yes, I looked for something to take, the Imodium AD had an expiration date of 2013.

By noon Sunday, I'd downloaded a living will and filled it out.

Late Sunday I finally felt confident to run to Kroger and get some Imodium.  Sunday I hate yogurt,  but not much else.  Monday I thought about eggs and almost puked just thinking of eggs.

So I wrote a WHOLE email to the grocery store chain and warned them to pull the deviled eggs and I got this wonderful nice reply that basically said no one else has complained, food poisoning can take 72 hours to hit, it wasn't their food, they take food prep very seriously.  And I'm thinking, you know lady, I didn't get a lawyer, didn't ask for a refund, didn't ask for money and you send that type o letter?

But I went back to the store today because one, I like their can sugar store pop, it's got natural cane sugar and no caffeine, I could drink it 365 days a year!  And they have really great thin crispy chocolate chip cookies, and I bought a prepared meal of chicken with pasta.

So after emptying the groceries grab the container of chick/pasta and pull a plate out of the dishwasher, still hot cause ran when I was shopping, and dumped the pasta on my plate and walked into the living room and sat down, stirred it up and saw this:

Yes, dumping the meal on my plate disturbed the living room of the beetle or roach or whatever it was that was in my FOOD.

So, threw all the FOOD into the garbage, the WHOLE thing.  Then tossed something else because at this point there is no way I am going to eat any of the prepared foods from this store again.  Which means I might just run in there once a week for a pack of cookies and 12 cans of real sugar cola.

Now I wonder what the hell is my my cola or those cookies.

I think I will write back that nice person who basically told me to screw off, wasn't their fault I got sick as I ever was and show her the picture of the obviously very health WHOLE beetle living in their seriously safely prepared pasta salad.  That is 10 bucks sitting in my garbage can right now.

Really pissin' me off, no wonder the chain's stock is tanking, hmm, what is that number for the Colorado Board of Health?

Saturday, April 8, 2017


There were a lot of reasons people voted for you, President Trump.

I can't think of anyone who voted for you because they wanted you to launch missiles into Syria.  Nobody Mr. President, those people who want a war in Syria all voted for Hillary.

That is what we expected Hillary to do.

That is what the neocons wanted to do.

That is not what we elected you to do.

It's difficult to judge a president, especially a new president with a new health care plan that will bring down premiums - oh wait, we don't have that plan - or a new tax plan that takes the tax burden off the middle class - oh wait, we don't  have that plan either - or a new president that was going to get along with Russia and not try to start a war with them - oh wait, never mind.

Just did my taxes, and hey, I got to admit, using Turbo Tax now online is really easy, as long as you don't mind handing out all your info over the net.  They pulled my w2 from employer, they pulled my account info from broker, I didn't have to type in a number or dig thru forms or anything and was done in an hour.

Of course, that cost me 120 plus what I owe in fed and state so now I am not sure I will have food to eat for a few days in my future, so I can't claim the whole process was painless.

But bombing Syria, really?  We could of done that with Hillary and not had to deal with all the snowflakes or cupcakes or whatever they are called having hissy fits.

Here is what else it did.  It wrecked any plans you might have had to go after North Korea.  You could have put a plan together with Japan, South Korea, Britain and Australia; asked China to join the coalition, and then hit NK and put their government into the ground, kill the nuke programs, wipe out the military, and freed the people of NK for 70 years of oppression and looked like a BFH.  And a message would go out to the rest of the world, hey, this is not some let's invade Granada or lets shoot some missiles and call it a day kind of wussie hide behind the desk warrior.  You would of sent a message that you are willing to take on what nobody else would, get it done, and that would have made the rest of the world fall quickly in line.

Now, if you do that, you are just going to look like a hungry power crazed war monger.  Who the hell are you listening to that talked you into this stupid thing?  I'd bet the farm, they didn't vote for you.

You need to grab Paul and Mitch by their little thingies and explain that if you don't get your tax plan thru and passed by June 1st, they will need to step down and we will get someone in their jobs who can.  And they need to repeal ObamaCare by Dec. 31, 2017 - by which time a new plan is going to be designed and approved by both sides of the Congress and it's not going to be anything like that fiasco RyanCare would have been.

You were not elected to wave your you know what around and just bomb another country like Syria that is no threat to anyone other than those living in Syria.  You were not elected to send arms to ISIS in Syria and then wage a war against ISIS elsewhere - that is Hillary thinking.

You were elected to fix this economy, fix the infrastructure, clean out the swamp in DC, get rid of waste in government, fix the immigration system, fix the tax system, fix the health care system.  Isn't that keeping you busy enough Mr. President?  That is a big load.  Taking a day off to bomb Syria and piss off the Russians - find a new hobby.

Like I said, I don't know who talked you into this, but fire their ass immediately and focus focus focus on the economy, illegal immigration, taxes, healthcare and infrastructure.  Jobs jobs jobs - oh, I know there was a great report but that report is calculated the same way and is as full of crap as it was coming out under Obama.

Be different, be bold, do what you were elected to do and quit listening to the neocons or you will be a one term president.

However, in fairness, like what you seem to be doing about the H1B1 program, thank you.

Round, like a circle in a spiral
Like a wheel within a wheel.
Never ending or beginning,
On an ever spinning wheel
Like a snowball down a mountain
Or a carnaval balloon
Like a carousell that's turning
Running rings around the moon

Like a clock whose hands are sweeping
Past the minutes on it's face
And the world is like an apple
Whirling silently in space
Like the circles that you find
In the windmills of your mind

Saturday, March 25, 2017


Dear Mr. President,

Whew, that was close.  You almost got labeled replacing a swamp gas foul smelling stinking health care plan with a swamp gas pretty smelling health care plan.  Kind of like putting lipstick on a pig?  Now that you mention it.

Can't help wondering about something though.  Paul Ryan is not your friend, you know it.  The guy bad mouthed you all during the primaries, said he couldn't support you, finally after you got the nomination said okay, then when that tape came out dropped you like a rock.  But when you got elected and members of congress were looking at dumping the gym sock, you didn't push that, and he became speaker and now you've hung a dead albatross around his neck and in the next couple of weeks if he is forced to step down from Speaker, I gotta say, that was one seriously cool job of paying the score.

But let's talk about health care Mr. President.  So RyanCare dies, and the middle class is going to need to keep paying premiums 3 to 4 times higher than we did before ObamaCare.

Now here is the thing.  There are certain inevitable things in life; death, governments taxing working people till just before the point where they show up at the presidents residence with torches and pitchforks.  Well, there is another one.

National Health Care.  Anyone that studies the cause/effects and flow of life knows that by 2030, maybe 2035, America will have NHC.

And let's face facts.  The republicans cannot possibly create a NHC system.  No way, no how.  Republicans are cursed thru all history of shooting themselves in the foot, time and time again.  And they will never come to agree on NHC.  Democrats, the adorable little lemmings, well they all fall right in line when a democrat is in the WH and they will gladly design a NHC system.  But face facts, democrats would take two years to plan a softball game.  There would have to be environmental impact studies, then members of the party would point out it won't be fair to have some athletic white guy only having to run 90 feet to a base when an out of shape woman has to run the same distances and by the time of the game each player will have a different distance to run between bases based on sex, race, income, sexual preferences, etc.

Just look at the two major bills signed when Obama had a democratic congress:  ObamaCare and the Dodd Frank Bill, two bills that nobody could read before voting and nobody today has finished reading either since.

Now this is why we elected you Mr. President.

We elected a businessman to do things right.  So that is what you need to come up with, a National Health Care Plan, Medicare cradle to grave, and pay for it with a 1 or 2 cent sales tax.

Now everyone who buys anything will pay for NHC.  People who work, people who don't work.   Everyone  will pay into the system.  And those who make more money will contribute more because they will spend more.

Now, people will still need to buy medicare supplement insurance, but that will be prices nice because those who have trouble getting insurance with pre existing conditions will have all the basics covered by the NHC system, the sample size of people buying will drive the prices down and you can get rid of the medicare tax on payrolls, businesses will love you because one of the biggest disadvantages we have globally is everyone else has NHC and we have our businesses putting all those company paid premiums into the cost of goods sold - that will go away which should drive down prices since that Ford car won't have health insurance premiums tacked onto the price of the car, the dealers won't have to tack it on, etc etc etc.

This is why we elected you.  To be different, to think different, to be bold.

Plan it right, like a business, put in poke yoke traps to prevent congress from raising the taxes from 1 cent to 5 cents to get their hands on cash - you know like can't raise the tax more than 1/2 a cent and cannot raise the tax more than once every 5 years and cannot raise it more than twice in 20 years, etc.

This is why we elected you, not that embarrassing politician thing we saw this week, unless that was you being clever to get rid of Paul Ryan or something.

And you can sell this to the America public.  Point out how medicare will cover every citizen from birth to death, yes you should by supplement insurance, prescription drug prices will come down to levels similar to Canada, businesses will boom because they will be freed of the burden of paying for employee health care, nobody can bitch about a 1 cent sales tax to pay for health care - well, they will but will look like the idiots they are and anytime you can let idiots behave like idiots it is a win win for everyone.

This is why we elected you.  Be bold, think different, be different.

Speaking of which, all these pension funds going broke is an albatross just waiting to die and bury this country.  Problem is, almost all pension funds are based on the assumption that they can get a 7% return.  Trouble is, the last time bonds paid 7% Bush Senior was president.  Since Clinton, presidents have worked hard to force interest rates down to 1% to make payments on the trillions in debt less.  And because of that, pension funds are going broke.  So unless you want this volcano to blow during your presidency, or leave it for the next president, why don't you do something about it.  Not hard, just allow public and private pensions to invest at least 50% into mutual funds.

Imagine what pension funds would look like if they'd been investing in Fidelity Funds, American Funds, Franklin Funds etc the last 30 years.  None would be broke and pensioners would be very happy.

This is why we elected you.  To be bold, think different, be different.

And while I am at it, one more thing.  The tax code.  KISS it Mr. President.  Keep it Simple, stupid.  You don't need multiple percentages.  Pick something between 10% and 18%.  No deductions, none at all.  No interest on home loans, no charitable, no kids, nada nothing.

Just make the standard deduction 40k for single and 60k for married.  If you are single and make 60k, you pay, say 15% on 20k or 3k.  Less than you do now.  Make 100k and married, you pay 15% on 40k.  Less than you do now.  Of course, the more you make the more you pay and that is not how it works now.  I paid a higher % on my taxes last year than you did, Pelosi did, Obama did, Buffett did, etc.  Because that % you decide on will also be the tax on dividends, capital gains and net income for corporations.

And everyone can understand it.  It's simple to do and the lobbyists will hate you for it but the people will love you for it.

This is why we elected you.  To be bold, think different, be different.

Gaily bedight, 
   A gallant knight, 
In sunshine and in shadow,   
   Had journeyed long,   
   Singing a song, 
In search of Eldorado. 

   But he grew old— 
   This knight so bold—   
And o’er his heart a shadow—   
   Fell as he found 
   No spot of ground 
That looked like Eldorado. 

   And, as his strength   
   Failed him at length, 
He met a pilgrim shadow—   
   ‘Shadow,’ said he,   
   ‘Where can it be— 
This land of Eldorado?’ 

   ‘Over the Mountains 
   Of the Moon, 
Down the Valley of the Shadow,   
   Ride, boldly ride,’ 
   The shade replied,— 
‘If you seek for Eldorado!’ 

Monday, March 6, 2017


I find myself adrift.

No motivation, no ambition.

I don't have a TV, but don't kid yourself, the computer is on and old shows, DVD's, and in any given month I might be subscribed to Netflix or Amazon Prime.

Wasting time, wasting life.  Don't go to church anymore, not many churches today are where I am at theologically.  I've discovered in my studies, the questioning of Paul's Epistles belonging in the Bible has been raging since Day 1.  Early church fathers totally rejected Paul, not until Constatine did Paul become important, so important most all churches today are Paulinian not Jesus focused.  Kierkegaard rejected Paul, thus his statement "I am not a Christian" came from his rejection of Paul's words over the OT and Jesus' words.  Tolstoy rejected Paul, even Bonhoeffer rejected Paul, thus his book The Cost of Discipleship where he trashes the 'cheap grace' of Paul's epistles.

Well I do have this dream of riding my bike across America in 2020 to take my mom's ashes home.  I got the bike now, only need to get myself in shape  to make the trip, physically and financially.  Right now those are far off.

Do I have goals?  Well, and there is don't be fired.  I find myself figuring out if I can put another % in company stock or 401k, yes, started a 401k, and then multiplying it out till I'm 70 and thinking well, as long as the market triples over the next 11 years, I continue to get about 4% a year increases, I can work with same company for another 10 years, the company continues to grow, the US economy recovers and grows,  I will have enough to retire.  There are a whole lot of 'if's' in that plan I have absolutely no control over.

What kind of idiocy am I thinking?  Like XXX is going to let me continue what I'm doing for another 10 years, like AI won't be replacing this position by the time I'm 65 and like they don't have some sort of way to rid people at 65.  Do you know how many things can go wrong in 10 years to prevent that plan from working?

I'm trying to live simply, drive a 99 volvo still and hopefully will for a few more years.  Trying to put 12% in stock and 401k now, trying to eliminate things so I can increase that number.  Get a raise, increase the % and never actually get any of the raise.

And I think this is a plan?  If one thing life has taught me, plans, never work.

See, the problem is, as we move forward in time, the BB and Gun X'ers are going to need to work past 65 in a society that will push them out at 65, in a society that will be replacing 50% of all jobs with robots within 20 years.

Smart people in government and business would be thinking about this, not whether someone had lunch with a Russian in 2016.  But then smart people don't go to DC, little people who dream of power and sell their soul to the devil go to DC, so can't expect much hope, only chains, from them.

What I need, is to relax and enjoy the drifting.  And just accept the fact of life that no matter what I do, it won't matter in the end.

I said land-ho, will I be sailing forever
Oh-oh I gotta find some shelter from the cold
Land-ho, will I be searching forever
Oh-oh I gotta find an anchor for my soul

Well you may think I'm a fool, and think I'm running away
But I've had enough of the city lights, oh I've got no reason to stay

I said land-ho, will I be sailing forever
Oh-oh I need some wind to help me to my goal
Land-ho, will I be searching forever
Oh-oh, I gotta find an anchor for my soul

When you're alone there's not a sail in sight
Oh it's cold and dark and there's no one there to see you through the night
There once was a lady made me feel alright
But she couldn't stay so one lonely day, she just sailed away
And took away my life

Maybe I'll always be sad, and maybe there'll always be strife
Drifting alone with a saddened tone, afloat on the ocean of life


I know, I know, it's been over a month, my imaginary readers.

Writing is kind of like working out.  Back in college, the gyms I belonged to were setup like this:  T-TH-Sat were men workout days and MWF were women workout days.  I never missed a workout - yes, I could ONLY go TTHSat and I worked TTHSat evenings as a bartender, but the thing was, I knew if I blew off Tuesday, it would be Thursday before I could workout again, which would mean I'd go 5 days between workouts.

Now gyms are open 24 hours a day 7 days a week and I noticed when gym hours expanded over the years my ability to blow off a workout increased.

Writing a blog now is kind of like that, there is so much to write about, by the time my 'blog' has started to form in my head, new news hits the waves and I never write the mental blog I completed and start making up a new blog.

I sit in utter amazement at what is happening in the news.  You KNOW this is not going to end well.

To the snowflakes or spoiled millennials or brainwashed little brats, whatever they are called, you need to understand a basic fact of life:

What you are thinking about the current president is not very much different than millions of people thought over the last 8 years of Obama.  Yep, very little difference.  Except those to thought that way about Obama and wondered how we would survive hunkered down and waited it out and the opportunity to elect someone who would overturn Obama - which is why Trump is in office today.

Cheer up, you got the media on all those DC bureaucrats on your side.

See, when we thought it strange that Obama locked up all his records including high school, college, graduate, and law school records we thought that strange, some of us remember a young black guy on Chicago Tonite (7pm on PBS Channel 11 in Chicago) always introduced as 'born in Kenya" and his PR firm said he was born in Kenya and wondered if he could run for president, we were called birthers and nuts.

Now you demand Trump reveal his tax returns and even have a NY reporter posting his contact info asking IRS agents to forward him those tax records - breaking the law in so many ways, and that is okay.

Snowflakes, you sound like the birthers.

But hats off to the people who showed up at the Trump rally in Austin recently.  When speakers were rudely interrupted but about 2 dozen anti Trump protesters, the Trump attendees walked over and basically kicked their asses around for a few minutes, teaching snowflakes for the first time that exercising your freedom of speech can have consequences.  For the past 8 years, if people spoke out against Obama, we were called racists, bigots, homophobes, and whatever other adjectives were available in the dems little red book called "shouting adjectives to avoid actual debate".

The dems in DC were going bonkers that anyone associated with Trump might of had a conversation with anyone in Russia, read “Notes from the Underground” by Dostoyevsky, or ate black fish eggs sometime in the last 100 years and claiming we should impeach until pictures show up of all those same dems eating, drinking, and laughing it up with all those now evil Russian leaders.

And this weekend Trump goes nuts in Twitter (would someone please break his cell phone now) about his home being bugged and Obama saying wasn't him, he never did anything like that while Jim Rosen and Sheryl Atkinson choke on their morning coffee and muffin reading Obama saying he never orders wiretaps on anyone.

Think about this for a second, a former prez with quite the little record of wiretaps on American citizens while he is in office and a president who discovers wiretaps in his home - golly, anyone checking out Pence's home, and ask yourself why would Trump announce this in the way he did and not wonder what is up with that?

There is a little game going on.  Obama is suppose to be living now with Valarie Jarrett in DC, where is Michelle in all this?  I mean how many marriages do you know where the husband can announce, "hey baby, I think it would be great if another woman moved in with us, you don't mind do you?".  So they are reported to be running the get rid of Trump, as opposed to most presidents who go quietly away and don't screw with the new president, and now Trump has thrown down a gauntlet that can only lead to a Congressional investigation into Obama.  Hmmmm.

So many data points its impossible to create a readable diorama.

And, oh this is choice, on March 15th, the federal government will reach it's limit of 20 trillion debt.  So Trump and reps either have to pass a new law increasing debt, which of course after 20 trillion votes to raise the debt limit to 20 trillion by dems, they will vote not to raise the debt and then blame republicans for out of control spending.  Or Trump can say, nope buck stops here, enough is enough and we will immediately start cutting federal spending and have rolling layoffs of the massive bureaucracy and now the snowflakes will be joined by all the federal employees protesting Trump, along with the Federal Reserve who's job it is to put the US into total unrecoverable bankruptcy.

Snowflakes, ask yourself one simple question, why, in 2008, did Obama refer to Bush increasing the debt from 5 trillion to 10 trillion as being treasonous, (despite the fact that in four years in Senate Obama voted yes to every spending bill and spending increase): and yet has president Obama increased the debt from 10 to 20 trillion in 8 years - why does the media give him a pass for overspending and doubling the debt all the other presidents created in US History?

This is what I am talking about you are brainwashed, programmed, and you don't even care.

Would it be tacky to start a pool on what season/year the powers that be take out Trump?

Because that is where this is headed.  The tie breaker will be correctly picking the correct patsy.  Whom will the elites want to setup as the assassins of Trump?  Will it be a Russian?  Syrian?  Chinese?  Bad bets would be snowflakes, illegal alien mexicans.  Because the purpose of the elimination of Trump will be a war; Trump being elected ruined the plans for a war with Russia.

I wonder how all the snowflakes who will celebrate the assassination of our US president will feel the next morning when they get their draft notices to report to the army for the war with Russia?

I hear her voice in the morning hour as she calls me
The radio reminds me of my home far away
Driving down the road I get a feeling
That I should have been home yesterday, yesterday

Country Roads, take me home
To the place I belong,
West Virginia,
Mountain Mamma, take me home
Country roads

Monday, January 23, 2017


Donald Trump is in office now for over 72 hours, and today when I went to the store, I saw several mexicans, blacks, and one muslim.  I thought they were going to be picked up and eliminated by now?

And then I find out those millions of women who were protesting over the weekend actually safely returned home, proving Trump is a total fake.

And Ashley Judd, poor woman.  Had to give a speech to millions of women and didn't have her therapy dog with her: strange how someone like her needs a therapy dog to ride on a plane or sit thru a sporting event but then tries to give a speech to millions of onlookers without the dog.  I always thought she was one of the best looking women in Follywood and as long as she stayed healthy would have age beautifully - apparently, she or her therapy dog thought otherwise because that poor gal has either botoxed or lifted herself to the point I didn't even actually recognize her initially.

Probably botox, because it seems to have seeped into her brain.  Can you imagine accusing a guy of sexual desires towards his own daughter?  Why, if she'd been a guy named Ash Judd, Trump would be totally entitled to punch him in the mouth.  But being female he won't, nor will others approve of him punching a woman in the mouth, even when she deserves it, but then that's because we are chauvinistic brutes - why a true 21st century man would  probably punch her under the equal rights statue.

Which begs another question, in a culture that seems to think men and women, women and women, men and men, men dressed was women with men, men dressed as women with women dressed as men, women dressed as trees with men dressed as cats and just about every other combination you can think of is perfectly okay so why would they be so against Trump and his daughter if both were consenting adults?  Double standard?  Ashley needs reprogramming it looks like.

Sorry I haven't posted anything for two months, I wasn't really upset that no one knows I probably came closer to predicting the election than anyone else, certainly in the top 1%, just didn't feel like writing anything.

But, since this blog started out about a 55 year old guy who just spent 4 years caring for a parent dying of Alzheimers and what the two of use went thru and now having to start life over at 55, bankrupt, broke, out of work and racing against being homeless, who finally finds a job and now must start rebuilding his life, this is kind of a cool time.

Got my paycheck with all the overtime and double time and bought new living room furniture.  Finally getting rid of the love seat that was repeatedly used to soak up whatever escaped my dad on a daily basis as well as I suspect the dog using it, figuring I'd blame grandpa for it and now have coming tomorrow a real sofa I can stretch out on and fall asleep watching TV.

Guess I'll have to get a TV now.  Nah.

And I almost have enough, and will have enough, to buy a new Specialized AWOL bike in two months.  This is the bike I will train on, pull apart and put back together several times, and use for my 2020 trip across the US to take my mom's ashes back home.  Well, providing I don't get killed by a car riding the bike before then.

Little results of research, did you know that few helmets will protect you from concussions?  Bike helmets don't, obviously football helmets don't either.  There is one company in Sweden that makes this neck airbag system that has little monitors all over and when it detects an accident occurring inflates a bag over your entire head and neck and will protect against impacts, skull splits, and concussions.  Unfortunately, they only work once, cost 300 bucks, and you will probably still get a ticket for not having a helmet on unless you get tricky and shave your head and paint it red or something to fool the cops driving by.

But the point is, the old stuff going and new stuff coming in, paying cash, and it's like a turn of the page, a moving on from what was to what is.  Only took 3 1/2 years.

So now that the furniture is replaced, the bike is about bought, and being a simple man with simple needs I am now, at 59, going to start a 401k, again.  I debated this the past year, it's really too little too late, but then how do I know that?  What if I can keep doing this job, with this company, another 10 years, then 10% plus 6% match and if Trump is successful like a Reagan, that 16% for 10 years might actually provide enough.

Smell a lot of 'ifs' in that plan.  But, then, not really a plan, because after spending 4 years as a caretaker of Alzheimer's, I don't kid myself about control.

Anyone catch the new Sherlock Series 4?  First episode uses the Appointment at Samaria or Sammara as the centerpiece of the story.  Thought that was cool, especially the line at the end when a road turns to a river with only one course you cannot change.

Well, if any imaginary readers are still out there, promise it won't be two months until the next post.

Judge not this race by empty remains
Do you judge God by his creatures when they are dead
For now the lizard shedded its tail
This is the end of man's long union with Earth

From life alone to life as one
Think not now your journey done
For though your ship be sturdy
No mercy has the sea
Will you survive on the ocean of being
Come ancient children hear what I say
This is my party counsel for you on your way

Sadly now your thoughts turn to the stars
Where we have gone you know you never can go
Watcher of the skies watcher of all
This is your fate alone, this fate is your own


Monday, November 14, 2016


Hmmm, so I called the election map in October, except for Colorado, and a whopping 25 visits in the past week, why do I bother.


When Carter lost to Reagan in 1980, I was at work.  Lots of people depressed at work, waitresses mostly, but nobody needed a time out, a coloring book and play dough to work thru it.  We probably just hung out at the bar after work and got drunk, then woke up the next day and went on with our lives.

College students then.

Now, apparently, not making this up my imaginary millions of readers, but they seriously were given coloring books and play dough to work thru their feelings.  And then they go out, block traffic, break windows of small business owners, burn cars, and beat the crap out of white people.

Spoiled little brats - if you ever needed more evidence that not spanking your kids when they were young and did something wrong, just look at these 'little kids' acting like 5 year olds in a grocery store when mommy won't let them have a candy bar.

And god forbid someone point out to school psychologists and sociologists that maybe raising a generation where 'no body loses' might not have been such a good idea??????

Trump's first day in office should pass a law allowing adults to spank college age kids who didn't learn the lesson when they were five.  Or how about police with paddles, just lining up the protestors, make them touch their toes and smack their asses with the paddle with the holes in it to prevent air pressure from slowing down impact.

Back in 1960, the Yankees played the Pirates in the world series - yes, this is going somewhere, just be patient - and it is considered one of the great world series' in history.  Pirates won 4 games to 3, but what was special was the Yankees outscored the Pirates in the series like twice as many runs.  See, the Pirates won each game by a run, but got clobbered by 8, 10, 12 runs in the three losses so the Yankees ended up with twice as many runs but lost.

I suppose these Hillary protestors think it would have been fair to award the WS to the Yankees since they got the most runs.

Here is the thing, once again.  Take out CA and Trump wins the popular vote by 2m as well as an Electoral College slaughter.  Add the CA votes which totaled more than twice just about every other state in the union, and Hillary wins the popular vote by 1/2 million.

But that is not fair!

Spank the brat.

It is fair, it's the rules, the rules are there to prevent  a few states dictating to the rest of the country how they are going to live - same reason CA as two senators and WY has two senators - so it's equal. Balanced, think yoga spoiled little brats.

Now people are publicly, which is against the law but then this is Obama where there is no law worthy of his attention, but now people are saying that they should kill Trump before the Electoral College votes in December so they have to elect Hillary.

Hey, Electoral College voters, think about this.  If Trump is shot and if you do then vote for Hillary rather than Pence, then every four years the president elect in early November will need to be immediately moved to a secret underground bunker for six weeks because the opposition will always try to kill the winner so their candidate gets in.

Spoiled little brats with whiskers and the right to drink and vote.  Kids that were raised in day care, never spanked for misbehavior, played games with no winners or losers, spent their lives texting rather than having conversations and now they are adults and totally unprepared for the reality of living.  Like a generation of schizophrenics that one moment wake up from the fantasy and realize reality isn't anything like the fantasy.

I wonder, in four years, if we do have a job boom, and all these kids can find jobs that don't involve name tags and latte's, if they will appreciate Trump or if they will just think one thing has nothing to do with the other.  And will they ever realize how close this country was coming to a shooting war with Russia where all those little spoiled brats would have been drafted and sent to fight in a war and been shocked to discover after being shot, there was no reset button to start the game over again.

How unfair would that have been, you can almost see them complaining to God at the gates of Heaven and telling Him how screwed up he is and how unfair it is and demand a recount.

 Forest fire, coming this way
You decide which way to run
I know i'll be running for it
cause its gonna catch us anyway

And i'll prepare myself for what could be
the greatest fire of the century
and if this place should burn
then i'm ready to go
no way i wont have to face it on my own

I'll be standing, on the corner waiting
for the sky to open up
I know it could be any moment
and its gonna take all that i am

And i'll prepare myself for what could be
the greatest fire of the century
and if this place should burn
then i'm ready to go
no way i wont have to face it on my own

And i'll prepare myself for what could be
the greatest fire of the century
and if this place should burn
then i'm ready to go
no way i wont have to face this on my own


Wednesday, November 9, 2016


Well, imaginary readers, you got to be just a little impressed.  Back on Oct 23rd I posted what I thought the map would look like and if it weren't for the illegal aliens and homeless voters in Colorado taking it blue, barely, I would have hit it dead solid perfect.

When I finally went to bed early this morning, Trump still had the popular vote but I knew it was not enough to overcome CA voters and that is why there is an electoral college.

See, back at the beginning, the founding fathers figured out that Boston, NY, and Philly had more people in them than the rest of the original 13 colonies; so if it were just a popular vote, those big cities would dictate to the entire country who won an election.

So they came up with this cool electoral college to prevent it from happening then and prevent it from happening now.  For those who think it should just be a popular vote, let me tell you what will happen.

No politician will ever visit NH, VT, KY, TN MS, LA, AR, KS, MS, NB, ND, SD, WI, MN, ID, WY, UT, NV, NM, AZ - why would they?  Total waste of time, just win LA and SF and you've completely off set all those states in voting.  Add Boston, NY, Philly, Chicago, Miami, Dallas, Houston, San Antonio, and maybe Denver and you have a complete run away.  Promise them everything, screw the rest of the country.

But with the Electoral College, NY, and Alaska were important, MN was important - by the time CA came in, it was over baby!!!

Now CA want's to leave the union and I'm thinking, can we help you pack?

But something happened last night that is important.  Look at the votes in FL, PA, and MI - look how close they are - and Hillary didn't want a recount?

So here is what happened.  Podesta makes the announcement and in the meantime Hillary is talking to Trump and here is the deal that was struck.  Hillary will concede the election, no recounts, and Trump agrees to not aggressively pursue prosecuting Hillary, Bill, and Chelsea and they can ride off into the sunset with their 100's of millions.

That was the deal that took place last night while America slept.

The Clinton's get away with it, for now, and Trump is president.

Trump's first deal as president, fair trade if you ask me.

Oh, yea, that earlier post about sheriffs monitoring polling for illegals, I made that up.  And since Trump won I will declare that post prevented millions of illegal from going to the voting booth yesterday and Trumps' victory is all my doing.  Too much?

Sunday, November 6, 2016


There have been a lot of shocking stories the last three months, but nothing floored me more than President Obama being interviewed by a young woman, apparently admitting she is not a legal citizen of the USA, and being asked about illegals voting, do she and others have to worry about being arrested or brought to justice by the federal government if they vote?

And our president, the man who taught constitutional law, said that no, anyone who votes is a citizen.  Did anyone put a This Side Up on his copy of the Constitution?  Or does his just say This Page is Intentionally Left Blank?

Fortunately, this blogger has come across an email sent to me by weekileeks where county sheriffs in over 10 states are outraged by this video of Obama telling it's okay for illegal aliens to vote in US elections and are planning to have county sheriff deputies at all county polling locations on Tuesday with the specific purpose to arrest any non US citizen for attempting to vote in our elections.

County sheriffs from Texas, NM, AZ, UT, NV, CO, FL, NC, SC, MN MI, OH, and PA have vowed to do what they legally can to prevent illegal aliens from voting in this election and will monitor polling places Tuesday specifically looking for illegal aliens attempting to vote.  Yippee!  There is hope!!!!

The bad news is on Tuesday, with all the country sheriff deputies monitoring voting centers, no deputies will be available to ticket speeders for driving 3 mph over the posted limits.

In a related story, Chelsea Clinton has announced after an extensive audit of the Clinton Foundation, which she paid herself 15 million dollars to undertake, has determined there are no cases of illegal spending or no cases of accepting illegal donations as reported by the 'very bad alt right wing media who is being very mean to my mommy'.

The list of very important wealthy people who make their living smiling capped teeth into a TV camera while reading what other people have written for them who are threatening to leave the US if Trump is elected just keeps growing causing readers of People Magazine to worry if Trump is elected and all these people actually leave, what they will read while sitting on the toilet?

So Hollywood has improved on a great SciFi movie by making a modern TV show based on robotic naked cowboys having orgies in the new TV series Brokeback Systemboard, er, wait West Hollywood, no wait, Westworld - now leaving the rest of the world to think the Mountain Time Zone of the US is nothing but a bunch of gay cowboys.

Have you been to Denver lately?

Dilbert creator has decided since the government is already taking 50% of his income and if he dies will take another 50% of what he has left that if Hillary wins he's just going to quit working and live off his money until he goes broke and not pay anymore taxes which I thought was a good idea until I realized my total savings would last 13 days and then I'd be a homeless person making twice what I do now in government benefits and thinking 'huh'?

Which, when you think about it, might actually be the thing to do if Hillary wins.  Shut down your businesses, quit your jobs - they are trying to steal them from you anyways with illegal aliens and off shoring, so just close it up, liquidate it all, and let the 150m working people stop working for a year, take the year off, and shut down the flow of cash to governments, starve them.  Nobody working, nobody to hire illegals, do everything barter, fix the plumbing in return for fixing the computer, no cash changing hands, no trucks or trains moving food, shop local, this for that, just for a year and starve the system dry.

Dreaming again.

The world is too heavy,
too big for my shoulders,
come take the weight off me, now.

Thousands of answers,
for one simple question,
come take the weight off me, now.

I'm like a kid who just won't let it go,
Twisting and turning the colours in rows,
I'm so intensified that's what it is.
This is my Rubik's Cube
And all i can't figure it out.

We're lost in the playground,
Late night nostalgia,
open the sky for me, now.

Friends round the fire,
Outside in December
Open the sky for me now.

I'm like a kid who just won't let it go,
Twisting and turning the colours in rows,
I'm so intensified thats what it is.
This is my Rubik's Cube
And all i can't figure it out.

Credits roll over,
the edge of the horizons,
but I haven't discovered yet.

I'm like a kid who just won't let it go,
Twisting and turning the colours in rows,
I'm so intensified thats what it is.
This is my Rubik's Cube
And all I can't figure it out.


Saturday, October 29, 2016


I don't often talk about work here, well, because I don't.

But part of the purpose of this blog was to talk about what it is like starting life over in your 50's, after you care for a loved one dying and are left bankrupt and having to start from scratch.

For my long term imaginary readers, you know what I went through, spending 8 months unemployed after my dad died and then finally landing a job with a really great company.  Doing what I did 30 years ago.  Starting pay was what I made, 30 years ago - except it has 1/2 the buying power.

But for 2.5 years I've been plugging away and the job is fine.  Have  a great manager now who pretty much lets me be me and doesn't get in my way, sees that whatever I am doing is working with customers big time and just let's me be an outlier.

Reviews came up recently, lets see how I can word this, graded in three areas, say 1 2 or 3  and most people get 2's, you are in trouble if you get 3's and I got two 2's and one 1 and when it came to a raise I got, well, less than a buck an hour.  Life in the 21st century.  Hard to get excited about it, though as I will point out I have a job, it does pay okay though I'm still technically below the median income in Colorado.

Back in the 80's, when I got my first phone support job, owner came to me after 3 months and increased my pay by 4k because I was doing so well, then another 4k at my one year review.  Somewhere along the line, people have mistakenly replaced 'k' with '%'.  When did that happen?

But this is where life's questions come up.  After 2.5 years with this great company, would companies out there in the world who wouldn't give me the time of day now find me attractive?  But then why would I go to them?  Don't I owe this company my loyalty, since they kept me from being homeless?

So it comes down to making a choice of riding out life with this company, making much less than I use to, happily accepting under 5% raises each year or do I get ambitious again?  Part of me wants to be ambitious again, yet another part of me is like settle down, ride the wave, you need to work till you die, what is the hurry, ride this as long as you can.  Grass isn't always greener, the economy sucks still, stay put, stay under the radar.

These are the things you have to think about as you approach 60.

Just tonight, I stood before the tavern
Nothing seemed the way it used to be
In the glass, I saw a strange reflection
Was that lonely man really me?

Those were the days, my friend
We thought they'd never end
We'd sing and dance forever and a day
We'd live the life we'd choose
We'd fight and never lose
Those were the days, oh yes, those were the days

Through the door, there came familiar laughter
I saw your face and heard you call my name
Oh, my friend, we're older but no wiser
For in our hearts, the dreams are still the same


One of my guilty pleasures is listening to Sara McLachlan, and something about a sunny fall afternoon, leaves are falling, and listening to Afterglow Live.

Listen as the wind blows
from across the great divide,
Voices trapped in yearning,
memories trapped in time,
The night is my companion
and solitude my guide,
Would I spend forever here
and not be satisfied?

And I would be the one
to hold you down,
kiss you so hard,
I'll take your breath away
and after I'd wipe away the tears,
Just close your eyes dear

How can a world that produces life and talent like that produce an election like this?  And yes, I know Possession is not on the Afterglow Live album, work with me here, okay?

Can this get any funnier?  I mean this week Michael Moore came out and said something that nailed it, and I'm thinking how crazy is this when Michael Moore makes sense?

Moore began by saying he knew a lot of people in Michigan who were going to vote for Trump who “were not racists or rednecks” but were sick of their jobs being offshored to places like Mexico.
Trump’s promise to slap a 35% tariff on Ford cars made in Mexico and sent back to America was “music to the ears of people in Michigan and Ohio and Pennsylvania and Wisconsin,” added Moore.

“Whether Trump means it or not is kind of irrelevant because he’s saying the things to people who are hurting and it’s why every beaten down, worthless, forgotten working stiff who used to be part of what was called the middle class loves Trump,” said Moore, arguing that Trump was the “human molotov cocktail that they’ve been waiting for – the human hand grenade that they can legally throw into the system that stole their lives from them.”

According to Moore, these disenfranchised Americans have lost everything they have but still enjoy the great equalizer – the right to vote – and they will utilize it by putting “a big f**king X in the box by the name of the man who has threatened to upend and overturn the very system that has ruined their lives – Donald J. Trump.”

The film maker noted that “the elites who ruined their lives hate Trump, corporate America hates Trump, Wall Street hates Trump, the career politicians hate Trump, the media hates Trump.”
Asserting that his voters will “get to blow up the whole God damn system,” Moore concluded by saying, “Trump’s election is going to be the biggest f**k you recorded in human history, and it will feel good.”  (copied from the infowar.com website because I'm the only person left on the internet who actually sources)

I mean does that drive the nail home with a single blow of the hammer or what?

Through this world I've stumbled
so many times betrayed,
Trying to find an honest word,
to find the truth enslaved,
Oh you speak to me in riddles
and you speak to me in rhyme
My body aches to breathe your breath,
you words keep me alive,

And I would be the one
to hold you down,
kiss you so hard,
I'll take your breath away
and after I'd wipe away the tears,
Just close your eyes dear

And now we find out that Anthony Weiner and his now ex wife Huma were not only the strangest most bizarre couple in history of coupledom, but apparently great librarians of porn and classified information from the federal government.  Huma apparently did what most of us have done and emailed home stuff to work on that night, except most of us are not emailing highly classified information to a computer shared by a spouse who likes to flirt and who knows what with 15 year old girls over the internet.

I'm sorry, maybe I'm out of touch, but what the hell is this society's fascination with sending naked pictures of yourself - somehow we all woke in a world where everyone thinks they are hot and I'm sorry, we are not.  Maybe 1 out of 100 are hot and I'd bet I wouldn't even find pictures of, oh crap, my total lack of knowledge of who is famous in Hollywood is shining thru, I can't think of anyone.  The point is, Weiner, you ain't hot, neither is your ex wife.  WOULD EVERYONE STOP SENDING CREEPY NAKED PICTURE OF THEMSELVES, PLEASE?

However, by hot I mean attractive naked, right now the two of you are burning hot.  Would not be surprised to see a news story soon of a murder suicidy thing involving the two of you where Vince Foster leaves a business card, if you get my drift.

Can you imagine the wrath of Hillary on whom she blames for losing this election?

you live in a church
where you sleep with voodoo dolls
and you won't give up the search
for the ghosts in the halls
you wear sandals in the snow
and a smile that won't wash away
can you look out the window
without your shadow getting in the way

I almost rented All The Presidents Men this weekend, but decided it would be too sad to watch.  What a shame what happened to the media in this country, what once could bring a president down or disqualify a person to be president and now, with Hillary, it's obvious nothing as long as you can pay off the right people, have blackmail evidence against others, and a yapping puppy dog media willing to go along for a tickle behind the ears occasionally.

I think all democrats should write in the name of Gary Hart for president as an apology.

It's becoming blatantly obvious to me that neither Hillary or Trump, will fulfill the 4 years in office.  Hillary is guaranteed to be indicted and impeached for crimes and Trump will fall to some patsy shooter organized by our shadow government, guaranteeing Pence or Kaine will fall in line with the globalist agenda.

Forget the new furniture, time to add 6 months of emergency food, buy some silver coins, and another 250 rounds of ammo, and get ready to batten down the hatches, we are in for some evil times coming our way folks.

Not even Sara can get me out of this funk.

Into this night I wander,
it's morning that I dread,
Another day of knowing of
the path I fear to tread,
Oh into the sea of waking dreams
I follow without pride,
Nothing stands between us here
and I won't be denied

And I would be the one
to hold you down,
kiss you so hard,
I'll take your breath away
and after I'd wipe away the tears,
Just close your eyes dear

Sunday, October 23, 2016


This is an open letter to all those thinking of voting for Hillary Clinton and why you should not.

Last night I watched a rerun of a Dr. Who episode, the one with Simon Pegg as the guest star, where this giant ship orbits the earth, providing all the news to the planet, all designed to keep the people passive and under control.  How close we are to this today.  I mean, the news media in this country is every bit as fraudulent as Baghdad Bob or the old Soviet News Agency.

First, let's talk Wikileaks.  Are you paying attention to them?  If you get all your 'news' from the NYT, WP, WSJ, CBSNBCABCCNNMSNBC, GOOGLE/YAHOO,  the answer is no.  So let me quickly highlight an overview of what is in the wikileaks stuff, which comes directly from the emails of Hillary and people working for Hillary.

  1. The mainstream media, on this blog known as DemBitches, is totally in bed with the democratic party to the point of writing stories given to them by democrats or showing their stories to the powers of the democratic party before turning them in at work to make sure they are approved.
  2. Pay for play.  I mentioned yesterday the sweet deal Hillary worked out with Russia for 20% of the Uranium in this country and all Russia had to do was contribute a few million to the Clinton Foundation and give Bill this really good million dollar speaking tour in Russia.
  3. The Clinton Foundation collected millions and millions of dollars for relief aid in Haiti.  Less than 6% of the money collected was distributed in Haiti.  However, many companies were given millions to build hospitals, schools, homes, and roads in Haiti by the Clinton Foundation and as of yet not a brick has been laid.
  4. How the democratic party stole the primary election from Bernie Sanders.
I will stop right there.  Four simple reasons, documented in thousands of emails, that show large corruption.  And this is who you want?  This is the America you dream of?  This is not conspiracy theory people, this is documented for your reading pleasure if you take a moment out of NFL Sunday or from taking your 1,343,048 selfie to post to Facebook.

For the life of me, I can't understand how any person who was for Bernie Sanders can say now they will vote for Hillary.  She stole the primary election, the press worked for them to bury Sanders, she is on record calling Sanders supporters all sorts of variety of losers.  IT'S ALL DOCUMENTED IN THE EMAILS PEOPLE.   

Let me put it this way, there were two candidates in this election year that were going to shake rattle and roll the establishment and corruption; Bernie and Donald.  If Bernie had won the democratic nod and Cruz or Rubio or Kasich had won the republican nod, I'd be writing blogs supporting Bernie.  But to have that passion for Bernie and now walk into the voting booth and vote for Hillary is to give up, give in, and bend over and shout 'thank you sir, may I have another?" 

What will four years of Hillary be like?  What will America become under Hillary?  Let's look at what she's said.

  1. Immigration.  The 30 million illegal aliens in this country will become citizens.  In fact, Hillary, in a speech to Goldman Sacs, dreams of a world where there are no borders, one big hemisphere where people can work and move around all they want.  That is her dream, is that what you want?  This will not raise the standard of living to the rest of the hemisphere to what America is today, it will lower the standard of living in the USA and Canada to what it is in the poorest parts of the hemisphere.  Is this what you want?  Because this is what you are going to get.
  2. H-1B.  A pet peeve of mine.  Law allows corporations who cannot fill highly technical jobs with Americans to subcontract with companies in India or China to bring in those highly trained low paid workers from overseas to fill those gaps.  Says right in the law that corporations cannot use H-1B to replace American workers with low paid alternatives.  How is this working out?  Corporations absolutely love this law.  Corporations want it expanded.  Hillary speaks glowingly of the two companies in India most corporations are using and those two companies showered cash into her campaign and The Clinton Foundation.  So what is the problem?  Well, everyone is ignoring that "cannot use H-1B to replace American workers". The corporations are ignoring it and the justice department under Obama is ignoring it and over the last eight years hundreds of thousands of Americans have not only lost their jobs but they are literally 'forced' to train their replacements if they want any kind of severance pay.  Twenty plus years with a company and if you don't train your replacement, out the door with two weeks pay.  Now hear this:  Hillary plans to expand this law.  Hillary plans to expand it's usage.  So when you vote for Hillary, I hope and pray in 2017 or 2018 you will show up at work and be told you are being replaced by some bloke from India, you will have to suffer the humiliation of training the bloke, and then you can write the president and watch her laugh at you.
  3. There are 96,000,000 unemployed people in this country between the ages of 18 and 65.  There are around 150,000,000 people working between the ages of 18 and 65.  But wait, you cry, that can't be right!  Unemployment is only 5%!!!  Well, quick lesson for you.  The unemployment rate only measures the people collecting an unemployment check, once your 26 weeks are up, you don't have a job?  Tough, you are no longer considered unemployed by the government.  That 96,000,000 is about 25,000,000 more than it was in the 90's and 2000's.  For eight years, that number has hardly moved in any direction.  That is the Obama economic plan result.  Low growth, high unemployment.  And Hillary says she is going to continue the plan, with a few modifications.
  4. ObamaCare becomes Working Person Pays for Everyone's HealthCare.  See, here is a little secret.  ObamaCare was never meant to succeed.  It was meant to fail.  We were blatantly lied to; remember keep your doctor?  They knew that wasn't true - documented.  Remember cost less than cable?  A policy has just about now doubled in cost, more than doubled the out of pocket from what it was.  They KNEW it would implode and the solution will be universal single payer healthcare.  Colorado is about to vote on that state wide with a 10% payroll tax to pay for it.  And thus the problem, remember #1?  150 million working, 96 million not working?  That means the tax will require, and have to be high enough for the 150 million to not only pay for their health care but also the health care of 96 million plus those under 18 and over 65.  And by the way, notice anything else?   A single person will pay the same % as the married guy with a wife and four kids at home - that fair?  Are you working now?  Do a little math and take out 10% of your take home pay from each check.  What is that?  $100 bucks, $150?  That is how much less you will have to spend in the economy, which means what?  Slower economy, fewer jobs, see the slippery slope here people? (Technically, in Colorado, 3.5% is out of paycheck and 6.5% is paid by employer, but that is an additional 6.5% the company is paying for you and 6.5% that you will never see in a raise)
  5. Of course, history has taught us many things, well, for those who pay attention to it.  And Hillary does have a plan, it's war with Russia.  What this planet needs, she thinks,  is a good world war to cull the populations of the America's, Europe, Asia, Russia, Africa, and the middle east.  Call me a nut, but remember if you live, you read it here first.  Hillary getting elected will mean a war with Russia and I hate to say it, but we won't win that war.  Not saying Russia will win it either, cause when it happens there will be no winners.  Unfortunately, megalomaniacs always think they will survive, so Hillary thinks we can start the war, bomb the shit out of Russia, China, and stop them from hitting us though Europe, Japan, S. Korea will probably take a few hits with minor damage in this country to NY, Detroit, and a few other cities, heck, Hillary would probably nuke them herself to clear out the deadwood and then we would be able to manufacture again - hey, not making this up, this is actually the war game plans they play.  Think I'm nuts?  Russia just ran a war scenario where they attempted to move 40 million people out of the cities to the in mountain shelters they've spent the last 20 years building.
  6. By the way, if a nuclear war doesn't bother your liberal wine tasting ketchup on your hotdog little brain, just remember a nuclear war kills trees, birds, field mice and the speckled peckered salamanders too.  And we too have those underground hiding places but you and I are not invited and will be shot trying to get to them.
  7. Do you enjoy reading websites and blogs?  Well, kiss most of them goodbye.  This blog site will be shut down for sure, well, eventually, it's probably flying under the radar but they will get around to it eventually.  Because Hillary envisions a world where the alternative media is gone, where gun ownership by people not in the elite or defense of the elite, will be outlawed, where corporations rule, where the media and government are one and the same.
I feel sorry for millennials, I'm old.  I am just about to complete my 6th decade on the planet.  I've lived, loved, lost, succeeded, failed, laughed, cried, and rested many times over.  I watch the millennials run like lemmings towards the cliff, I guess this is my chance to say stop, but it's wasted, I know.  There is an east wind coming, as Sherlock would say.  But most will never see it coming until it gets over them and then wonder what the hell happened.